diff pple diff styles

i guess i have to argue about it and pen it down (which is typical of type A).

yes, often type A is referred to the not street-smart, full of brain-knowledge and unable to cut corners at appropriate times. was in the van with amos and nick and they were talking about how this type of pple can't make good officers in army or have weird inappropriate handling techniques.

so what's their arguement? often type P are the one who can arrive at the final stage, skipping the intermediate steps (which deemed unnecessary to them) and achieving the same end-product. a far-fetch example and typical illustration: on the way back from marina in bp's car, ty (a typical type P), as usual, not wearing seatbelt, but hurried to put on one when a QX appear from behind.

end-result: not caught by QX. (achieved)
intermediate steps: wearing seatbelt (not done)

apparently, it's a well-done action, complimented by the alertness (typical of type P) and tactical actions (demostrated by type P), and the end result is still attained. but so what? yes, the intermediate steps aren't impt and can be skipped but is it true? and it can only be proven untrue when it's all too late.

so, what's going on in army? losing of equipments.. SAF1206? is that a bad choice and rigid manner to solve the loss? or G219, eliminating the cost burdened by the poor soldier but taxing the overall accounting dept and qm? being-people oriented may use G219, and hence, solving issues with human techniques, but imposing SAF1206 doesn't mean that it's not right.. there's so called responsibilty instilling process involved. okay.. this is still not a good example. but the idea is.. watever methods of solving, it's not about Can make it or Cannot make it.. it's just different.

leaving for hostel

will be checking in tonight.. that cause me to skip the first day of orientation. well. i hope i will not miss too much.

you know. in a sense, i feel that i have become stronger in the Lord. many 'solo' decisions i have made (skipping ice-breaking for orientation cos it's on Sun), leaving it to God when it comes to friends and companions and boldly staying into hostel when there's none i know in sheares. have this comfort that my Lord, God will take care of me. maybe thigns will turn out bad and awful but due to this worry prompt me to pray harder. and yes, i covet for prayers from friends now.

great reminder from amos, that is to believe..

where am i heading to?

我很在意自己是否一直的作为都是一厢情愿的。我们的小报刊就要出版了.这时,据说,我们的共同杰作,所以应该,可以,动员上下参与制作.这么说来,如果有个制作,从头到尾都不被考虑需要全体的贡献,那...会是某些人的一厢情愿吗? 可能有些人会说我想太多，不过，曾发生过的是让我无法不怀疑自己的存在/认可. 如果再一次发生争议性的事件,在我未能辩解说明之前,是否会有人主动地站在我的立场相呢?

one more task

one more to go. .. . W.A.T.C.H..

acutally .. 1.5 to go.. cos alan's is half-done.

actually, 2 more to go.. cos need to prepare tabernaclebpc.com.. ya.. completing.. haha

5 people you meet in heaven.

finished reading the book yesterday. and yes.. this will add on to my list of completed things before the start of my NUS term. set myself to read it before the end of my hols so that i can move on to Da Vinci Code.. but i guess i have to postpone my Da Vinci until much later. =)

dun find this book as edifying as the previous one (tuesday with Morie).. but have the following to share.

in the book, God appear quite a few times, mainly appearing as a Being in control in His own time allow the things to happen for some reason or another. So, this author has this idea of God and supreme Being... but as it is with a lot of other pple, the characteristics of God in the book is humanized and not reveled by God Himself. there's a revelation from God Himself thru the Bible, wun you believe?

the book is still overall quite simply written with adequate engaging factors (finding out who are the 5 pple).. but the ending is surprising more inspiring than the content. it finishes wiht a good note, somehow. =)

checked in to sheares.. it's a small place. =) thank lime and mee2 for accompanying me.. i guess i will be much less entertained without them..

giving myself in to questions again

i am feeling very guilty. and i am not happy with the following yet unable to get myself out of the situation.

i think i am asking too much from others about me. too self-centred. i wish there's more that pple can see in me. vain glory and vanity in action.

sometimes i just dun understand (okie, i understand but cannot accept). why do people like pple who are a little bad. like jokes that are a little dirty. like to pass remarks that are a bit cynical. hanging out with pple conversing with witty quotes (sarcastic quotes to be exact). more often than not, it's the choleric type of pple which gets things. like hitler and pol pot. but why>? arent they considered to be bad pple and yet they can have influence. FJ. really FJ.

opinions shared are always more valuable than hidden thoughts. even when the thoughts are worthy ideas.

felt envious when pple shared bout the "henious" and yet exciting things they do as friends, with their gang/clique. 君子之交淡如水. that's what i will use to delude myself. (Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; 1Cor 13:8)

friends, playing impt role in our lives. but they come and go. can i identify anyone coming in my direction? (Proverbs 18:24: A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.)

talking to josiah

after talking to him, i realised that we are sharing similar trouble. it's thru God's restraining love that i am still in church. it's my bro that is keeping me in church. how ironical.

doubts about us being able to be tennis players.. maybe it's not the game for us in the very first place. had that struggle. shared with one one person so far.. cannot bring myself to talk bout it..

schooling soon

school will start next week. i was having great relucntance to give up my holidays (which has been on for months). I guess i am still reluctant. however, thank God for preparing me to get into the mood of school.

being busy with a few tasks to complete, i have to start working seriously and no more long sleeping hours and slacking. indeed, word is still ordained by God and is the right thing for us to do. and i am going to be a student, pray that i can be a good one too.

A visit to nus with shuhui helps me a lot. i was lamenting about the mathematical modules that i am going to take, and i thought i will be happier to take some arts subjects which are interesting and facinating. looking thru the books that shuhui borrowed, interested as i, yet i realise i can't bring myself to finish reading. i think i can read them up as leisure but not studying for tests. visiting the hostel gives me excitment . now, i am keen to have a stay in the west part of singapore. I even have thoughts bout meeting jiannan during his nights out or even to have shomerim meetings in hostel or nus. shuping offered to lend me her small fridge and i gladly accepted. maybe i will bring my guitar along erm.. will be nice to have something to play with. =) haha.. now, i feel like i am moving house.

tho i am quite sure that my hostel stay is not going to be long due to financial reasons.. i hope i will enjoy and make full use of my stay there..

now, i just hope to finish all my "assignments" and start school right!

oh ya.. wenyong is in chem engin too. guess i have some kind of affinity with him afterall. =)

about dixon

"ernest arh.. can i dun go to church? "

"it's up to you.. "

"but i dun go church but we stil be friends?"

"it has been Christ which enables me to befirend you all along. not that i dun like you, jsut that, you should know that it's bout God..."

"ya.. but dun feel like it.. but you still be my friend?"


i think many times, tangible friend is still more impt than God to many pple.. i think often, sometimes, i am like that too.. well.. waht to feel bout dixon? erm.. i really dun know.. have i delivered the wrong message to him? or have i not done my best for Him?

cute baby.

yeap.. very cute right..! how i wish to play with him more often. haha.. so adorable. =)

things to do

church web.. going to be done
sg-anime - done
dreameize... postponed indefinitly
alan's - doing..
watch - doing..

apply easilink card
apply notebook loan and place order
quite job (done)

prepare for matric.. bidding..

argh.~

no time

21st - check in
23rd - move in
24th - orientation, but i am not going (it's a sunday!)
25th - orientation till 30th July (i am not going for that sunday too.!)
feeling quite sian and unhappy when they are all taking Sunday to be orientation day. erm.. jsut dun like it.

then 1st Aug - O-week (again!)
8th Aug - start sch.

in the end.. ? no time. think i better pray for more time. it's starts tonight.

1. alan's web
2. church's web
3. my web
4. shomerim newsletter layout
oh.. have i become a designer or smth/? haha..
5. start packing and revising..

no time, better start today.

back from cambodia

back from a mission trip from Cambodia.. had a great time there seein the lives of cambodia. more importantly, thank God for His precious lessons in cambodia.. i know He's speaking to me personally thru all the happenings.

have a lot of qns and struggles in my heart, even till now.. but i am still not drowning.. i pray that i will be a better swimmer soon..

photos not ready.. eager to post too..


the following is my blog in shomerim blog..
::Wednesday, July 13, 2005::
:: God is so good! ::

thank God for bringing us back safely and blessin us with so many things.. good weather, safety, fellowship and many spiritual lessons! He's so good to us.

but something that i must testify is that men can only do so much. truely, nine of us went with the intentions to bring clothes, joy and little happiness to them, to bring the Gospel to them, teaching them God's word. but, somehow, i felt that whatever we are doing are still so minimal but yet God is good, and He used little men like us to bless His work and people. when u hear bout the progess of God's ministry in the little rural villages away from the cities and the many people who gave their life to the preaching of Gospel, and that thru twists and turns (able to rent cheap places/ buy cheap places, able to get the right venue, the response of the people) that the churches grows and develop, you know that God is truly almighty!.. God is so good, to all His people.

the people have little material, but God gave them hope in heaven and 'deliver' them from the temptation of the worlds. He's so good. when missionaries were often faced with diff (disturbance from villagers, volatile congregations etc), but God gave them strength. the villages, seemingly to be out of reach (very rural), but God send the Gospel to them..

i cant pen down His goodness but i felt it. He's really so good.

it has further reineforce in my heart how true and real and almighty inifinite our God is. i tell myself that i cannot ever leave this true God.

Praise the Lord, our God.~

long time no see chalet

back from the chalet, weiliang's chalet. still remember those days when there's a chalet to join (or you call it chap tzi kar) each year during holidays. it's the chalets which allows me to know this bunch of erm.. hard-to-catogorize friend.. and thru surprising attempts, with only a few meetups a year for the past 7 years.., i am still having fun with them tat the chalet.. thank God.

talked bout Christianity n God in the chalet with jy and wl. erm.. it seems that Romans 1:19-25 is very true. (of cos it's true. it's the word of God). what's so true about it? wl and Jy both believe that there's a higher Being. but then again, it's another thing to tell them who is the one and only true God.

19　 神 的 事 情 、 人 所 能 知 道 的 、 原 顯 明 在 人 心 裡 ． 因 為 　 神 已 經 給 他 們 顯 明 。

20自 從 造 天 地 以 來 、 　 神 的 永 能 和 神 性 是 明 明 可 知 的 、 雖 是 眼 不 能 見 、 但 藉 著 所 造 之 物 、 就 可 以 曉 得 、 叫 人 無 可 推 諉 ．

21因 為 他 們 雖 然 知 道 　 神 、 卻 不 當 作 　 神 榮 耀 他 、 也 不 感 謝 他 ． 他 們 的 思 念 變 為 虛 妄 、 無 知 的 心 就 昏 暗 了 ．

22自 稱 為 聰 明 、 反 成 了 愚 拙 、

23將 不 能 朽 壞 之 　 神 的 榮 耀 、 變 為 偶 像 、 彷 彿 必 朽 壞 的 人 、 和 飛 禽 走 獸 昆 蟲 的 樣 式 。

24所 以 　 神 任 憑 他 們 、 逞 著 心 裡 的 情 慾 行 污 穢 的 事 、 以 致 彼 此 玷 辱 自 己 的 身 體 。

25他 們 將 　 神 的 真 實 變 為 虛 謊 、 去 敬 拜 事 奉 受 造 之 物 、 不 敬 奉 那 造 物 的 主 ． 主 乃 是 可 稱 頌 的 、 直 到 永 遠 。

jy says that she's confused, too many versions of bible and protestants and pple who aren't behaving as christians blah.. yeap. and she says, da vinci code says smth which put her to thougths.. the Bible is written by man afterall. BUT, jy: the Bible has stood the test of time, not becos we can preserve it, but God is preserving it." just one more sentence: if you are willing to read da vinci code cos it's a good book and allowing it to influence your thinking.. why are you not opening yourself to another book (the bible?) by denying or having little appetite for the Bible is already another proof that the Bible is true. Man by own deprave nature will not seek God by himself..

visit the night safari.. it's my first visit and i guess i have enjoyed myelsf. and in fact, i am so proud to be Singaporean, to know that we have world class zoo and night safari. felt the pride when tourists are enjoying themselves. felt the need to wave and be friendly cos they are tourists.. hehe=) and enjoy the close encounter with bats.! hehe. =) it's the closest you can get to a bat.. hhaa.. =)

still waiting for the photos to be uploaded by weiliang so that i can save them into my own album. hhaa. =)

and thanks to weiliang, that i have my first real driving on the roads ! hehe. previous drove around ponggol but it's a short ride.. =) but this time!!>...

my house to costa sands pasir ris (chalet)
chalet to pasir ris mrt to take mrt to work
chalet to telok kurau to send jy home.. and back to chalet
then to 445 coffeeshop for supper and back to chalet
and drove home this morning!! haha..

been on TPE and PIE.. yeah!!

and did parking, for erm.. 3 or 4 times? exciting!!! tho it's quite not very good but, hey.! it's my first few attempts. =) and 3 pt turn in the lanes of telok kurau..

wow.. just feel cool to drive.. and really thank God for the opportunity to have weiliang so willingly entrusting the steering wheel to me. =) tot it's quite a daring stunt for him~ haha..

got to prepare for tuition and cambodia liao. =) going to cambodia for mission trip to help with the villages churches. =) flying off tmr and will be back on wed (the day when weixiong and all will be touching down as well)

the God be the glory.

happy birthday huiying.. and jiwei

it's a erm.. SurRpriSe bdae celebration for hwing prepared by his bf (roy.. ) erm.. as usual, happy to see them again.. =) turning up and sayin Hi~ and catchin up.. =)

huawei says," moral of story? dun get gf who are turning 21, cos you have to plan for their 21st bdae cele.. haha. "

hui yi

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