something to look forward to

like what lipchong says.. everyone need to have something to look forward to...

i have decided.. i want to travel... prob US or UK.. in Jan 2010. 

so for now.. i need to plan and save and imagine and dream bout it. heheh.. 

Be of one mind

The teachings of Christ is great. The most important thing is that He
has commanded n influenced conformity n alignment of ideals. The ideal
man n the ideal woman is outlined. So is the ideal father mother wife
n husband, ideal pastor deacon, boss n subordinate. The entire roles n
responsibilities of man is laid down before us to follow.

How ideal if every one will follow the laws n teachings. However, man
jus cannot follow one set of ideals.

But those who lived by the same ideals n values will be drawn to each
other. They will come together n eventually become a community. So,
what man has to do is to live the values they believe n to stick to
it. N things will be just fine for him.

In hall, most pple came by to see what the place has to offer. But it
doesn't has a set values to offer. N hence no common values that will
bind the people together. What it offers is the trend n styles of the
choleric population. Within the span of the years that they stay
together, should the trend n styles affected n accepted by the
majority, the group will stay. If it can infect n affect the
generations hence, that is when the alumni is influencial. N that is
when u can consider a tradition is formed.

Traditions is a means n method to force certain conformity. I'm sure
the church has tried but we all know the traditions sometimes became
senseless rules. For the church they can hav a reformation where
people can retrace their roots with the Word of God.

For a place like a hall where pple come and go, once the traditions
are perverted n mixed up, there is no documentation to rely on fit a
"reformation".

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Anyway, it is just saddening to see kids juniors even children to move
on without you.

If I'm a teacher, I will prob emo every year end. :(

I guess it's time. The Almighty God above has shown me that there's no
other way. What I hav to do now is just to start my personal life with
him again. It's time to get back to my routine.

But at the same time, I need to b more studious n start studying.
Enough revelations thru thoughts n dreams, it's time to get some thru
hard core studying. :)

:)

starting line

每个人的人生的起跑点都不一样。有些人在枪声响后都还没起跑。我虽然不能说跑前头，其实也不算与别人在同个起跑点上，但我很庆幸我现在有健全的身体，能够在跑道上。

我祈祷，希望上帝能给我时间让我能毫无意外的跑到起跑点上。 

Job

As I read liming n Marilyn blog about their job, I think I should jot
down something before I got so numb n cannot write anything.

For those who dun know, I m leading a very no-life lifestyle. I am
always trying to OT at work because that will compensation my
considerable low pay. Also, there's really so much to do n to learn at
work that ot is necessary.

What I m doing is to coordinate a certain project that I hav little
technical knowledge. For shearites to understand, it's like being an
SP producer with no idea what is stage, script n sponsors etc. Or,
it's like vice-chairing rag with absolutely no idea what's the work
flow between the engrs n designers.

Am I complaining? Nope. I am thankful for The job. It's prob the
closest thing I can do that is related to chemical engineering. N this
job also also urge me to study harder n grab the chance to learn as
much as possible.

N th colleagues are quite nice!! I jus need to be less self conscious
n mingle more. N my boss is forgiving for all the mistakes made. :)
thank God.

So what do I do after OT? Tuition. Yes. I am still having students for
reasons like the parent doesn't want to change tutor n I need Te
money. Yes. I see the stack of debts that I am incurring n the lack of
cash in the family. I m not complaining also. I am thankful for the
assignments that I hav. N further more, I am not dating n my friends
are too busy dating. The best alternative is to moonlight. This is
also influenced by my bro lipchong. He says, "when I watch tv at home,
I will think it's a waste of time. He could be teaching tuition to
earn money. "

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I am generally very thankful for a job now especially during a time
like this. As I talk to more pple I also start to wonder about my
career progression. Was talking to tong on his car n talk about
earning 7-8k n the pple generally agree that is not enough. Ok. It
means I hav a long way to go.

At this moment, I'm not looking at months or years later. I'm jus keen
to wait for the next pay day to arrive.

If you are thinking that I want to be a salary worker all my life, I
dun think do. But I jus hav to settle the problems at sight first.
Secretly I m still dreaming. I jus need more time to breed n nurture
this dream.

When the music fades All is stripped away .....

what's left?

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and i am thinking.. what is interesting recently.. that i can engage myself in.. 

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mirror

i am not sure if you like to see yourself in the mirror... i guess normally if you are pretty or handsome, you will like..

some times, the exact same reason is why i dun really want to talk too much to my mom or brother.. it instill too much worries and fear in me whenever i see a possible image of myself in them.

sad, isnt it..

and, as much as i want to write more or blog more.. i guess it's time to stop disclosing too much about myself..

Dream

Dreamt of wm , n all of the rest, iincluding drew askin me out for my bday picnic during office lunch hour, Sl is dere, cos wm ever drop hints that he likes her. Exact words from sl, "he ever rained on me! "

Followed by ponding, involves acrobat stunts. 

Then I am late for work. Felt so apologetic for taking such a long lunch. I ended up at a place without cab despite climbing oover a hill!

I had to walk thru that super touristy area to find a cab. 

I woke up.   

I need:

To punch a hole in my brown belt, it's far too loose. 

 black grey etc working socks. Many of them. 

 to bring a jacket to office. But which of my childish jackets can I bring over??

 

if everything you do.. know your stuff well

yes yes..

 

i need to know what is adiabatic prereformer.. i need to know.. PSA.. yes.. i cannot link it to pressure swing absorber! the learning curve is steep. and i need to force myself to learn.

 

i cannot see the end product of my training phase now.. there's like so much to know..

 

it's like chairing a supermajor comm. the only difference is, i wasnt a sub comm member before i start to chair. i dun know what's going on in the sub commnn but i need to run and coordinate the different department.

 

and worse still. i forgot, or should i say, i dun know much about process dept as well!

learn to be thankful

I want to thank God for his kindness! and also confess my sins for
being so coveteous. It is His hands of mercy that He has not dealt
with me directly.
Firstly, as I hav chosen to go shanghai for one year, I am not
scheduled to graduate in june but december. But thankfully, I am able to squeeze my modules in such that I can graduate provisionally.

Fyp selection landed me on a very difficult topic that is century old. Yet, it's too difficult that the proff expected much less from me.

Able to find not one but 3 jobs. At first I was totally whiny about the pay. But thank God for sending people to explain to me what to look out for in a job. not the pay, but the experience.

A company with nice colleages. What I need to do now is to be diligent and work hard and learn as much as possible. yes. i need to be really good in soft skills. it comes with self-confidence and a likeable face. i dun think i can do any thing much to improve but to pray harder. i cant make people to like me... i can only do my best.

doing my best is what i must try to do also. been slacking for sooooo long. all along i have put away study giving myself the excuse that it's not very important. but it's my career and i need to perform and do well.

Glory unto God Almighty. And I pray for a teachable heart and meek attitude at work.

On the job

I want to learn. I hope I can put up a nice amiable face and attitude
to learn.

thank God

i should be thankful..

thankful for a job. and thankful for Him to help me find a job that i will like. 

right now, i jus have to move on and start work with a happier and livelier mood. God, please take away my unnecessary worries about job and people.

anyway, i must confess that i have done something wrong. i shouldnt hav been a little not humble during job selection. humility is what God has taught me for this episode. let's hope it wont affect my future days. God will help me. 

and this is what i have in my iphone wallpaper. it works very well. everytime i use the phone, i am reminded to CALL unto HIM. 

graduating

in this life, we have many preferences, or a better word, it's called biases... 

and i, realise that i have many. so much so that i realise that i am choosing too much about the way i wish to perceive people. 

as i am moving on the first day of my work.. i am so worried for the lack of preparation i am making for it. 

today i realised that i did not make any preparation for nus. i dint join the pre-camps. i dint join the orientation camps. i felt that i have not been initiated into university life. 

the same mistake should not be done at work. but as to how to prepare, i think i cannot think of better ways than to find some solitary time with deep thinking and prayers. only God can tell me what to do. 

joined the secc camp for the first time! yes.. after 4 years in nus. on one hand, i wish i have a looking-glass that i can see myself in.. but on the other hand, i am still afraid of knowing the person i am. 

and i think i am quite easy going.. and i will, unfortunately, hope that everyone is like me. and dun kaopeh so much~

"walk"athon

quoting from a blog post by anglipchong, the bro who ran 42km with me... 

 

30km….We started walking already……

Me: Ernest tell u what, now going up slope, don't run… save energy, down slope we run.

Ernest: Ok, gd idea

At down slope…

Ernest: Lip Chong…down slope don't run. Bad for knee…

ME: I see… point taken..later straight road we run.

Level road….

ME: Eh..water point reaching ley…why don't we run after that. Not good to run and stop lah…momentum lost.

Ernest: Okie..gd idea

After water point….

Ernest: Eh…bro… after eating and drinking..not good to run immediately. Must take a break…

ME: Ic..can ..no prob…then we run later lah…

LOL!!!

marathon

他她

他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我
说话的时候不够认真
沈默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神 说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心

徐若萱-她 他
他他 深深爱著她
他他 永远的吗?
他他 送她玫瑰花和吉它
她她 也深爱著他
她她 不变的吗?
她她 收到的玫瑰花已枯萎了!h～枯萎了!
他和她 爱很美 浪漫就像玫瑰花
他和她 爱很难 很小心也不一定留得住它
他和她 有时后可怕静静地死去它不挣扎 不说话!
他他 轻轻吻著她
他他 弹的吉它
他他 最爱摸她的长头发
她她 看著那个他
她爱听他弹吉它
她寂寞的小世界 被他溶化慢慢溶化
她和他 爱的Melody多到挤不下
她和他 人随时也可能没有明天 不要害怕
她和他 让灵魂自由 看见爱与被爱在打架 算了吧!
他他 送她？？吉它

词曲：梁文福 我问你最近认识什么人 你的沉默已经比你先承认 没有 你对我说没有人 我陪你开车兜圈昏沉沉 你的拥抱说著你不诚恳 没有 你对我说没有人 你为他失了魂 你为他从早到晚等著电话 等著没有人 你曾经对我说 这世界上没有人会像我为你 被风吹不冷 哦 没有人 你车上开始出现你我从来不爱听的歌 你曾经对我说 这世界上没有人会带走一点你对我真 待我问候没有人 搜索 "没有人"mp3  LRC歌词下载  我要打印

feel great standing for the Lord

i guess it feels great to be righteous in the land where righteousness are valued!! 

but sadly, this chance to feel great doesnt' come easily and often. 

只有懂得真心付

anyway, i do want to do up a post for the marathon.. but somehow, i dun have the photos.. still haven find on internet yet.. 

i am having a lethargy to blog.. which is a bad sign. cos it means there's nothign i feel passionate about to blog...

a quick search online will find a lot of proud finisher of the sundown marathon.... for me? i find it otherwise. 

i dun feel any pride.. 

.. maybe cos i dint put in my full effort.. 

maybe cos it comes too easily... 

maybe cos i dint put in a lot of preparation.. the timing is mediocre... 

apparently, completion is not enough... 

maybe that's why i also dun feel excited graduating.. 

i need to find something so cool that i want to excel in!