back at 1

i want to go back.. to the days of my childhood. not because i am carefree. but back then, at least i know what i want. 

goals are so easy to set. simply getting the results or knowing friends etc...

now, i hesitate to pursue. 

i am taught not to pursue things transient. 

i am also taught to pursue things that are attractive. 

so much so that i am not deciding. i cannot even decide who to call or sms regularly. i cannot also decide where my allegiance should be. 

i need to decide. 

the dream catcher

you know what? i am so glad that i have copied my dream catcher machine and brought it back to singapore. today isn't reallie very nice. being bogged down with things to do. that's not bad. it's good to be busy. but my day was ruin with failed attempts to get them done. esp with my cranky lappie. and i have to endure for a while more before i can have enough money to buy a new one. dun feel like buying also.. in this time of uncertainty. i am going to be unemployed sooon =(

but the thing is.. i am glad i went for a run!! the run from sheares to west coast mac. the run cool. not as amazing as my original patented dreamcatching bike in shanghai but it's a good copy of it. feels good running and thinking bout things in general.