Fabian's Wedding

First of all, well wishes to Mr and Mrs Fabian Tan. May their entrance into matrimonial covenant be a blessed and fruitful one. =)

met up with nigel and ms to to go to the church together. actually, they din't know that i am meetin them until i call them up in the morning. well, shows how insignificant am i? sigh.. who ask me to be the only nsf in blk 8 going. feel quite out of place also. thank God that logpa, edmund, eddie was there. well the whole qm pl is there too..

reach the place quite early. anyway, it's a catholic church. nice scantuary, with the nice scupltures around(as usual for them) and the erm.. the deco.

it's also a military wedding. the sword bearers (e.g. hann lin, mto aaron , ivan du, richard, etc..) it's really quite shuai and impressive to be in no.1 with their swords. guess that's why there's this certain element attractive for officers. well, the selection process and the criteria by human beings is very erm.. apparent. (okay.. stop my blabbering)

then, comes the little girls dancing ballet, path-ing the way for the ring bearer (which is this cute little boy, hahaa.) he accompanied by the ban niang. a few times he stopped and was somehow overwhelmed by the attention given to him. then the ban niang had to nudge him a little to get him con't walking.

and after that, the bride walked down the isle, slowly, with her father. it's really a very touching moment. =)

finally, she reached fabian and they hold hands and sat in the 2 seats in front. the service then began, with hymns, scripture readings etc.. then come the exchange of vows.

" Yes, I will. "

Then, it's the exchange of the rings,.. " .. this ring signifies my love and fidelity, by the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.."

then the priest pronounced them husband and wife. "can i kiss her now?" ask fabian to his father-in-law. =)

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after that was the signing of the marriage cert etc.. and is the eucharist. it's quite an eye opener to see how is it being carried out. beside me was WO Mabel explaining to ms to the difference between catholic and chirstian. and she said something very similar to francis.

Chirstians/Protestants are basically people who dun like the teachings of the Church and break off. For example the ANGLICAN Church is initiated by the King of England because he wished to remarry and this is not allowed by the catholic faith. well, i know of such thing. but how come they dun talk bout the beliefs and practices which are not and no longer according to the Word of God. the many traditions and rituals are what the protestants are protesting about. wat the protestants are doing is to purify the church, to stand up for the correct doctrines as indicated in the Bible, where indicates no purgatory, no penence etc.. . well.. shant go into this...

anyway, the church wedding ends Mr and Mrs Fabian Tan walking down the isle together. halfway, the sword bearers refuse to let them pass until Fabian carried Angeline in his arms. =) and well, he did and .... =)

after that is the lunch at somewhere at habourfront..
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actually, it's really sweet.. . .

singapore idol judges

i think positioning does matter. the first person to give an honest comment is good, the 2nd person to second that opinion is nice. but to have the third person to talk bout the same thing is yucky.

well.. i think i am definitely not the first to criticise douglas o. so, i am as yucky as he is.

actually, it's also largely attributed to his lack speciality in judging, i guess.
dick lee is a musician, he assess in terms of voice, music etc..
florence assesses the image, style, feel
ken assesses the market-power of the singer.. so somewat..
and douglas.. erm.. i dun know. not sure yet. you can tell me.

condolences to amos and beepheng

amos' grandma passed away yesterday. and amos is booking out today. as much as he wishes to be around at the wake, he also dun wish to participate in the rituals. it is a testing. and i am so sad and shameful to say that i have failed last time.

beepheng says she will 'zhao' amos. so nice to have a elder sis or bro. but i am the elder, when can i ever be close enough to my bro.. and to 'zhao' him.

realise that i have little patience with people, similarly, i see and foresee pple to have little patience with me. i am such a bad person.

francis is now at his guardrest, wilfred in tekong, ken was mc for past 2 days. in the end, the person i talk to the most is the nsman.. in fact, he's good, he is able to maintain neutrality of the subject well..

on the other hand, i need to improve. i guess and deduce that whenever we talk bout Creation, Science and God, i tend to appear to be very agitated. well.. wondering if i was, but i tot i was composed and subjective enough. maybe it's not only when we are discussing bout God, it happens whenever i engage in a discussion. i am always in an aggressive mode(or so i seem to be). i need to show the composure that i wish to portray.

i kinda understand why power and authority is important to pple. it's the thing other than money to keep someone satisfied. i feel good when i can have the decision and say regarding things. and it feels good to arrow pple and reap the products. but this is definitely not good. i will not want to keep this going. argh.

meek. blessed are those who are meek, for they shall inherit the earth this is the new thing that i aim for. yes, i wish to be meek. it seems to be the best quality i need so far. to be meek~

friends... . they come and go.

prayer meeting in camp

nic invited me for a prayer meeting in camp, with lta barry, joshua, mervyn. well, i hesitated upon the invite as i know there bound to be people who will be praying in tongues, in spirit and feeling. but, in the end, decided to attend the meeting with them.

 

i was right, immediately, barry pray in tongues, and later when mervyn came, he spoke in another 'dialect' of tongues. well,we did not get into a discussion regarding tongues, i just briefing state my stand.

 

anyway, wanted to talk bout the sharing... barry (the one who spearheaded this prayer mtg) was talkin bout his burden bout the camp. he felt the purpose for God to place him in this camp. so, he prayed about it during lunch, alone in the training shed, with cries and passion. in the end he said he felt uplifted, and God answered his prayers, so much so that the aura in his office also changed. according to him, he can feel that very presense of the Holy Spirit in the whole office.

 

mervyn shared bout his practice back in JC where he will prayed at HDB void deck alone and feel so uplifted with the Spirit after the prayer. and how he crave for that now, that he's lookin for a place in camp to pray during lunch.

 

the thing is, let aside the issue about tongues and charismatism etc, they are indeed prayerful!. not sure of the motivation behind, or the pushing factor for them, but tot we should be, if not more, at least as prayful?

 

i was quite put to shame about the little burden i have for the unsaved souls in my office. there was this time where i spend hours for days explaining to them creation, about things to come and Jesus. i tot it was difficult and slowly stop talking bout it since they stop asking me as well. and that time, i set a resolution that when i give the Pink IC to ORD personnel, i should give them a tract as well! but, sad and shameful to say, i did not. i have only 3 mths more to do this. hope i will have the courage and diligence to do so..

 

anyway, just want to say, all of us should do our part for Christ. let us, who have the priviledge to worship in a fundamental church, also be passionate bout the lost souls.

 

just thoughts to share....

on leave:: 191004

hope i can settle outstanding issues today. i hope. not sure if i can.. sian..

going to tekong on thurs but wahwei in sittest. sian.. then how? dun know to visit who leh. it seems i have little friends.

101 1st degree friend in friendster. haha. like real~!

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"..signing off here..bye bloggie..."

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supper at tampines on 151004

meet them(lk, des, lq, nicole, xiuyi) for a drink at starbucks on friday. it has been a long time since i hang out in the streets so late in the night..

lk called around 7 to see if i want to join them(lk and des) for dinnner. well i had mine, so din't go. at 2230, he called as ask "eh.. can you come out to tamp central area at this hour" of cos i can right? i feel so weird for him to pose them question. as if he's much older than me. in fact he's 2 yrs younger lor..

actually JC pple seems to be very young/immature etc.. isn't it? i feel that joelson is somehow younger than LK, cos joelson is in jc but LK is not. similarly, joedan seems much older than joelson. well.. sterotyping.. nvm bout that..
met them up at starbucks, talk a bit, trying to snatch the sofa seat. then, the hundred and one game started. truth or dare. duh.. it's the most boring game lor.. but it's also a common game. in fact, it's a diff game to play. have to think of dares and questions. then, there bound to be thoughts going thru minds when the questions are posed. truth may be truth but not the whole truth, sometimes. it's complicated. but, thankfully there's LK, who has a bags of idea and curiosity.

so, in the end, my camp booklet wasn't done that night. have to slog a few nights during the weekdays liao.. sigh..

anyway, the supper did not end just like that. we con't to walk in streets, going to nicole house, ate tidbits, play arshhole daidi(surprisely a new game to them). we had fun. most imptly, i got to knwo them better. it will take a long time for me to know their past and to bridge the gap. i must not repeat my mistake of "they will tell me if they want to" let me be proactive and befriend with them.

flash

http://www.miluku.com/chn/archive/lovesong/index.jsp

the flash is so detailed, even the guitars chords are correct~ wow

stopping to read

i am stopping to read blogs..

esp when i realise that we are way too different. when there's no concensus.

when i know that our lives aren't inter-connecting, i asked, "for what?"

ops room duty

it's a norm for me to tell myself that i am on duty again~ but today not bad lah.. can sleep cos very peaceful the DO is discom as1.. hah..

social life.. church..

it is always like that isn't it. familarity brings
more fun, joy and laughter, with common jokes, along
with it comes comtempt.

i havne't been out with weiming etc for a loooong
time. in fact, i have been with shomerim for most of
my weekends and even weekdays at times. it's good. at
least people of common interests come together and
edify one another. but i cannot let weiming and the
rest think that Christians are people who are
anti-social.

acutually, for the first time ever, i asked weiming
over the msn. "so what happen to you and vivian". feel
quite good. finally i take the initiative to ask. but
he din't answer / respond. so, i guess it's right for
me not to ask for the past 7 years.

i will not want to make the same mistake. if possible,
i will want to get make good friends with des dan ty
josiah lq sh etc etc etc.. even haos.. if i am
interested and concerned bout them, just ask. yes..

but then hor, it's also quite hard lah. it's hard for
me to 'infiltrate' into their group also.. as hard as
infiltrating into weixiong etc..

long time haven't called eugene up for chat or dinner.
should try to arrange. hope he's not too lazy to come
out. haha. . .

acutally, i am very pissed with my driving. too little
resources to do watever i want to. furthermore time is
running out.



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changes in office

today, it's definitely a good day to be in the office. suddenly i run out of things to do. more appropriately, things have reached a stage where by procrasination can take place.

ms to wanted to get francis from our office to be dixon's understudy. but her approach is far from being friendly. according to what i heard. she requested for help from our office since our strength is rather healthy. so mrs seet offered francis to run her errands. in the end, ms to wanted francis to be her understudy. and furtherday more, she 'skipped' the discussion with mrs seet and approach maj lim straightway. the approach is jus not friendly.. but that's what i see from mrs seet pt of view. on the other hand, ms to, did discuss with mrs seet, but mrs seet refuses to give francis. ms to thinks that it's unfair cos our strength is healthy and can do without francis. so mrs seet is being selfish and ms to is reasonable to make the request. i dun know. all i know is, yes.. yi shan bu ke chang er hu.

with kenneth around is really of some help to me. at least, i have someone to run around when i can't. as i have always said, mtl, though is only 30 percent of my strength is more than 50% of my work. so.. with a mtldocu(kenneth) is definitely good. although he far from being independant but is definitely sufficient. cos docu is not a diff thing.

yes.. honestly docu isn't diff at all, esp in my unit. so what have i been busy with!!?? minutes? meetings.. boi, investigation.. wth....

i think it's also ego boosting to have kenneth booasting. at least i feel like an ic.. okok, it's jus my illusion. he doesn't ans to me. but the feeling of having someone to let your officially arrow is quite shoik. no wonder there's so many f up specs and offrs around.

i start to think that i am a mediocre. and i am suited to be a mediocre. but yet i have been in the system for so long thinking that i will be somebody. i feel sad when i am not given responsibility though i am fully aware of the blissfulness of being a commoner. fan jian right.. ..

forgot to con't bout ms to francis and mrs seet. in the end, wilfred goes over to finance office. it's a win-win situation for all.. erm. except for ms to ?

between francis and wilfred, francis is can definitely contribute more. ms to get a new person for dixon, for the meantime. wilfred got himself a slack post. ms to? she got herself a slacker. but well.. that's enough for her i guess.. wilfred is technically Kenny's understudy. they are the same kind aren't they. all day long playing computer on their standalone computer.

indeed, life is unfair. there's posts around slack enough. haha.. but then again, it's really a choice. jeremy chooses to be not very bright and hence less work. kevin chooses to be more garung and helpful with the offrs. wilfred choose to be slacker, since the consequence isn't great in cco. i choose to be busy and see how much can i cope. i could have chosen to be blur(my forte) and useless..

wat for?

I haven't had time to give much thought to this, but I have come to the decision to let this site go.

These couple of months, I have never quite desired to blog. I updated because friends wanted to know what I've been up to. I blogged because there was an audience to account to. I wasn't blogging because I wanted to, or enjoyed blogging. That made me realised it was probably time to take a break.

Having gone through two weeks of grad school, 4 weeks of coping with a long-distance relationship, I don't think I can find the time, nor the effort to continue maintaining things here the way I would have wanted to (and to the extent that it would make my USD60 subscription worthwhile). Together with all that, I was also dealing with large amount of spam mail coming from the site.

I'm not closing out the possibility of returning to the blogging circle through one of those free blogging sites, but there are no plans for that at the moment. Not for the next couple of weeks. I just want to get ahead of schedule (on my work) so that I can spend quality and quantity time with Eric when he comes over for the Columbus weekend.

Life's simple when you have your priorities. Loved ones, friends and then work. That's what I live by, and so what's yours?

Thanks for being a great audience, for being there to share my days with me. And for those who have also stood by me through the years that have passed, words cannot represent how grateful I am for your presence in my life. -- copied from my bags aren't packed but i am ready to go

ex hn

i will like to go! but then again, things may not turn out to be the way i want. there's too much i in my plannin.. but how? can i write my proposal to God and let him approve it?

so i have decided, not to force my way thru. if i cannot go, let it be.

erm.. i have said the same thing some time ago. i said if i cannot get my pay rise, so be it. but in the end, cant remember if it's God who allowed it to happen or i was the one insisting on my way. argh.. wat should i do this time?

okay.. as usual, will send my proposal to Him and let him decide. meanwhile, will try to hope that the best things will happen.

EX HN from mid mar to ORd
clear leave from mid Feb to Mid mar
Mob manning from Feb to mid Feb
clear leave from mid jan to end Jan.
which means my understudy should be around alreadY!! but it's not!!!!

rants

sometimes it is nice to write in verses and beautiful proses. u feel great. you feel good and you feel that you are capable of writing. i wish i can.

 

sometimes, i would just write as if i am chatting. esp when i have so much to tell and so few to listen.

 

i havne't keep my friends around well

 

i am nv satisfied. when i see that someone has changed, i wish i have changed. but when i see that someone is capable of being so consistent and true to himself, i wish i were like him. i wish i were everything. i wish i can be good in all things.

 

overly ambitious. crap!

celebrating Children's day at Sentosa

I must really thank Shuping for inviting us to spend Children’s in Sentosa recent Friday and Caleb for providing logging. =) Thanks to these Da Ge Da Jie that we/I had a wonderful and economical playtime. Hehe.. =)

I was the first to reach among the rest and I thought I was very proud of it. Until I realize that the rest took a FREE bus into Sentosa and need not have to pay the entrance fee even. =( that’s not all. I soon realize that I dun packet chicken rice for dinner (which was the case for the rest). Thankfully, Shuping kindly gave me some rice. But I still end up eating burger king still. .. that’s not the point..

Then we visited the famous Sentosa musical fountain. Hmm.. before then, I have visited the musical fountain once back in JC 1 I think… so I thought I will be seeing the same thing and I was prepared to be bored. However, it turns out that it’s a new show.

There was a gradual built up in the performance of the fountain. it started off with gentle shots of water into the air responding to “do re me fa so la ..” after which, a piece of fast-paced music. The warm lights shone upon the waters, the rhythmic shots of the water impressed me a bit.

Then, there’s a switch in the mood. Cool, romantic blue lights came on and the waters swayed together with a piece of romantic classical music. ……… soothing..

Then, orchestra music took over and the fountain water sprung up into the air. Fountains of water shooting into the skies, like the pipe of a church organ (not our church). All of a sudden.. it stopped, as part of the plot. KIKI, the sentosa monkey appeared and con’t by a stretch of boring laser shows.. blah blah. Blah..

and the rest.. cannot remember much.. heh.. but it’s quite interesting. At the story line for the laser show is better now. I remember it was about the spirits of temesak guarding the island and merlion spirit saving the island from some disaster crap.. it’s jus that vain effort to mystify the merlion and coining their own myths and legends.. ridiculous.

After the musical fountain, we took the monorail around sentosa, and enjoyed ourselves talking on the monorail.. stopover at the 7-eleven to buy drinks and mash potatoes. Then we took the last monorail back to the visitor’s centre to take a “feeder” back to chalet.

AND THEN, there’s a series of blackouts. Yes, not one but a series of it. And while the series of blackouts was happening, Xiuyi (aka Hao Yi) was showering in the toilet. LOL..

Some guys(des, lk, ty) went back and the rest (caleb, amos, dan, me) stayed over at the kampong tuas room a. erm.. I have a good nite sleep. And I guess Caleb did too.. but I cannot say the same thing for Amos, who was sleeping beside dan. Haha…. I din’t say anything.. I just say that amos din’t sleep well, due to the noisy air-con, and his willingness/kindness to sleep on the floor, and any other factor. =)

The next day, we checked out at 1200nn and traveled all the way to Changi Airport to eat Sakae Sushi, IN THE VIP ROOM. Shoik!! It’s really nice to dine with a square/round table. It allows every one at the table to talk to each other. And to have the whole room to ourselves, we can talk and joke all we want. Believe it or not, we ended out lunch in the room at 1540hrs and left the airport only at 1600hrs. =) wonderful day spent.

Well… it’s justifiable to dote ourselves once in a while. Hehe.=)