30 May 2009: birthday and sundown marathon

this day, i am offically 25 years old. thank God. and thank all my friends who gave me a call. i reallie like it. i am jus a sucker for attention i guess. haha.. but it's all going to end. next year, i will be more than a quarter of a century old... prob will think of some other ways to celebrate. 

thanks to my hall friends.. for a dinner on 29th. and the usual hall celebration after dinner and movie. i will miss it.. (photos later)

and thanks to ebenezer who came and sang a birthday song for me. i know it's kinda weird. but i appreciate it and thanks to the organiser for the cake and the effort! 

the highlight of the day is the sundown marathon. thank God for allowing me to complete it. surprisingly, i dint scratch much. reallie. if i had my usual scratch spasasm, i wun be able to finsih the race man..

now, i'm a finisher of 42.195... finally. hahaha.. 

travelling sux

travelling from bedok to clementi

from clementi to buona vista

back to clementi.. and almost going to woodlands and etc.. 

argh.. it's eating me up!

science

it's how i live my life. 

and i want to live it to the fullest. 

but but but.. i do not want to be an atheist. 

a quick talk with chih makes me feel that a person believing in chance and evolution is so... p*thetic. 

thank God

thank God for a partial release of results. and it's pretty good.. for 2 modules. my first ever A+ in NUS. and it's not chem engin module. (no surprise)

eternal sunshine of the spotles mind

No, fly me, fly me, far as pole from pole; 

Rise Alps between us! and whole oceans roll! 

Ah, come not, write not, think not once of me, 

Nor share one pang of all I felt for thee. [3]

Lines 207–210 were spoken in the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, which borrowed line 209 as its title:

How happy is the blamelessvestal's lot! 

The world forgetting, by the world forgot. 

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! 

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd ... [4]

wishing list

1. i forgotten bout it! but.. results coming on 29th/30th! good/decent results please.

2.

3. marathon

4. good career

5. i want to be more sure of it.. 

argh.. i need more routine about this .. qt.. or whatever it is called.

back to primary school time. 

qt

purposefully thinking about what i need to have and do..

1. 

2. get a job .. need to call steven tmr and ask for his reply. 

3. get a higher paid job. look thru recruits today. no potential. i need more papers and recruits. 

4. finsih my FYP. i think i only have 5 pages up today without all the tables and diagram. with the aux and etc.. i guess it's only about 10 pages. argh.. how to finish my report??

right now.. let me think what does it mean by

labor not to be rich...

cease from thy own wisdom. .. . 

provide. how can i ever provide? i know.. i must be chill and wait for Him to provide. but.........

qt is impt

i guess my best days were in primary sch. and thinking back... it's probably i actually made it a point to 'pray'. to reflect EVERYDAY. 

it was easy for me then cos the things that i ask for are so simple and so obvious. results, friends, schools, and watever. 

i want to continually work towards something now too. but i am nto sure what. i must decide should it be money, life, people or whatever. yes. it should be God but i guess i need more seriously planning. 

right now,

1. i want to finish my FYP

2. find a high paying  enough job with good prospect and high personal satisfaction. 

back at 1

i want to go back.. to the days of my childhood. not because i am carefree. but back then, at least i know what i want. 

goals are so easy to set. simply getting the results or knowing friends etc...

now, i hesitate to pursue. 

i am taught not to pursue things transient. 

i am also taught to pursue things that are attractive. 

so much so that i am not deciding. i cannot even decide who to call or sms regularly. i cannot also decide where my allegiance should be. 

i need to decide. 

the dream catcher

you know what? i am so glad that i have copied my dream catcher machine and brought it back to singapore. today isn't reallie very nice. being bogged down with things to do. that's not bad. it's good to be busy. but my day was ruin with failed attempts to get them done. esp with my cranky lappie. and i have to endure for a while more before i can have enough money to buy a new one. dun feel like buying also.. in this time of uncertainty. i am going to be unemployed sooon =(

but the thing is.. i am glad i went for a run!! the run from sheares to west coast mac. the run cool. not as amazing as my original patented dreamcatching bike in shanghai but it's a good copy of it. feels good running and thinking bout things in general.

Chinese S'poreans should focus on learning Mandarin well, says MM Lee

"He said Singapore is useful to China because we have access to the English-speaking world and have developed links with them due to our language policy. At the same time, Singaporeans are fluent in Mandarin; hence we can communicate with those in China and help them understand the West." MM Lee

well.. i think.. maybe this advantage might be diminished already! sadly.

 

 

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Chinese S'poreans should focus on learning Mandarin well, says MM Lee

via Channel NewsAsia Singapore News on 3/17/09

SINGAPORE: The trend of Chinese dialects dying out in Singapore is irreversible, said Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew, who urged Singaporeans to focus more energy on learning Mandarin instead.

 

 

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busy

i am busy, sick and tied with deadlines.
i am hungry. and feeble.

i need food, at my doorstep.


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i have grown. i am more candid. i have tried more things and i know where i am heading to now. haha.. meanwhile, let me be more responsible and finish my duties one by one.

a fine thin line

are you from the ivy league? if given a choice, will you go?

i am thinking about how to be capable. does it mean that you are confident? or does it entails success tied to your name.

it's a thin thin line between
ego and confidence
emo and sensitive
sure and complacent
helpful and kaypoh
concerned and unduly worried

sigh..



Ernest Wong
(65) 98178465

grad soon

i will want to start blogging freqently. it is when i blog, i pause to think  and it is impt. thinking back, it's the days of freq blogging that i understand myself better.

nowadays, i tried to avoid thinking about things too much. but in the end, it just mean that i think about things haphazardly. writing down helps me to realise my faults and mistakes.

anyway.. yeap.. those who are reading.. which are few, i know at least you all bother. for those who dun bother, i will also not emo but will return them with similar perception.

and i tot i have gotten used to ego kids during the year in shanghai. probably i am not. i have yet to learn and master the skill of drawing the line between friends and "colleagues"

when the times are tough, fall on knees

when the times are tough, fall on knees

i know, the dark clouds above are pushing me to my knees.

i know that is what i should do.. i am getting closer to the ground.

problematic maths.. jus like hysys

tag tag

this post to show that i am around...

yeap.. i hope i wasnt the one criticising about hair. cos i never. cos i am one myself.

shux.. i think that;s the only line i can think of tagging. cant name more pple whom i think will be reading.

anyway... what's the result of being non-emo? it's what i am now. i do feel a bit when i was deprived of attention. but then again, i decided to shrug the stupid idea. anyway, who gives a damn about you for life?
non-emo is a double-edged sword.

what and why should we believe

getting out of dogmas

I am trying to get out of details. and trying to stop conforming to pple's perceptions. as much as i can. for now.

i am busy.. yes i am.

fyp, design. finding jobs, finding tuitions, finding money
trying to read notes, tutorials, literature
trying to write thoughts and
trying to make time for Him.

if i am going to be locked up in a concentration camp. i wonder what will be my core value and what will keep me alive inside.
most get of out the camps with a strong relationships - ambition, family, God.

what will i do?

what will you do? how sure are you?

maybe i should be looking for something that i reallie hold dearly for. but what will it be?

Don’t Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit!

Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victors cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit!