it's weixiong birthday treat today at tao's restaurant @paradiz centre. quite a nice place with a nice set of dinner. it seems that we are rather generous this year.. all treating quite ahem.. ex.. dinner. haha.. my turn is the next to come.. we shall see where will i bring them to.. :)
u.issac said something which pricks me a bit today. that is my diary. is it full of contentment or full of woes? indeed as a christian i should be contented with things and stop complaining.. but, somehow, i just like to conform to this world's teachings -"why settle for the simple? aim high.. ask for more.."
also, i do think i have this tendency to complain to show that i am leading a diff life.. erm.. in a way tellin others that all of them have a better life than me.. a mindset to be changed again..
my driving test is coming in apr and yet i think i still dun know how to drive.. argh.. i wan to be at least proficient enough to take the test. going to have more lessons per week from now on.. dun know if that will help. but just try lor..
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
wendy
a formidable character that i wouldn't want to be. allow me to say this little request.. pls, pls.. dun let me be like her. please.
see too keep saying that i behave like her, as naggy and etc.. oh my!!! i dun wish to be like that. it's my retribution, is it? i hope not.
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this is something that is going to happen in my office, and i think it will affect me.
my office comprises 2 sections, namely the ACTIVE and NS SECTION. NS SECTION consists of wilfred jason francis (excluding going to ROD personnel). and ACTIVE? ME.. only.
there is a plan to centralise all NS depts. so the NS Section will move out. what's left? me.
my present boss will be going to the new centralised NS section, together with ONE person in my office.
senerio 1: i stay in my present office. and work with all the new people, new boss (may be a military personnel!!??) and new workLOAD and everyting else
senerio 2: learn NS matters within short time and follow mrs seet to the new place. there, will be facing a new working concept and new block also....
either place will be full of uncertainties!! so... i really dun know what to hope for. all i can ask is, May GOD give me the best. :)
see too keep saying that i behave like her, as naggy and etc.. oh my!!! i dun wish to be like that. it's my retribution, is it? i hope not.
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this is something that is going to happen in my office, and i think it will affect me.
my office comprises 2 sections, namely the ACTIVE and NS SECTION. NS SECTION consists of wilfred jason francis (excluding going to ROD personnel). and ACTIVE? ME.. only.
there is a plan to centralise all NS depts. so the NS Section will move out. what's left? me.
my present boss will be going to the new centralised NS section, together with ONE person in my office.
senerio 1: i stay in my present office. and work with all the new people, new boss (may be a military personnel!!??) and new workLOAD and everyting else
senerio 2: learn NS matters within short time and follow mrs seet to the new place. there, will be facing a new working concept and new block also....
either place will be full of uncertainties!! so... i really dun know what to hope for. all i can ask is, May GOD give me the best. :)
Monday, February 23, 2004
another blog
The World Thru' My Eyes... this blog is something like lovestruck.com it's as "scandalous". freak, why people like this kind of scandal. but honestly, i also dun like this gal. and i have supporters, that's why there's a site call xiaxue's hate site haha.. oh ya.. she's from RV.. hm.. din't knwo RV got this kind of people.. thank God the rest whom i know are nice people.
met jiwei out for dinner tonight. as usual,he's late. and i was, was angry. but come to think bout it, man i know him for long enough to accept his behavior right?!!! i will try my best to keep my cool next time..
then, why wasn't i as angry when weixiong is late?? ahmm. i really dun know..
i dun know should i visit tekong tmr.. the dockets are not fully ready; and teh traffic will be congested due to aerospace exhibition.. so should i go down!!!!??? no one can ans me. i guess i have to make my own sound decision. hmm.. really dun know.. no wonder i am not an officer. !
nuff said... nite
met jiwei out for dinner tonight. as usual,he's late. and i was, was angry. but come to think bout it, man i know him for long enough to accept his behavior right?!!! i will try my best to keep my cool next time..
then, why wasn't i as angry when weixiong is late?? ahmm. i really dun know..
i dun know should i visit tekong tmr.. the dockets are not fully ready; and teh traffic will be congested due to aerospace exhibition.. so should i go down!!!!??? no one can ans me. i guess i have to make my own sound decision. hmm.. really dun know.. no wonder i am not an officer. !
nuff said... nite
Sunday, February 22, 2004
eugene's bdae dinner
we have a treat from eugene for his birthday tonight. it's at brewerks, at clark quay. really quite a nice place, which nice dim lights and television which shows soccer matches. i guess it's a good hangout place.
the dinner was quite ex... think it has hit record for the past 7 years. it's really his generosity. tks gene~
it's our tradition for the bdae boy to treat. really nice. an official excuse to come together. i foresee, in days to come, maybe we may be damn busy with our own world, but at least, we ahve 6 gatherings a year. too little, but better than nothing.
and of cos, i will to con't to tell myself this: stop my attitude problem and whatever complex i have, get a life and be sociable... HE is there to help me.
the dinner was quite ex... think it has hit record for the past 7 years. it's really his generosity. tks gene~
it's our tradition for the bdae boy to treat. really nice. an official excuse to come together. i foresee, in days to come, maybe we may be damn busy with our own world, but at least, we ahve 6 gatherings a year. too little, but better than nothing.
and of cos, i will to con't to tell myself this: stop my attitude problem and whatever complex i have, get a life and be sociable... HE is there to help me.
my attempt to join in
i think i have tried, not my best although, to join in 'weiming's clique' but failed. i start to think, maybe it's not totally my fault for not fitting into them.
i dun drink, i dun club, i dun enjoy soccer and i dun enjoy betting soccer. no wonder i dun find joy in their activities. i am just interested in soulmates.. erm.. how should i go bout it.. can friends with little interaction still be as transparant and willing to share? let time tell.
dixon wanted to come my house today... but i have failed him in order to join weiming etc.. hope i am making a right decision. dixon says he has few friends... and i think it seems quite true. he's spending his time mostly on gals. when the relationship ends, there's a gap to fill... but i can see that he's being friends with us.. see how lor.. :)
i dun drink, i dun club, i dun enjoy soccer and i dun enjoy betting soccer. no wonder i dun find joy in their activities. i am just interested in soulmates.. erm.. how should i go bout it.. can friends with little interaction still be as transparant and willing to share? let time tell.
dixon wanted to come my house today... but i have failed him in order to join weiming etc.. hope i am making a right decision. dixon says he has few friends... and i think it seems quite true. he's spending his time mostly on gals. when the relationship ends, there's a gap to fill... but i can see that he's being friends with us.. see how lor.. :)
wage theory
i have attempt to provide an answer as to why am i underpaid!!! however, failed. SAF set the demand and set the supply. imptly, they set the price. they are even more capable than monopoly!!! cos they are communits@
i think i am underpaid cos i think i am doing a spec job and yet i am paid little.
weming also think he's underpaid. he's a spec, doing a major's job.
jevin also think he's underpaid. he's an officer doing what a professional/regular is doing.
man are just a greedy kind. BUT I do wish to justify for my unhappines bout my pay. i am also doing what a regular is doing and that regular is earning erm.. 2-3k. so, isn't it much like jevin's case?
but let's think, maybe the maj is doing a LTC's job and so on... it's the norm to be underpaid! maybe that will make me feel better.
mrs seet is cc, but she's doing an AO job.
ms to is fo, and mind you.. she's the FO for whole HQ cum all the brigades.. ~
let's accept our lot
i think i am underpaid cos i think i am doing a spec job and yet i am paid little.
weming also think he's underpaid. he's a spec, doing a major's job.
jevin also think he's underpaid. he's an officer doing what a professional/regular is doing.
man are just a greedy kind. BUT I do wish to justify for my unhappines bout my pay. i am also doing what a regular is doing and that regular is earning erm.. 2-3k. so, isn't it much like jevin's case?
but let's think, maybe the maj is doing a LTC's job and so on... it's the norm to be underpaid! maybe that will make me feel better.
mrs seet is cc, but she's doing an AO job.
ms to is fo, and mind you.. she's the FO for whole HQ cum all the brigades.. ~
let's accept our lot
Thursday, February 19, 2004
regret
the other time when i went out with alan, i am puttin on a mask, and a protective gear.. afterwhich i have regretted not opening up. i am too 'opaque'... i tot i will learn a lesson and know how to be truthful to gain a friend. i think i have failed..again. will i have another chance? i hope so..
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
ernest? are you sure?
they say i look good.. ms to, wilfred, dixon, etc.. and they also say:" eh.. how come your skin seems better har?? use photoshop to edit izzit!!" haha... andi reply.. ya.. that WAS my photo...
dun know if i will ever revert back to my self in the photo? doubt so, unless i turn back to steriods, which i will not.
so sad.
think of removing the pic from friendster.. but.. nvm nvm.. let me look better in the virtual world, since it is meant to be virtual.
j o c e l y n n
j o c e l y n n i dun know what am i unhappy about.. i have been readin blogs.. people i know and people i dun know. trying to imagine my life in the future and my life that should have been in the past. i am unhappy bout my webdesign. and i am unhappy bout my sense of judgement.. i am just not satisfied with myself.
2S01C 2000
2S01C 2000 i have always wanted to create webpages to commerate my beloved school/ class and friends.. just like this page. but, eh.. come to think bout it.. is it the class? or the people...? suddenly i think of my favourite class "2H". but it seems that we are together in it anymore. i have done too little to keep us together. it's my fault, it's my inferior complex and inadequate that causes it..
so, it is stil worth it to spend time making webpages for events in life? eh.. really dun know. i guess it will not really benefit me a lot, but those in school now, that they may be inspired to have a beloved clas.. ok! cut~
so, it is stil worth it to spend time making webpages for events in life? eh.. really dun know. i guess it will not really benefit me a lot, but those in school now, that they may be inspired to have a beloved clas.. ok! cut~
blogging
to me, a blog is like a newspaper, in which i am the chief editor.
a blog that is not read by anyone, is like projecteyeball.com -- no one bothers.
a blog that is read but not commented, like the newpaper, being read at the stand but not paying money.
however, i am not interested in the money, i just wan to know that people actually willing, or are on the verge of paying. erm.. i mean, i just wan to know that people are reading!
i know this is contary to my aim in setting up a blog... i dun know. this is human isn't it, contradicting oneself and yet dun know why..
and those who dun blog frequent enough, is like the straits times missing its deadline, and the whole world will wonder what has happen??
crap!~
a blog that is not read by anyone, is like projecteyeball.com -- no one bothers.
a blog that is read but not commented, like the newpaper, being read at the stand but not paying money.
however, i am not interested in the money, i just wan to know that people actually willing, or are on the verge of paying. erm.. i mean, i just wan to know that people are reading!
i know this is contary to my aim in setting up a blog... i dun know. this is human isn't it, contradicting oneself and yet dun know why..
and those who dun blog frequent enough, is like the straits times missing its deadline, and the whole world will wonder what has happen??
crap!~
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
numbers and personalities
square root (-2) - you are complex. there is no place for you a normal number line. hence you have to either have to be above the rest in the argand diagram. if you are not above all, you tend to degenerade yourself to hit below the base line. either another sq root (-2) or a reciprocal of yourself wil make you whole
e - what can i say... you are just natural. come to this world to give solutions to problems. however, people who dun know how to handle you and those who dun treat you like the rest will have problems with you. you need to be treated like the rest (normal numbers). you can be rational with no one unless he/she is your direct inverse. only then will you two become 1 (literally).
e - what can i say... you are just natural. come to this world to give solutions to problems. however, people who dun know how to handle you and those who dun treat you like the rest will have problems with you. you need to be treated like the rest (normal numbers). you can be rational with no one unless he/she is your direct inverse. only then will you two become 1 (literally).
Monday, February 16, 2004
despatch
today i have a chance to go for a despatch to cmpb and mindef again. i have always like this. cos i can see my friends and say hi. jisut a simple hi and i do feelmuch better. i feel that i a not a loner, and i am not alone. hehe
met matthew and kevin in #09.. wanted to visit yue'en but was barred from entering cos i was in civilian clothings. well.. it seems destined that i dun get to visit alvin, etc.. haha.. too bad...
met matthew and kevin in #09.. wanted to visit yue'en but was barred from entering cos i was in civilian clothings. well.. it seems destined that i dun get to visit alvin, etc.. haha.. too bad...
*ru's webbie*
*ru's webbie* really feel that all of us have emotional ups and down. not only emotional, sometimes also our careers etc..
really feel like starting this project,which is to plot OUR emotional points aka F(emotion quality) against time/s
really feel like starting this project,which is to plot OUR emotional points aka F(emotion quality) against time/s
Sunday, February 15, 2004
numbers~~
| What Irrational Number Are You? | |||
You are π Of all the irrational numbers, you are the most famous. You have many friends and fans. Like many people, non-Euclidean geometry makes you feel uncomfortable. You are involved in so many things that it seems like it would take two of you to make ends meet. You are particularly close to the rational number 22/7. However, you and e have been called "remarkable." Your lucky number is approximately 3.14159265 | |||
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| What Irrational Number Are You? | |||
You are √2 You are in good company, many other square roots are also irrational numbers. Just by being a square root you have been branded a radical. You are considered very attractive, especially by Europeans (at least on paper.) You fear that a relationship with another √2 may somehow end up complex and ultimately imaginary. In reality, only another √2 will make you whole. Your lucky number is approximately 1.41421356 | |||
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i have tried many combi, and only gotten two personality types!!! what kind of test is this!!! haha.. nonetheless, i do like the description it gives and the analogies drawn from number!!! haha..
nice dinner
i do think that my family is eating too much...
we went out for dinner today at bedok blk 85 there... we ordered bout 4 dishes with a bowl of rice each. that sounds pretty much like a meal done, isn't it? haha.. nope. in addition, i had a plate of chicken chop. okok.. so i have having 2 share of dinner?? nope.. i din really feel the satisfaction until i have my bowl of ba cuo mee. haha.. oh ya.. not forgeting my satays.. i am not alone in slurging my father's money on food. my brother had 2 bowls of ba cuo mee.. i think we really could have gone further.. but we din.. :)
okay. tmr i need to reach camp at bout 7!! better sleep soon.. i have problems sleeping lately due to itch!!!. sigh.. hope it will get better.
nite~
we went out for dinner today at bedok blk 85 there... we ordered bout 4 dishes with a bowl of rice each. that sounds pretty much like a meal done, isn't it? haha.. nope. in addition, i had a plate of chicken chop. okok.. so i have having 2 share of dinner?? nope.. i din really feel the satisfaction until i have my bowl of ba cuo mee. haha.. oh ya.. not forgeting my satays.. i am not alone in slurging my father's money on food. my brother had 2 bowls of ba cuo mee.. i think we really could have gone further.. but we din.. :)
okay. tmr i need to reach camp at bout 7!! better sleep soon.. i have problems sleeping lately due to itch!!!. sigh.. hope it will get better.
nite~
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Thursday, February 12, 2004
notice: CONTACT LIST
APOLOGY: i wiill miss the deadline. hereby, kindly extend my deadline for another week. thanks.
reason: i lost the contact list.. okok. i know i flop.. sorry. :(
reason: i lost the contact list.. okok. i know i flop.. sorry. :(
contact list
APOLOGY: i wiill miss the deadline. hereby, kindly extend my deadline for another week. thanks.
reason: i lost the contact list.. okok. i know i flop.. sorry. :(
reason: i lost the contact list.. okok. i know i flop.. sorry. :(
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
people around me
read a number of blogs today (so happen that more pple wrote something today), so i have decided to blog a bit more today... haven been blogging much cos i am embarking on my www.dreamerize.com
------ bathe, creams, lotions, etc.... -----------------------
i went to bouna vista to collect ez-link cards. OTOT, so i slept till 0830hrs. shiok. manage to replenish my energy loss for these few days. //people say i am working too hard... well i guess i just like to take official breaks rather than normal kengs. although i must say that my official break time is definitely less than the time they keng.. i think it's worth it. mrs seet ask me am i tryin to take a break by going for this despatch, i say yes and i got the deal.. worth it or not? you judge. //
reach camp at 1100hrs. oh man.. thought i wil be late, but i still make it to office before noon. bought a packet of noodle for wendy, *note: i buy for her, not treating. i am trying to be nice, trying.. and as usual, i start my busy day, as mrs seet is not around. so... did the 8-day report follow-up, course nomination, posting in, recourse info, RO, letter for maj lim, collect this and that, oh ya,,.. distribute ez link cards. // maybe i used to say i am overworked, but now, i will say that i JUST am underpaid. //
met jev... he din see me. erm.. reason... eh.. +ve: i blend too well into the civilians -ve: i am just too plain to be seen. haha.. //really happy to meet him... it's just a simple pleasure of seeing FRIENDS.. //
dinner with taku & "mr J aka wu tian xuan ??? aka gabriel aka sheng'en aka what have he.. ". plain dinner and chat bout office, coming events, jokes, new comers like francis and wong... and of cos wendy.. which makes me damn guilty. think i have shared this before but allow me to repeat. //everytime after criticising wendy, i feel damn bad. i am afraid that bad things will befall me. i am afraid that i will be like her.. i dun wish to be anything similar to her.. i am scared that my voice will be irritating, my behavior will be a weirdo, i will speak with no compassion, i will garner hatred and i will be big-mouth and be talked about badly.//
back home. and as usual, read thru all the possible blogs.
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fred: keng a lot, but he's nice. sanguine. yes.. a sanguine like See Too.
francis:fun to be with. nice to have my peers... or someone younger than me. but he is also kinda pa2 da4 wo3 tou2 shang4 le.
wong: really dun know how to treat him. quite frustrated teaching him things but yet, i must show enough compassion and tact.
wendy: really dun wish to be like her
my shomerim contact list is having problems, i lost the piece of paper with the information. how??
i ask the nsman to help me shred my stuffs.. and he lost my destruction cert!!! argh..
if only life is a bed of roses.. if only..
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i went to bouna vista to collect ez-link cards. OTOT, so i slept till 0830hrs. shiok. manage to replenish my energy loss for these few days. //people say i am working too hard... well i guess i just like to take official breaks rather than normal kengs. although i must say that my official break time is definitely less than the time they keng.. i think it's worth it. mrs seet ask me am i tryin to take a break by going for this despatch, i say yes and i got the deal.. worth it or not? you judge. //
reach camp at 1100hrs. oh man.. thought i wil be late, but i still make it to office before noon. bought a packet of noodle for wendy, *note: i buy for her, not treating. i am trying to be nice, trying.. and as usual, i start my busy day, as mrs seet is not around. so... did the 8-day report follow-up, course nomination, posting in, recourse info, RO, letter for maj lim, collect this and that, oh ya,,.. distribute ez link cards. // maybe i used to say i am overworked, but now, i will say that i JUST am underpaid. //
met jev... he din see me. erm.. reason... eh.. +ve: i blend too well into the civilians -ve: i am just too plain to be seen. haha.. //really happy to meet him... it's just a simple pleasure of seeing FRIENDS.. //
dinner with taku & "mr J aka wu tian xuan ??? aka gabriel aka sheng'en aka what have he.. ". plain dinner and chat bout office, coming events, jokes, new comers like francis and wong... and of cos wendy.. which makes me damn guilty. think i have shared this before but allow me to repeat. //everytime after criticising wendy, i feel damn bad. i am afraid that bad things will befall me. i am afraid that i will be like her.. i dun wish to be anything similar to her.. i am scared that my voice will be irritating, my behavior will be a weirdo, i will speak with no compassion, i will garner hatred and i will be big-mouth and be talked about badly.//
back home. and as usual, read thru all the possible blogs.
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fred: keng a lot, but he's nice. sanguine. yes.. a sanguine like See Too.
francis:fun to be with. nice to have my peers... or someone younger than me. but he is also kinda pa2 da4 wo3 tou2 shang4 le.
wong: really dun know how to treat him. quite frustrated teaching him things but yet, i must show enough compassion and tact.
wendy: really dun wish to be like her
my shomerim contact list is having problems, i lost the piece of paper with the information. how??
i ask the nsman to help me shred my stuffs.. and he lost my destruction cert!!! argh..
if only life is a bed of roses.. if only..
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
skin problem.. wat's new?
again... the skin is flaring up again. previous i have pproblems wakin up.. hence taking lotsa of cabs. now.. i have problems to fall asleep.. reason? itch. too much to bear. too irritating to sleep. what's the remedy to my situatioN>? i dun know.. all i hope is, let me get better.
Sunday, February 08, 2004
blogging
when i first started blogging, it's just a vent to release my watever thoughts. subsequently sharing with en and jevin , then ruyi..
now, knowing that there are people who reads my blog (hopefully i am not being bhb), i really hope that i will not blog to please but con't to blog as truthfully as possible. but i guess that's not possible anymore.
hm.. i should really archive my previous blog into my c drive.. cos i must say those are impt periods and events and feelings in my life till now.
now, i jus hope that this blog will con't to help me to know myself better and improves my relationships with human beings.
now, knowing that there are people who reads my blog (hopefully i am not being bhb), i really hope that i will not blog to please but con't to blog as truthfully as possible. but i guess that's not possible anymore.
hm.. i should really archive my previous blog into my c drive.. cos i must say those are impt periods and events and feelings in my life till now.
now, i jus hope that this blog will con't to help me to know myself better and improves my relationships with human beings.
Friday, February 06, 2004
mob briefing
wan to sleep early tonight.. i am really very sick and disgusted that i am such a wimp.. such a bai jia zi.. i dun wan to take cab to camp!@!! i dun wan.
anyway, tmr i ahve to reach camp at 7am. so, betta sleep soon. tmr there's a mob briefing.. and i am supposed to be the person conducting the briefing.. haha.. wat a joke right.. but i guess i am the speaker becos the briefing isn't that impt.. it's just some crap session to refresh their memories.. just hope that i will speak properly tmr..and hope the nsman will not ask too many questions.. or better still, let me be able to ans their questions..
time to sleep. ~
anyway, tmr i ahve to reach camp at 7am. so, betta sleep soon. tmr there's a mob briefing.. and i am supposed to be the person conducting the briefing.. haha.. wat a joke right.. but i guess i am the speaker becos the briefing isn't that impt.. it's just some crap session to refresh their memories.. just hope that i will speak properly tmr..and hope the nsman will not ask too many questions.. or better still, let me be able to ans their questions..
time to sleep. ~
backdated entry
the following entry should be dated 07 Dec 2003...
http://www.swissnikira.com/
http://galvin.worshipsingapore.com
http://cannon.threeone.net/
"Perhaps that is why I've started keeping an online journal since my junior college days when technology enabled me to do so... such was the joy of writing: to look up new words... to mimic styles of writing that didn't spring forth from within... to conjure up seemingly incomprehensible sentences that sounded perfectly... incomprehensible. There was a time when I even tried venturing into script writing and serious expositories... in all these I found myself trying to match up to certain levels of writing... to people whom I deem are good writers."
wondering why am i keeping a blog. i guess i also enjoy the fun of writing, scribling thoughts which are running across my head hapzardly using my mediocre language and expressions, struggling and earnestly trying to make myself known and understood.
matthew's webpage led me to many homepages. got this feeling that i have missed out a lot of fun. regret not learning as much as i should in school, bout webpages. i wasn't actively involved in sports which most of my friends are. i thought i was out of place. maybe i should have found myself a place in the Net long ago. but now.. just trying to make up for my time lost.
yes. really made up my mind to learn more bout webpages. why am i not learning something which i am really interested in.
anyway, this version 2.0 of my webpage is too restrictive. hard to expand, hard to insert add-ons. better start my ver 3.0 sooon!. ya..
blogger.com seems to be down. cannot get to the page. so, here am i, blogger into my email temporary..
i guess i am addicted, addicted to the the joy of writing.
http://www.swissnikira.com/
http://galvin.worshipsingapore.com
http://cannon.threeone.net/
"Perhaps that is why I've started keeping an online journal since my junior college days when technology enabled me to do so... such was the joy of writing: to look up new words... to mimic styles of writing that didn't spring forth from within... to conjure up seemingly incomprehensible sentences that sounded perfectly... incomprehensible. There was a time when I even tried venturing into script writing and serious expositories... in all these I found myself trying to match up to certain levels of writing... to people whom I deem are good writers."
wondering why am i keeping a blog. i guess i also enjoy the fun of writing, scribling thoughts which are running across my head hapzardly using my mediocre language and expressions, struggling and earnestly trying to make myself known and understood.
matthew's webpage led me to many homepages. got this feeling that i have missed out a lot of fun. regret not learning as much as i should in school, bout webpages. i wasn't actively involved in sports which most of my friends are. i thought i was out of place. maybe i should have found myself a place in the Net long ago. but now.. just trying to make up for my time lost.
yes. really made up my mind to learn more bout webpages. why am i not learning something which i am really interested in.
anyway, this version 2.0 of my webpage is too restrictive. hard to expand, hard to insert add-ons. better start my ver 3.0 sooon!. ya..
blogger.com seems to be down. cannot get to the page. so, here am i, blogger into my email temporary..
i guess i am addicted, addicted to the the joy of writing.
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
american idol audition!
american idol's clip! william hung went for the audition.. and this clip supposed to be funny. well. i really dun know how funny it is supposed to be. as quoted"he can't sing, he can't dance, so what does he want?" ans:" i have given my best and i have no regrets" that's really commendable. but this realistic society, in this realistic society, how much credits are given for his attitude and guts...
on the other hand, i have to say, he has done better than me.. so, i think i am hopeless~
on the other hand, i have to say, he has done better than me.. so, i think i am hopeless~
Monday, February 02, 2004
a talk with eugene
thank God. that i really manage to get eugene out for a supper on sunday night. and i really have the chance to tell him what has really happened to me. i am really so glad that both of us treasure this friendship and are willing and are putting in effort to substain it. i am so glad that my pettiness has given way.
however, given the chance to talk about my "hermit" lifestyle and the reasons behind it. i realise the "staining the bed' incident isn't really majority of the problem. one big problems lies with the lack of common interests with them, refering to weiming etc.
for years we have been just companions to each other without much personal interaction and we are not transparent enough to each other. it is a habit not to share already. hence, there's lack of topics. this is especially true for me as i dun watch soccer, play bets, talkin bout people in school, and all the happenings to other people. i am oblivous to them all and the news never reach me.
there must be a way out.. but i dun know how.. meanwhile, i can only try to be "interested". how convincing can i be, i dun know.. or maybe i am never convincing in the first place..
however, given the chance to talk about my "hermit" lifestyle and the reasons behind it. i realise the "staining the bed' incident isn't really majority of the problem. one big problems lies with the lack of common interests with them, refering to weiming etc.
for years we have been just companions to each other without much personal interaction and we are not transparent enough to each other. it is a habit not to share already. hence, there's lack of topics. this is especially true for me as i dun watch soccer, play bets, talkin bout people in school, and all the happenings to other people. i am oblivous to them all and the news never reach me.
there must be a way out.. but i dun know how.. meanwhile, i can only try to be "interested". how convincing can i be, i dun know.. or maybe i am never convincing in the first place..
Sunday, February 01, 2004
reconcilation
i wan to reconcile with weiming etc.. but i guess i am not giving them enough time. i start to wonder should i take myself out from church activities. rightfully not, but i think i do need to give time to my dear friends like weiming eugene etc..
this is my plan, to ask eugene out for dinner before going to church. ~
this is my plan, to ask eugene out for dinner before going to church. ~
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