Sunday, October 30, 2005

抉择

人类是充满智慧的一群 虽然智慧的定义有待争论
小时候 人生的哲理有妈妈灌输 “长大有什么好呢?” 她说。 “长大后就有许多的烦恼。” 也就因为如此,我学着慢慢的长大。人与人之间的关系我学着一赤子之心以待。
中学时候,学校所灌输的哲理牵制着我。“先天下之忧而忧,后天下之乐而乐” 看《射雕》知道何谓 “侠之大者”。
可是当你的理念和周围的人格格不入,你是否还能持之以恒?

大学,从前是思想家聚集之处? PhD = Doctor of Philosophy! 是个笑话吗?

Friday, October 28, 2005

tech crew


tech crew.. allan, yingying, jason, ernest, shiqin~

3 types of pple

today went to furama hotel with tech crew to help cmb put up this erm.. dinner performance thing. basically, they eat we sing. haha. anyone listens? erm.. i bet there are, those who are bored with talking. =) no lah.. but i guess cmb pple can sing well.

anyway, a sad thing to comment on. a phenomenon that i dun like and in a state of denial.

there are basically 3 types of pple in this world.

1. those who look like they are good. like to talk and make pple work.
2. those who work busily, bustling in and out. if you ask them to stop working, they feel quite erm.. useless. so they are good workers, at the same time, helping a group of pple and motivate them together.
3. those who dun wish to motivate pple, just wish to work, just wish to work when it's necessary. some think they are working smart. some think that they are doing sufficient.

of all, this world is paying group 1 the most and the best and they have the best outlook. so, in schools they try to nature leaders. do they nature group 1 or group 2?

so how? i felt so out of the group. a group 2 who is a group 1 wannabe but in actually he's actually grp 3 in pple's eye.

jus crapping.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

写一首歌

想写一首歌
一首动人心弦的歌
一首牵动人心
一副天籁之音
千里寻知音

想画一幅画
一幅回味无穷的画
让人触景伤情
让大家有共鸣
海内存知己

想登上心灵的最高峰
对这个世界说
我的未来不是梦

yan wu ren sheng

人就是那么的犯贱。虽然我知道读书应该胜于工作,有机会读书的我却想快点毕业。没什么意思,只想发发牢骚。

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

if i can hear feelings and thoughts

if i can hear thoughts, will i find similar feelings and thinking as mine?

when you are thinking, "will he/she feel bored with my conversation?", will he be saying "i hope he's not seeing thru me that i'm bad with conversations."

that's idealistic. but, often, i felt not.

if you realise that there's cliques forming, are you excluded or are you self excluding? it's bad to have using the following examples but i tot of yulin in PA last time. she's so enthu but we have often subtly excluded her existence. there's this time when we were walking out of VJ to parkway and she went to collect her bike to park at the busstop. when we reach the busstop, we hope on the bus forgetting her. we asked ourselves, whose fault is it? we cannot give an answer.

what happen when you are not part of the 4-seater car?

acutally things are going well, just that they are not going the way i tot it will be. oh, how can i see God's plan. He's giving me more time to work and more time to study. He's providing for me and yet i am escaping from His provision. it's always like that for men -- fan jian.

Monday, October 10, 2005

eugene send off



yeap. from 6 to 5 and now to 4. =) 1 in ntu, 1 in biz, 1 in sci and 1 in engin. haha. wat a mix. ~

see you next year eugene

my table

my working desk in hall. i know i haven't been posting blogs. haha. i kinda really miss those days. well, this is the time to test my faith, to put God first in the midst of study. but also cannot neglect studies cos need to honour God thru studies. argh.

been busy with hall stuffs, some of the stuffs i am the ic so cannot no show. things will get better i think. need to study real hard. need to get into that studying mode. it's very tough for me. please pray for me..

you guys have any updates??

honghao going to india right?? tell us about it and update us okie.! you are leaving in less than a month's time right?/ take care

Friday, October 07, 2005

a quote from someone

"I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Thursday, October 06, 2005

not talking sense

a common phenomenon of not talking sense will result in pple not talkin to you and hence less opportunity to learn to talk entertainingly~

result? suffer consequence or change. how to change? if dun know then just accept. ? argh

weeks later, not companion, tampines will i be next.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

yuwei's bdae

if you think i am wasting time blogging. i think it's worth it all when i look back years later.

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yuwei's bdae. on children's day. a chance to meet up with weilun yuwei huawei jiwei huiying. in fact, weilun is in my course! huawei in my faculty; yuwei beside my hall. but this is different. becuase this is friends gathering. and not meeting classmates in school. this is my 1st bdae this month, and 2 more to go.

yesh, i think i am seriously enjoying myself. short lessons, little homework and erm.. nice place to sleep everynight. if i switched off about things in school, life is a bed of roses.

and tonight, i am at home. things are kind of different at home compared to last time. somehow, i think my mom is concerned about me. well, i mean, it's obvious. my dad bought chicken essense for me to bring to hostel; my mom bought ba kwa and even seaweed. the fridge is stock with my favourite cheese singles. i just cant help but smile to myself.

so, i should work hard. if not for me, at least for my parents.

it's not almost like the olden days when parents slog and save up every single cents for children's university but it is not far off. the same love is there - wanting to give the best for their children.

if our earthly parents so love their children, what good thing will my heavenly Father withhold from me. yesh.. !!! must remember.!!

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