我们的未来不是梦

Ship

I will die with my people on board ship for a worthy cause. But if I'm
thrown off the board, then I will continue swimming.

hello world

this world is not my home.. i'm just a passing thru.. 

but everyone has different styles of travelling.. some like to travel light. and some prefer to indulge themselves during vacations. 

it seems that a lot of the working pple are getting tired of their work. everyone like to pause and think about that they reallie want. it's a common hobby to secretly fantasizing about the other life that they can be leading. 

me? i can foresee myself being a workaholic at the very instance i am given the chance. but i nv expect myself to land at such a technical job. i like it! but i cannot help me but to remind myself that the society doesnt reward employees anymore. you need to be your own boss.. 

everyone wishes that they are earning more.. actually, for a person who is not attached... i wonder why am i not earning enough. i mean why am i not saving enough. 

there's a hell of things that are not exactly wasteful but yet i am unwilling to spend... am i getting too stingy on myself? i wanted a bed for years and till now not bought. my specs has spoilt and it's ugly and yet i'm not making a new pair. i wish for more pretty socks that is recognisable so that i dun have search thru the pile in the morning for my socks. most of the time i dun even know if that pair is mine. i enjoy fridays cos i can wear socks that are obviously mine! those with yellow lining loll. =) 

and did i say i need a water bottle at work? i am tempted to bring my usual vodka bottle to work but dun reallie want to be that AA in the office. lol... hence i have been making do with a cup. 

and... i will want to father a child. reallie. it will be good if he is as cute as ethan. lol. but then again, i hav been thinking of the possibilities of not having a family. seriously, i dun consider myself a product of sucessful parenting and i dun think i will ever learn how to be a good parent as well.. i guess it's in the genes. to prevent having more unhappy babies in the world.. i shall abstain. 

and... been to different churches is giving me different thoughts and feelings. a church was a social unit.. integral in the society. but today... ? and i also think that, i may have to let go of treasured ties and friendships if i should leave..