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年轻的时候常看着大人的电影，憧憬着在商场上轰轰烈烈拼搏；听着电台的歌，试
着感受歌词的意境。成人世界里，生活就象几米小品一样的简单。日出日落，潮起
潮落，时间就慢慢地在我们不注意的时候快快的流失。

时而会非常的放纵自己，有酒今朝醉。但压抑的悲观念头浮现时，我们又怎么面
对？ --＂我们能挥霍到几时呢？人有旦夕祸福啊！＂

这时候，多希望生命的作者能妙笔一挥，在我的生活多增色彩，在我的人生故事里
添多几个人物。





不然，至少风平浪静，无忧无虑。

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我们的未来不是梦

Ship

I will die with my people on board ship for a worthy cause. But if I'm
thrown off the board, then I will continue swimming.

hello world

this world is not my home.. i'm just a passing thru.. 

but everyone has different styles of travelling.. some like to travel light. and some prefer to indulge themselves during vacations. 

it seems that a lot of the working pple are getting tired of their work. everyone like to pause and think about that they reallie want. it's a common hobby to secretly fantasizing about the other life that they can be leading. 

me? i can foresee myself being a workaholic at the very instance i am given the chance. but i nv expect myself to land at such a technical job. i like it! but i cannot help me but to remind myself that the society doesnt reward employees anymore. you need to be your own boss.. 

everyone wishes that they are earning more.. actually, for a person who is not attached... i wonder why am i not earning enough. i mean why am i not saving enough. 

there's a hell of things that are not exactly wasteful but yet i am unwilling to spend... am i getting too stingy on myself? i wanted a bed for years and till now not bought. my specs has spoilt and it's ugly and yet i'm not making a new pair. i wish for more pretty socks that is recognisable so that i dun have search thru the pile in the morning for my socks. most of the time i dun even know if that pair is mine. i enjoy fridays cos i can wear socks that are obviously mine! those with yellow lining loll. =) 

and did i say i need a water bottle at work? i am tempted to bring my usual vodka bottle to work but dun reallie want to be that AA in the office. lol... hence i have been making do with a cup. 

and... i will want to father a child. reallie. it will be good if he is as cute as ethan. lol. but then again, i hav been thinking of the possibilities of not having a family. seriously, i dun consider myself a product of sucessful parenting and i dun think i will ever learn how to be a good parent as well.. i guess it's in the genes. to prevent having more unhappy babies in the world.. i shall abstain. 

and... been to different churches is giving me different thoughts and feelings. a church was a social unit.. integral in the society. but today... ? and i also think that, i may have to let go of treasured ties and friendships if i should leave.. 

iPhone n responsibility of speech

My current best investment is an iPhone. Not only did it give me
connectivity at work n during travel, its application really makes
things so much more convenient. If I am take bus n hav an option of
changing different bus services at different bus stop, my application
allows me to check of the waiting time for either scenerio. Hence I
can make an informed decision.

Sometimes I felt that I talk too much. Sometimes too little. I must
learn to be confident n responsible for my speech. N I must learn n
improve myself so that I can stop being an empty vessel. :( God help me.

Ps: this is blog thru iPhone too.

something to look forward to

like what lipchong says.. everyone need to have something to look forward to...

i have decided.. i want to travel... prob US or UK.. in Jan 2010. 

so for now.. i need to plan and save and imagine and dream bout it. heheh.. 

Be of one mind

The teachings of Christ is great. The most important thing is that He
has commanded n influenced conformity n alignment of ideals. The ideal
man n the ideal woman is outlined. So is the ideal father mother wife
n husband, ideal pastor deacon, boss n subordinate. The entire roles n
responsibilities of man is laid down before us to follow.

How ideal if every one will follow the laws n teachings. However, man
jus cannot follow one set of ideals.

But those who lived by the same ideals n values will be drawn to each
other. They will come together n eventually become a community. So,
what man has to do is to live the values they believe n to stick to
it. N things will be just fine for him.

In hall, most pple came by to see what the place has to offer. But it
doesn't has a set values to offer. N hence no common values that will
bind the people together. What it offers is the trend n styles of the
choleric population. Within the span of the years that they stay
together, should the trend n styles affected n accepted by the
majority, the group will stay. If it can infect n affect the
generations hence, that is when the alumni is influencial. N that is
when u can consider a tradition is formed.

Traditions is a means n method to force certain conformity. I'm sure
the church has tried but we all know the traditions sometimes became
senseless rules. For the church they can hav a reformation where
people can retrace their roots with the Word of God.

For a place like a hall where pple come and go, once the traditions
are perverted n mixed up, there is no documentation to rely on fit a
"reformation".

................

Anyway, it is just saddening to see kids juniors even children to move
on without you.

If I'm a teacher, I will prob emo every year end. :(

I guess it's time. The Almighty God above has shown me that there's no
other way. What I hav to do now is just to start my personal life with
him again. It's time to get back to my routine.

But at the same time, I need to b more studious n start studying.
Enough revelations thru thoughts n dreams, it's time to get some thru
hard core studying. :)

:)

starting line

每个人的人生的起跑点都不一样。有些人在枪声响后都还没起跑。我虽然不能说跑前头，其实也不算与别人在同个起跑点上，但我很庆幸我现在有健全的身体，能够在跑道上。

我祈祷，希望上帝能给我时间让我能毫无意外的跑到起跑点上。 

Job

As I read liming n Marilyn blog about their job, I think I should jot
down something before I got so numb n cannot write anything.

For those who dun know, I m leading a very no-life lifestyle. I am
always trying to OT at work because that will compensation my
considerable low pay. Also, there's really so much to do n to learn at
work that ot is necessary.

What I m doing is to coordinate a certain project that I hav little
technical knowledge. For shearites to understand, it's like being an
SP producer with no idea what is stage, script n sponsors etc. Or,
it's like vice-chairing rag with absolutely no idea what's the work
flow between the engrs n designers.

Am I complaining? Nope. I am thankful for The job. It's prob the
closest thing I can do that is related to chemical engineering. N this
job also also urge me to study harder n grab the chance to learn as
much as possible.

N th colleagues are quite nice!! I jus need to be less self conscious
n mingle more. N my boss is forgiving for all the mistakes made. :)
thank God.

So what do I do after OT? Tuition. Yes. I am still having students for
reasons like the parent doesn't want to change tutor n I need Te
money. Yes. I see the stack of debts that I am incurring n the lack of
cash in the family. I m not complaining also. I am thankful for the
assignments that I hav. N further more, I am not dating n my friends
are too busy dating. The best alternative is to moonlight. This is
also influenced by my bro lipchong. He says, "when I watch tv at home,
I will think it's a waste of time. He could be teaching tuition to
earn money. "

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I am generally very thankful for a job now especially during a time
like this. As I talk to more pple I also start to wonder about my
career progression. Was talking to tong on his car n talk about
earning 7-8k n the pple generally agree that is not enough. Ok. It
means I hav a long way to go.

At this moment, I'm not looking at months or years later. I'm jus keen
to wait for the next pay day to arrive.

If you are thinking that I want to be a salary worker all my life, I
dun think do. But I jus hav to settle the problems at sight first.
Secretly I m still dreaming. I jus need more time to breed n nurture
this dream.

When the music fades All is stripped away .....

what's left?

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and i am thinking.. what is interesting recently.. that i can engage myself in.. 

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mirror

i am not sure if you like to see yourself in the mirror... i guess normally if you are pretty or handsome, you will like..

some times, the exact same reason is why i dun really want to talk too much to my mom or brother.. it instill too much worries and fear in me whenever i see a possible image of myself in them.

sad, isnt it..

and, as much as i want to write more or blog more.. i guess it's time to stop disclosing too much about myself..

Dream

Dreamt of wm , n all of the rest, iincluding drew askin me out for my bday picnic during office lunch hour, Sl is dere, cos wm ever drop hints that he likes her. Exact words from sl, "he ever rained on me! "

Followed by ponding, involves acrobat stunts. 

Then I am late for work. Felt so apologetic for taking such a long lunch. I ended up at a place without cab despite climbing oover a hill!

I had to walk thru that super touristy area to find a cab. 

I woke up.   

I need:

To punch a hole in my brown belt, it's far too loose. 

 black grey etc working socks. Many of them. 

 to bring a jacket to office. But which of my childish jackets can I bring over??

 

if everything you do.. know your stuff well

yes yes..

 

i need to know what is adiabatic prereformer.. i need to know.. PSA.. yes.. i cannot link it to pressure swing absorber! the learning curve is steep. and i need to force myself to learn.

 

i cannot see the end product of my training phase now.. there's like so much to know..

 

it's like chairing a supermajor comm. the only difference is, i wasnt a sub comm member before i start to chair. i dun know what's going on in the sub commnn but i need to run and coordinate the different department.

 

and worse still. i forgot, or should i say, i dun know much about process dept as well!

learn to be thankful

I want to thank God for his kindness! and also confess my sins for
being so coveteous. It is His hands of mercy that He has not dealt
with me directly.
Firstly, as I hav chosen to go shanghai for one year, I am not
scheduled to graduate in june but december. But thankfully, I am able to squeeze my modules in such that I can graduate provisionally.

Fyp selection landed me on a very difficult topic that is century old. Yet, it's too difficult that the proff expected much less from me.

Able to find not one but 3 jobs. At first I was totally whiny about the pay. But thank God for sending people to explain to me what to look out for in a job. not the pay, but the experience.

A company with nice colleages. What I need to do now is to be diligent and work hard and learn as much as possible. yes. i need to be really good in soft skills. it comes with self-confidence and a likeable face. i dun think i can do any thing much to improve but to pray harder. i cant make people to like me... i can only do my best.

doing my best is what i must try to do also. been slacking for sooooo long. all along i have put away study giving myself the excuse that it's not very important. but it's my career and i need to perform and do well.

Glory unto God Almighty. And I pray for a teachable heart and meek attitude at work.

On the job

I want to learn. I hope I can put up a nice amiable face and attitude
to learn.

thank God

i should be thankful..

thankful for a job. and thankful for Him to help me find a job that i will like. 

right now, i jus have to move on and start work with a happier and livelier mood. God, please take away my unnecessary worries about job and people.

anyway, i must confess that i have done something wrong. i shouldnt hav been a little not humble during job selection. humility is what God has taught me for this episode. let's hope it wont affect my future days. God will help me. 

and this is what i have in my iphone wallpaper. it works very well. everytime i use the phone, i am reminded to CALL unto HIM.