sun wukong

孙悟空


兵荒马乱五百年来没改变过
花果山下满天的烽火
人类累不累啊还在你争我夺
西天取经回来后 有没有人有读过

师父每年都会寄卡片来问候 五百张了算多不算多
看到卡片我都想起那段奋斗
金箍棒那么神勇 现在只能掏掏耳朵
齐天大圣是我 谁能奈何了我
但是我却依然不小心 败给了寂寞

如果要让我活 让我有希望的活(请给我快乐苦痛)
我从不怕爱错 就怕没爱过

如果能有一天 再一次重返光荣
记得找我 我的好朋友

听说悟净已经植发治好了秃头
有了论及婚嫁的女友
八戒这个猪头手机老是不通
好色本性多隽永 好像时间从来没走

西天取完了经 东边应该还有
夥伴们好不好 让我们 再拯救地球

handing over.. trying to

erm.. having been blogging.. let's try to summarise what happened.

handing down to my u/s.. but it's seemed to be quite stressful to handover also. i guess it's all pride that is killing me..

today maj lim and mr vincent send email to ALL in CCODIEPPE to say i am good.. erm.. well.. headswollen.. but give Him the glory.. it's Him who keeps me going. although i am still tryin hard to take my work to be just a normal thing, a vocation called to be in. and ryan.. erm.. having prob communicating with him lah.. guess he thinks that i dun like him.. but i am not. i just trying to tell him that he's not behaving erm.. very norm.. well.. guess he's from a diff culture having diff set of values..

yifei called me to ask me to tutor him for JC maths year 2. i was like.. "are you sure?" i guess he's really desparate liao. so i went to tutor him lor, givin him to to find a tutor meanwhile.. dun think will charge him money if it's only 1/2 lessons.. will treat it as a erm.. warranty service lor.. ( i taught him A maths for his Os)

erm.. realise i still have so many things to do before i handover.. why am i still doing them.. esh's early relase, liliang disruption, aaron's disruption, jason's signing on.. why am i doing them when i am exiting myself.. arhg.. dun know lah..
dun know if i can clear leave soon..

so, after my handtake with Annex A B C D, think i can make my exit.~

one day, i will write chucks of words

erm.. there's so much to write.. well, that's the characteristic of a melancholy at his highest state of kong xu~ hahaa=)

erm.. recently, will think twice before rambling in blog. cos i have been talking very casually here, so much so that my real intentions are often written wrongly. expressed inadequately etc.. and scare that i will stumble others.. =o

but will write soon. a memoir of life in hq guards.

sorry to francis | misunderstanding

first of all, sorry to francis for calling him a bad guy..

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i am tinking if i should start to keep this blog to be a column, and not a journal.. i write with the intention of letting more pple understand me thru writings but i am often being mis-understood.

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really want to have a nice yellow blog. but, erm.. unalbe and incapable to do so.. not much time left..

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more time in office nowadays.. but doesn't equate to more ways to interact and having happier times.. argh.. think i am such a noob.. =(

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time is running out.. amendments, erm.. too late.

diskhub is down

http://diskhub.com/diskhub/uploads/04-10-23/yellow2.gif failed me. hm... dun know what's chris doing with his www.diskhub.com

erm.. seems that both diskhub and filedeposit still not stable for longterm usage. haha..

well, uploaded to my own server now lor.. still dun know how to make full use of my own server.

actually have your own server and domain is quite economical. you get free POP email plus all the ad-free / pop-up free counters blah.. even forum programmes and shopping cart programme.. but, hm.. sadly, i think i am not makin full use of them.>~!

Jin Hui's FotoPage - - Fotopages.com

Jin Hui's FotoPage - - Fotopages.com

got to this page thru irwin's blog. and saw see guan in the picture.. hah.. he's 1 year my senior,. and his sec 2 class outing still con't..

hence, i should be more enthu bout dhssec2h'98.

some of them only turn up after 1-2 yrs...
then there r those who r overseas..
turns up (hopefully) only once a yr...

nothing ever changes...
the things we tok abt...
those were really the days...
the guys who never grow up...
the gers who r getting prettier by the day...

all of us put together...
we might not be the best of frens...
seldom see each other...
only chat online (if we bother to??haha)...
hardly share our joy or problems...
only share gossip...(plenty man!!)

i seriously dun noe how the others feel...
but to me...
nothing can replace them...
or the times we shared...
no matter how silly n ridiculous...

i would like to say the above. but i m quite guilty for not holding class outings for 2h. erm.. should i say, i have this bad habit. that is my confidence to be sociable within a group only lasts for 2 years.. erm.. well, maybe i should break my self-fulfiling prophesy.

quoting from yue'en

"...ALD…actually, I don’t mind answering the phone call, just that I can’t stand the attitude that was given to me. I DON’T like being commanded around like “Ernie come over here” for no rhyme or reason. Especially by someone who is junior to me"

hm.. well.. guess it's jsut naturally for people to feel pissed when being put in the same situation for too long. =) okie.. feeling much better now.

p/s: in case anyone dun know.. ernie refers to yue'en, not me.

handing over

hm.. trying to plan my handing over. but it seems so hard. erm... to many things to clear before handing over. however, dephin advised that i should be clearing those things with my understudy, so that he knows what's going on. but i think i should be doing them and let him start afresh..

but then again. whenever he's around, i am too occupied with some other matters to talk to him. other times, he's not around.

difficult.

well, to have a good successor is part of the duty of a predecessor.

recollections

realised that i havent been posting positive things.. most of the blog are just lamentation of the my days. is there a problem with it? i hope not.

firstly, i am assured that bad thoughts are just outlets to vent. remember someone saying this, "there's nothign wrong for evil thoughts to pass thru your minds, but it's wrong to let it grow in you." yeap.. that's the way i shoudl be working on -- to let bad thoughts simply fly thru me.~

2nd, i think it's just human nature to write when they have deep/sad/confusing thoughts. ya.. cos happy moments is simple. there's no explanation to happiness, it's just a sweet blissful feeling. simple and joyful.

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u.john said something during the 1st shomerim mtg.. to start the year right... also to not let regrets happen again. easier said than done. =) ya.. but i should be trying. there's no way to be of any use of God but first to study His Word. okie.. strive harder. =)

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.. lastly.. erm.. yeap , okie. shan't post my question, just my answer. i am not grown up, but i am definitely growing, jsut like all of them out there.

argh

i think i am supersensitive to the word flop, if i cannot detect any sense of humour in it.

again, i start to think that there are bad guys areoudn. but i also know that while thinking this, i am being a bad guy also. nvm, goign to repay the bad guy the way he will most want it.

forget it.. he's the number 1 person to delete from phonebook.

okay.. that's just rattling.. forget the above thoughts.~

i am sick

i am sick today.. 37.3 degree!! it's high fever to me lor. my normal body temnp is only 35.9. but that stupid incompetent doctor give me that "you are trying to chao keng" look.

argh.. think going to get some doctor to certify my normal body temp some day!

sian!! tmr not going to office.. taking off to rest. but then hor! aiayh.. still got some many things to call back and instruct them.. sian sian sian.. time to slack~

dinner with dixon

dixon called to have dinner with me on thurs night..
seemed that he has found a pretty good job, 5 day week, short travelling time . good for him.
brought me to this restaurant, fig n olive, at douby gaut. thanks to a kinda priviledged card he has, my meal costs only bout $7.50. not bad!

he talked a lot that night, erm.. seemed to have taught me years of maxim and experience. he likes to say "even.. you still have to..... So why not...." upon meetin, he told me and teach me, even showed me how to ask some girls out. i said no, but he used my hp to sms wanting. and tell me how to go about sms-ing her.

chilling out

"how nice will it be, to be a grown up, to be able to go to some pubs or hung out in the streets anytime i like with friends to talk to..", that's what i thougth last time. (in pri sch) and frankly speaking, i think i am of this age. this age where i can hang out anytime i like. but royston, yiwei etc (my pri sch best friends).. aren't there talking to me as often liao.

so i tot weiming, weixiong, eugene, drew and cal will be my best friends. weiming was telling his friend on the phone saying. " i am with my si2 dang3". wat a nice noun to term us. i am indeed honoured. but, there's still something lacking. weiming refuses to tell us bout her today. as usual, i kept quiet and leave the questioning to them. to of no avail. so i asked him again while walking back to mrt. so he explained, "i really cannot share this". so, i guess there's something that aren't right to share now. yes, i understand. guess cal and ming are close cos they alwyas hve this girls thing to talk bout. and i not spending enough time with them. well, it's just me. they are a bunch of F.R.I.E.N.D.S but i am jsut too ecentric.

i am worried, there's always this tendencies for me to get to knwo a group easily. but end up finding no sense of belonging and hence thrown into my self-illusioned depression. but, can i help it?

year 2005

orignally expected myself to crossover from 04 to 05 in the church, among many friends, sharing about all the blessings and bestowments from God for the past year. well, a change of plans, leading me to spend my new year's eve in the ops room, having a busy night entertaining calls and getting arrowed by many crabs here and there. no matter wat's the motive of this operation, i see that i am doing a good deed to those in indonesia in some ways. haah.. seriously, i think it's not a bad way to cross the year also. you dun need to be comfortable on the eve to set resolution. in fact, resolutions need not be set on the eve of the new year.

2004 has been quite fine for me. no change in job scope eversince. and i have been busy with things somehow in office. it's a busy year and yet a fast moving year. people come and go, esp when i am the one returning their pink ICs to them. i will say i have done my best in this vocation that my Lord has called me to assume. there's much that i can do better of cos, mainly to diseminate things better, to built a better team working together instead of the lop-sided situation today. but i have tried, nonetheless...

have i done my best for the Lord? i guess not. many struggles in sin and desires. but i have learnt to see Him carrying me thru.

2005, marks the year of change, not only for me but many people. for me, transition into a student is a challenge, esp when i 'discovered/convinced myself' that i am quite a poor learner. need a lot of help from God in chem engine next year. will be going to EX HN too, will be an eye-opener as well, i hope. and of cos, to hand over my job is a challenge. i wonder how many days do i have to take to finish my SOPs.

my bro will be having his N levels. i think he's grown up. in fact, i start to think that he's reaching his prime whereby learning is easy for him. was so glad/put to shame when he can remember u.isaac's lessons well. hope he knows where he's heading to.

liangkiang is going to complete his studies too? not sure. think so. Jiannan will be enlisting. Amos will be commissioning and starting his time in army as a regular. Jianjun will be takin his PSLE. shuping will transit from a teacher to a student. shuhui will be graduating(tho many will think it's even better if she can stay on to complete her honours) xiuyi also takin her Ns. meijie graduating.. so do daniel, followed by his enlistment.

Year Two Thousand and Five, is also going to end soon.. dun you think so?