凡 你 们 祷 告 祈 求 的 ， 无 论 是 甚 么 ， 只 要 信 是 得 着 的 ， 就 必 得 着 。
我想很明显的, 我越来越不仰望 神. 每日的祷告, 没有确实的信. 今天, 我忽然想在这方面积极的努力. 从今天,开始观察,记录我所到到高的东西, 并且列出,好让大家(尤其是我) 知道, 信是能移山倒海的.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Monday, September 25, 2006
staying in hall still
currently, no doubt that time in hall has taken a part of me..
let me review what i set off to do in hall... to find a purpose in hall..
i guess.. i am not there...
unknowingly i am in sham tech crew and sp. but i kinda wanna give up sham.. dun know why.. need more incentive to work for sham..
friends, i guess plays a part. and that's also the next reason i am trying to acquire for me to stay on. the reason is not valid yet.. and yeah.. still finding..
it's the personality thing. i just cant get out of my box.
anyway.. i always dislike people whom i find them starkling similar to me. esp when i find that their behaviors are those that i hate most and yet i knwo i am behaving like them.. and i found a person whom i kinda dun like cos he is too much like me. or should i say, i am speaking and behaving like him which i dun like!!!
time to break free.
mid term break. ! jia you
let me review what i set off to do in hall... to find a purpose in hall..
i guess.. i am not there...
unknowingly i am in sham tech crew and sp. but i kinda wanna give up sham.. dun know why.. need more incentive to work for sham..
friends, i guess plays a part. and that's also the next reason i am trying to acquire for me to stay on. the reason is not valid yet.. and yeah.. still finding..
it's the personality thing. i just cant get out of my box.
anyway.. i always dislike people whom i find them starkling similar to me. esp when i find that their behaviors are those that i hate most and yet i knwo i am behaving like them.. and i found a person whom i kinda dun like cos he is too much like me. or should i say, i am speaking and behaving like him which i dun like!!!
time to break free.
mid term break. ! jia you
Monday, September 11, 2006
just like to blog
just feel like writing something on my blog.. it's like.. erm.. i want to find some wall to talk to and here it is.. my blog..
a few things that i am trying to decide has been decided. vbs is on. erm.. guess it's a combination of factor.. like elder william, it's doign something that is for Him. to be committed. i have a cause to commit to. i guess this is right.
been thinking bout money matters.. guess i have to resort to erm.. the not very nice way.. to tide over for the time being.
my tests hasn't been good. i dun find the quesiton difficult. i know.. it's laziness. it's really quite easy.. sigh.. it's a combination of factors.. the lousy lab experience and i just feel that the whole results be it lab report and tests.. it just shux.. i want to get out of the cycle.
that's my last line. i have 7 more weekly tests to go and i cannot afford to flop in any one of them anymore. no more 2nd chance.
time to loook upon Him..
when i want to slack, tell meself, i cannot, for this is my duty to study
when i want to give up, tell myself, i cannot be failing cos He is my help
when i want to run away, tell myself, this is the path He has brought me thus far.
try harder!
a few things that i am trying to decide has been decided. vbs is on. erm.. guess it's a combination of factor.. like elder william, it's doign something that is for Him. to be committed. i have a cause to commit to. i guess this is right.
been thinking bout money matters.. guess i have to resort to erm.. the not very nice way.. to tide over for the time being.
my tests hasn't been good. i dun find the quesiton difficult. i know.. it's laziness. it's really quite easy.. sigh.. it's a combination of factors.. the lousy lab experience and i just feel that the whole results be it lab report and tests.. it just shux.. i want to get out of the cycle.
that's my last line. i have 7 more weekly tests to go and i cannot afford to flop in any one of them anymore. no more 2nd chance.
time to loook upon Him..
when i want to slack, tell meself, i cannot, for this is my duty to study
when i want to give up, tell myself, i cannot be failing cos He is my help
when i want to run away, tell myself, this is the path He has brought me thus far.
try harder!
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
of comms and ability
it's time of the near when the people all around are trying to secure people do production, chairmanship and all...
i was at first thinking of organising vbs.. but later, i kinda feel it weird to do so cos my heart attitude is erm.. i dun know if i am right to organise it. if i cannot even organise camps, why can i do vbs? somehow, i think i am not a good person to work with.
sndcc has been to a close.. thinking about myself, i guess i am not a good person to work with too. as usual it's my expression. in the end, my counterpart finds it hard to relate to me or maybe he dint even try to lah.. but the fact is, it shows that i am not an encouraging co-worker whom pple will find to talk to.
but yingying tries to find me for smb. according to her is becos of IT skills. i wonder how much am i over-rated.
tris asked me if i am interested in production. he's trying to find a producer. if he's going to be a producer, he says that he's confident in me to be one of his managing pple personnel. i wonder, how true.
cos back to sndcc, i nv get to convince pple. i dint get to push yip to do the lift upgrading project cos i tot it's too hard on him. i dint get to paint a nice colourful with shading banner cos they just simply dun believe that i can work with colours. or i just cant push them to higher standards. even my balloons decor was highly worried and doubted by paulene. yip was easily and conveniently saying that the number of balloons i have was not enough. it's not easy to do. and things like that.
sk was trying to find pple to chair flag. can see that he thinks ivan is of a calibre to do so.. he asked me bout it too but i guess he's not pinning much hope on me. =) pros and cons. it could be that i have rejected very plainly or i am just a side and peripheral.
back to vbs. in the sight of the Lord, it's when you think you are of nobody, then you are somebody to God. the humble spirit is necessary. i rethink bout my experience with the past few church stuffs. i am involved, as a convenient manpower i would think. that shouldn't be a wrong thing. why should i care about how pple see as long as i am willing to be of use to God. but the number of people in church, and the pool of people working together has kinda marginalised the type of things i am doing. just as chairing a com in hall, being the coordinator for vbs to me, the first and foremost impt thing is the people who will straightway support you and join you in the team.
when sndcc has ended... is there going to be a new comn to join? should i? oh ya.. sham radio, i forgot. i am supposed to be in it. okie.. i shall stay with it.
talking bout sham radio, i start o feel lousy bout my publicity. recent comns have kinda demolish my ideals about publicity. or maybe i should venture out for newer fields. maybe. so what's next? where does my abilities lies?
i was at first thinking of organising vbs.. but later, i kinda feel it weird to do so cos my heart attitude is erm.. i dun know if i am right to organise it. if i cannot even organise camps, why can i do vbs? somehow, i think i am not a good person to work with.
sndcc has been to a close.. thinking about myself, i guess i am not a good person to work with too. as usual it's my expression. in the end, my counterpart finds it hard to relate to me or maybe he dint even try to lah.. but the fact is, it shows that i am not an encouraging co-worker whom pple will find to talk to.
but yingying tries to find me for smb. according to her is becos of IT skills. i wonder how much am i over-rated.
tris asked me if i am interested in production. he's trying to find a producer. if he's going to be a producer, he says that he's confident in me to be one of his managing pple personnel. i wonder, how true.
cos back to sndcc, i nv get to convince pple. i dint get to push yip to do the lift upgrading project cos i tot it's too hard on him. i dint get to paint a nice colourful with shading banner cos they just simply dun believe that i can work with colours. or i just cant push them to higher standards. even my balloons decor was highly worried and doubted by paulene. yip was easily and conveniently saying that the number of balloons i have was not enough. it's not easy to do. and things like that.
sk was trying to find pple to chair flag. can see that he thinks ivan is of a calibre to do so.. he asked me bout it too but i guess he's not pinning much hope on me. =) pros and cons. it could be that i have rejected very plainly or i am just a side and peripheral.
back to vbs. in the sight of the Lord, it's when you think you are of nobody, then you are somebody to God. the humble spirit is necessary. i rethink bout my experience with the past few church stuffs. i am involved, as a convenient manpower i would think. that shouldn't be a wrong thing. why should i care about how pple see as long as i am willing to be of use to God. but the number of people in church, and the pool of people working together has kinda marginalised the type of things i am doing. just as chairing a com in hall, being the coordinator for vbs to me, the first and foremost impt thing is the people who will straightway support you and join you in the team.
when sndcc has ended... is there going to be a new comn to join? should i? oh ya.. sham radio, i forgot. i am supposed to be in it. okie.. i shall stay with it.
talking bout sham radio, i start o feel lousy bout my publicity. recent comns have kinda demolish my ideals about publicity. or maybe i should venture out for newer fields. maybe. so what's next? where does my abilities lies?
Saturday, September 02, 2006
时候时机
电视剧里常常说，不是任何人的错，错只错在时间。在我自怜说自己为何没有像今年这般新生一样，有那么多好玩，好（第4声）玩 的一群人 的时候。我也许要看看周围和我一样的人。
在我很想和其他人浑成一团的时候，我发现，我也不是很努力的把allan当成是自己这一届的朋友。下一步怎么走, 我就看下一群然我自然融入的那一群吧。
在我很想和其他人浑成一团的时候，我发现，我也不是很努力的把allan当成是自己这一届的朋友。下一步怎么走, 我就看下一群然我自然融入的那一群吧。
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