good movie. good pacing, editing, story erm.. good film.
Action/Adventure. Rated R. Starring: Tom Cruise, Ken Watanabe, Billy Connolly, Koyuki, Tony Goldwyn. Set in the late 1870s, this epic film depicts the beginnings of the modernization of Japan, as the island nation evolved past a feudal society, as symbolized by the eradication of the samurai way of life. We see all this happen from the point of view of an alcoholic Civil War veteran turned Winchester guns spokesman, Captain Woodrow Algren (Cruise), who arrives in Japan to train the troops of the emperor, Meiji, as part of a break away from the long-held tradition of relying on employed samurai warriors to protect territories, as the emperor`s new army prepares to wipe out the remaining samurai warriors. When Algren is injured in combat and captured by the samurai, he learns about their warrior honor code from their leader, Katsumoto, which forces him to decide which side of the conflict he actually wants to be on. -- synopsis
this movie reminds me of wong fei hong movie. somehow, the setting is the same, both countries(china and japan) was trying to revolutionise to change their tradidtion and learn from the west. in wong fei hong movies, he is trying to unite the chinese and also trying to contribute using his traditional medical knowledge and his kongfu. now the japanese are trying to defend their samurai skills and culture... diff between the two? erm.. little.
but the end results for both countires is obiously different as what we have seen today. Japan is westinised and China is trying to catch up only now. and japan is definitely leading a erm.. higher standard of living.
so, what does it means? westinisation is good? we should really look to the west for improvement? i dun know.. really. i dun know.. maybe if China embrace the west, china will be stronger now> i dun know..
but we have to note, when china is trying hard to catch up with the west, the west are trying to learn bout east. they are interested in our ancestors' knowledge, e.g acupunture, tea making, which we are treasuring presently. and as for Japan, they make efforts to retain their culture. so? conlusion is.. i still dun know.. it is not for me to decide.
Saturday, January 31, 2004
a phase i give it a name "trough"
jevin has stop blogging. guess maybe he has thought it thru and there's no need for him to cling on the blog for expressions / vent or communication. good or bad sign, God decides. but i truely enjoy the days when we blog together. and during that time, i am writing my blog, kinda in response to his blog.. a subtle one.. i guess..
now, yuwei seems to be going thru it again, a "trough". this trough is terrible, i remember bloggin bout this particular thingie call trough.. really hope he will get out of it soon.
maybe i should archive my fav blog entries.. *idea.
now, yuwei seems to be going thru it again, a "trough". this trough is terrible, i remember bloggin bout this particular thingie call trough.. really hope he will get out of it soon.
maybe i should archive my fav blog entries.. *idea.
Friday, January 30, 2004
work plan..
the nsman in my office says that i am working without a plan, too hard, too bia, too much.. maybe, maybe not.
i guess i have been busy in office that i haven got the chance to blog... so making use of this chance in the ops room, standing in for wilfred, to blog.
the nsman, lim, says, i am not only an nsf, i am someone's son, someone's tutor, someone's friend... boyfriend, best friend, good friends and many more.. i must be able to assume all these roles at the right time. and i agree. which means, i should really stop thinking bout work on my way home, before 8am and after 1730. or really? will i be happier if i dun think bout work.
this is my analysis bout myself. i am not capable, just willing to put in more effort to get things done. hence, if i were to be a 8-5 worker, erm.. i will forget/unable to meet deadlines and hence causing unhappiness to colleagues and myself. i just dun like failures,.. though they are common.
ok.. let me embark on my driving lesson drilling plans.. and try to be a CT rep again.. God helps me.
i guess i have been busy in office that i haven got the chance to blog... so making use of this chance in the ops room, standing in for wilfred, to blog.
the nsman, lim, says, i am not only an nsf, i am someone's son, someone's tutor, someone's friend... boyfriend, best friend, good friends and many more.. i must be able to assume all these roles at the right time. and i agree. which means, i should really stop thinking bout work on my way home, before 8am and after 1730. or really? will i be happier if i dun think bout work.
this is my analysis bout myself. i am not capable, just willing to put in more effort to get things done. hence, if i were to be a 8-5 worker, erm.. i will forget/unable to meet deadlines and hence causing unhappiness to colleagues and myself. i just dun like failures,.. though they are common.
ok.. let me embark on my driving lesson drilling plans.. and try to be a CT rep again.. God helps me.
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
flop!!!
long time has it been a common word in my daily life. but today, this is a true conclusion of my day. FLOP. sigh..
Saturday, January 24, 2004
Friday, January 23, 2004
cny 2004
this cny is kinda a mark of a change of era in my family. suddenly i am reaching 20 this year. "wow... time flies.. ernest so big liao.. an edmund so tall already leh.. taller than ernest liao", said by many. indeed, i must agree that edmund has grown up. things are not the same any more.. the fact that he is surfing p*** on my com.. haha.. he's growing..
and i am going to be uncle again. my tang ge is having a baby this coming march. we do things like discussing names and everything. oh.. to think that i have a part in thinkin of a name for a baby. erm.. kinda weird right?
edmund is 15 this year. and he's the youngest in my generation. and i am 20, theoritically eligible to get married also liao. haha.. we(my gen) are all moving to a different time, from schoolish chats about cca/teachers/subjects, we are talking bout uni, jobs, markets.. i dun really like it.. but, what to do?
and this year, specifically today, we went thru the age of the relatives one by one and convinced each other that time flies. my da gu aka my gu ma is 62 my da bo is 64... and they are having grandchildren already. and my father, being youngest is having a 20-yr-old son, me, too.
wanted to do up a family tree. i am fortunate enough to know most of my relatives. but for edmund, he doesn't. after my grandfather passed away, my parternal family dun have to practice to visit each other during a designated time, meaning, we dun get to see all the relatives during new year. will be fun.. maybe. i know my father has always wanted to unite the family.. all the biao and tang cousins from my father side. but he's the youngest in his generation. kinda diff for him also. i will remember his wish and fulfil it if poss next time.
as usual, i made many personal aims for myself aGaIn! exercise to tone up. to read more, to study more, and know more. etc.. to many aims to little time and perserverence..
ok.. shall end my ramdom thoughts with this:
when we are running at the same velocity with a bus, the relative velocity wrt to the bus is zero => the only way to stop time from running, is to run with the same velocity as time. only then can the 'velocity' of time be zero!
and i am going to be uncle again. my tang ge is having a baby this coming march. we do things like discussing names and everything. oh.. to think that i have a part in thinkin of a name for a baby. erm.. kinda weird right?
edmund is 15 this year. and he's the youngest in my generation. and i am 20, theoritically eligible to get married also liao. haha.. we(my gen) are all moving to a different time, from schoolish chats about cca/teachers/subjects, we are talking bout uni, jobs, markets.. i dun really like it.. but, what to do?
and this year, specifically today, we went thru the age of the relatives one by one and convinced each other that time flies. my da gu aka my gu ma is 62 my da bo is 64... and they are having grandchildren already. and my father, being youngest is having a 20-yr-old son, me, too.
wanted to do up a family tree. i am fortunate enough to know most of my relatives. but for edmund, he doesn't. after my grandfather passed away, my parternal family dun have to practice to visit each other during a designated time, meaning, we dun get to see all the relatives during new year. will be fun.. maybe. i know my father has always wanted to unite the family.. all the biao and tang cousins from my father side. but he's the youngest in his generation. kinda diff for him also. i will remember his wish and fulfil it if poss next time.
as usual, i made many personal aims for myself aGaIn! exercise to tone up. to read more, to study more, and know more. etc.. to many aims to little time and perserverence..
ok.. shall end my ramdom thoughts with this:
when we are running at the same velocity with a bus, the relative velocity wrt to the bus is zero => the only way to stop time from running, is to run with the same velocity as time. only then can the 'velocity' of time be zero!
confidence
confidence is the key essential substance to keep our from lookin down on the ground when we walk, it is the quality a man should have to persue, and it is the character developed not by his sucess/ intelligence but his faith - his faith with God.
it is an extremely difficult substance to deal with. too much or too little will cause harm, tremedous harm possible.
li nanxing acted a role in jia zai da ba yao. he is portrayed as a person with low self-esteem who prefer no changes in life. his wish is to be a civil servant, for the iron rice bowl. he holds a MBA and yet dun think he's good enough for any thing. so he chooses to be a taxi driver. his wife is performing well in her career and because of this, it sparks off his inferior complex and ask for a split. oh man,.. his wife loves him but he ruin the relationship just because he dun think he is good enough for his wife to love him.
well.. i cannot really relate to a case whereby there's a person who is ruin by his confidence... okay.. here's one.
romance of three kingdoms. cao cao is confident in his own judgement and intelligence. however, in chi bi zhi zhan, erm.. ok wait.. dun think it's a good example. forget it.
guess confidence is generally good. even if you are too confident and becomes detestable... erm.. you will actually feel happy with yourself, erm.. or even a bit narcisscist, that people's views upon you aren't hurting you...
but for christians, i must say our confidence must come from God. erm.. dun know to expound on this.. but this is what i believe and working on... ~
it is an extremely difficult substance to deal with. too much or too little will cause harm, tremedous harm possible.
li nanxing acted a role in jia zai da ba yao. he is portrayed as a person with low self-esteem who prefer no changes in life. his wish is to be a civil servant, for the iron rice bowl. he holds a MBA and yet dun think he's good enough for any thing. so he chooses to be a taxi driver. his wife is performing well in her career and because of this, it sparks off his inferior complex and ask for a split. oh man,.. his wife loves him but he ruin the relationship just because he dun think he is good enough for his wife to love him.
well.. i cannot really relate to a case whereby there's a person who is ruin by his confidence... okay.. here's one.
romance of three kingdoms. cao cao is confident in his own judgement and intelligence. however, in chi bi zhi zhan, erm.. ok wait.. dun think it's a good example. forget it.
guess confidence is generally good. even if you are too confident and becomes detestable... erm.. you will actually feel happy with yourself, erm.. or even a bit narcisscist, that people's views upon you aren't hurting you...
but for christians, i must say our confidence must come from God. erm.. dun know to expound on this.. but this is what i believe and working on... ~
confidence is the key essential substance to keep our from lookin down on the ground when we walk, it is the quality a man should have to persue, and it is the character developed not by his sucess/ intelligence but his faith - his faith with God.
it is an extremely difficult substance to deal with. too much or too little will cause harm, tremedous harm possible.
li nanxing acted a role in jia zai da ba yao. he is portrayed as a person with low self-esteem who prefer no changes in life. his wish is to be a civil servant, for the iron rice bowl. he holds a MBA and yet dun think he's good enough for any thing. so he chooses to be a taxi driver. his wife is performing well in her career and because of this, it sparks off his inferior complex and ask for a split. oh man,.. his wife loves him but he ruin the relationship just because he dun think he is good enough for his wife to love him.
well.. i cannot really relate to a case whereby there's a person who is ruin by his confidence... okay.. here's one.
romance of three kingdoms. cao cao is confident in his own judgement and intelligence. however, in chi bi zhi zhan, erm.. ok wait.. dun think it's a good example. forget it.
guess confidence is generally good. even if you are too confident and becomes detestable... erm.. you will actually feel happy with yourself, erm.. or even a bit narcisscist, that people's views upon you aren't hurting you...
but for christians, i must say our confidence must come from God. erm.. dun know to expound on this.. but this is what i believe and working on... ~
it is an extremely difficult substance to deal with. too much or too little will cause harm, tremedous harm possible.
li nanxing acted a role in jia zai da ba yao. he is portrayed as a person with low self-esteem who prefer no changes in life. his wish is to be a civil servant, for the iron rice bowl. he holds a MBA and yet dun think he's good enough for any thing. so he chooses to be a taxi driver. his wife is performing well in her career and because of this, it sparks off his inferior complex and ask for a split. oh man,.. his wife loves him but he ruin the relationship just because he dun think he is good enough for his wife to love him.
well.. i cannot really relate to a case whereby there's a person who is ruin by his confidence... okay.. here's one.
romance of three kingdoms. cao cao is confident in his own judgement and intelligence. however, in chi bi zhi zhan, erm.. ok wait.. dun think it's a good example. forget it.
guess confidence is generally good. even if you are too confident and becomes detestable... erm.. you will actually feel happy with yourself, erm.. or even a bit narcisscist, that people's views upon you aren't hurting you...
but for christians, i must say our confidence must come from God. erm.. dun know to expound on this.. but this is what i believe and working on... ~
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
cny eve, i wish it were better
i think i am having too many things in hand and in mind. that is why things don't work out. i have mroe cock ups. and i have more things not done, or not done properly.. why? i wish i have been more capable.
1. ravi's ord, i din ask him to do his ffi!
2. desmond's ord, erm.. nothing wrong, jsut that things aren't smooth.. he din bring his replacement money..
3. forgot to duplicate keys for francis
yes. francis is raizal's understudy. 1985, a cheerful lad. like to know him, like to have him as friend as well.. well.. i have to do my part.
i have this bad habit: i seems to talk too much and "show off" too much.. ya.. by showing how much i know in office, invites unnecessary work and efforts from me. by showing how much i know, also shows how not humble i am. and it may cause some people to be unhappy with me.
wendy, is one person i will never want to be. but it seems that i am not far from her.. what rights do i have to criticise her..
she talks a lot, me? erm.. needless to say..
she complains a lot, and make a mountain out of a molehill, me? kinda the same, i often blow things up to gain attention... welll i am deprived of attention..
talks about what she is doing, scared taht pple dun knwo she got somethign to do; me? erm.. kinda the same, jsut that i do really think i have more things to do than her..
oh man.. just feel that this isn't the cny eve i want it to be.. there is something in me causing all this unhappiness in me. the lack of peace and bliss is causing me to feel the guilt.
what should i really do? i dun know..
1. ravi's ord, i din ask him to do his ffi!
2. desmond's ord, erm.. nothing wrong, jsut that things aren't smooth.. he din bring his replacement money..
3. forgot to duplicate keys for francis
yes. francis is raizal's understudy. 1985, a cheerful lad. like to know him, like to have him as friend as well.. well.. i have to do my part.
i have this bad habit: i seems to talk too much and "show off" too much.. ya.. by showing how much i know in office, invites unnecessary work and efforts from me. by showing how much i know, also shows how not humble i am. and it may cause some people to be unhappy with me.
wendy, is one person i will never want to be. but it seems that i am not far from her.. what rights do i have to criticise her..
she talks a lot, me? erm.. needless to say..
she complains a lot, and make a mountain out of a molehill, me? kinda the same, i often blow things up to gain attention... welll i am deprived of attention..
talks about what she is doing, scared taht pple dun knwo she got somethign to do; me? erm.. kinda the same, jsut that i do really think i have more things to do than her..
oh man.. just feel that this isn't the cny eve i want it to be.. there is something in me causing all this unhappiness in me. the lack of peace and bliss is causing me to feel the guilt.
what should i really do? i dun know..
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
Ernest.../email
Ernest.../email
absolute interesting mail.. to me. hope i will not kanna caught cos of this blog..
have tried to censor some data already.. but.. hope it's enough. ~
anyway, notes:
without doubts, the writers are all clerks.. and practise the norm to delete recipients list before forwarding.... except for people who bochap.. haha..
all of us writes.. pretty well.. haha.
absolute interesting mail.. to me. hope i will not kanna caught cos of this blog..
have tried to censor some data already.. but.. hope it's enough. ~
anyway, notes:
all of us writes.. pretty well.. haha.
block 1 people
if everything is supposed to go according to plans, i will be going to MP Br at block 1. i dun like it.
i am not sure since when, i start to think that all pple in block 1 are not nice. not nice to me.
chong from GS, keep saying that i am holding back his EZ link card application. please!! i am not the one.. just part of it...
sg terry called me for a favour, well.. favour is not the correct word cos he just treat me for granted. he ask me to give him the NRICs number of a list of people from all over the place. well, i could have declined but i helped. i even help him to get the NRICs from units other than mine. however... i din even get a thank you. i am treated for granted. i dun owe him anything!!
maybe i am not a good worker... maybe. just like i am dun express myself well, causing people to think that i am hostile. but, i guess i have done my best...
i am not getting the friendliness i want, or maybe i am not showing to others.. need help in this area.
i am vexed.. unhappy with people.. but God, please give me grace to con't to perform and love my neighbors...
i am not sure since when, i start to think that all pple in block 1 are not nice. not nice to me.
chong from GS, keep saying that i am holding back his EZ link card application. please!! i am not the one.. just part of it...
sg terry called me for a favour, well.. favour is not the correct word cos he just treat me for granted. he ask me to give him the NRICs number of a list of people from all over the place. well, i could have declined but i helped. i even help him to get the NRICs from units other than mine. however... i din even get a thank you. i am treated for granted. i dun owe him anything!!
maybe i am not a good worker... maybe. just like i am dun express myself well, causing people to think that i am hostile. but, i guess i have done my best...
i am not getting the friendliness i want, or maybe i am not showing to others.. need help in this area.
i am vexed.. unhappy with people.. but God, please give me grace to con't to perform and love my neighbors...
//my portfolio_____
//my portfolio_____ cool website.. erm. maybe i can do it? maybe i should start studying it.. haha.. yi xiang tian kai..~
Monday, January 19, 2004
Boots on the Ground
Boots on the Ground: "Plus, a lot of criminals are afraid to commit crime because Iraqi Police have time and again just shot the criminals because "
i din know a blog can gives me insights bout iraq, from a view of a US soldier. i am getting interested in blogs, i guess, i can spend days just reading and reading. actually, a blog is a like a biography. but how come i falls asleep readin biography borrowed from libraries? why? hmm.. not sure..
i din know a blog can gives me insights bout iraq, from a view of a US soldier. i am getting interested in blogs, i guess, i can spend days just reading and reading. actually, a blog is a like a biography. but how come i falls asleep readin biography borrowed from libraries? why? hmm.. not sure..
changing myself
teddy> and that u dont leave much leeway
teddy> both for urself and others
blurdream> leeway for?
teddy> first
teddy> ur language
teddy> its very scathing
teddy> it tends to be pointed
teddy> as in u tend to offend with ur tone
blurdream> yes.. someone told me exactly the same thing...
alan told me the same thing. but then, i told myself that i was on defensive mode when he's around, that explains my tone... guess i was wrong
thinking back, jiwei told me this: ernest, maybe you should sms with "okie", it will sound more frienly.
and i guess weiming etc seems to have tolerate me for many times and years as well..
my self-justification: i am unhappy with them in some matters. due to the fact that i am bottling up everything, my speech reflects my un-friendly tone..
the fact is: no matter what they have done, to be unfriendly to them is my fault. in fact, to be unhappy with them for some (untraceable, insignificant) matters, it's my fault again. can i change for the better?
pray harder...
Thursday, January 15, 2004
one year anniversary
back in office, there's this email replied to all and the recipients includes YueEn Matthew Junyang Situ Zhaosheng erm. Alvin? etc..
it's bout our feelings after one year in service in SAF. it's like a team blog and it's really fun reading it.
having external mail really comforts my stinct in NS. at least i get occasional mail from friends and know tat we are getting on well.. God works in His way.
if possible, post it online for all to see.. heh.. ~
it's bout our feelings after one year in service in SAF. it's like a team blog and it's really fun reading it.
having external mail really comforts my stinct in NS. at least i get occasional mail from friends and know tat we are getting on well.. God works in His way.
if possible, post it online for all to see.. heh.. ~
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
SaNoSuKe_9's Xanga Site
SaNoSuKe_9's Xanga Site
din know that yuwei is blogging as well... read a bit of his blog. as usual, it's what i have tot he is like... nothing special, no new discovery as well...
guess i will ask him bout his blog when i meet him up. Blog are meant to be read and not talked about. i am actively hoping that our blogs will eventually lead us to a realisation of our solutions to our problems. will there be such a day? maybe the day when we stop blogging will be the day when we are happier. (okok.. that's a pessimistic comment again:: blog can be happy tots as well)
jevin haven't been blogging. guess he has gotten out of his 'low' phase.. he's going to be commisioned soon.. maybe his solution be derived soon as well... maybe it's jsut a stay-in depression for him.. stay-in you1 yu4 zhen4. hope he's happy.
ok.. i have been losing points in office recently!~ how how how.. better bucked up. ~
din know that yuwei is blogging as well... read a bit of his blog. as usual, it's what i have tot he is like... nothing special, no new discovery as well...
guess i will ask him bout his blog when i meet him up. Blog are meant to be read and not talked about. i am actively hoping that our blogs will eventually lead us to a realisation of our solutions to our problems. will there be such a day? maybe the day when we stop blogging will be the day when we are happier. (okok.. that's a pessimistic comment again:: blog can be happy tots as well)
jevin haven't been blogging. guess he has gotten out of his 'low' phase.. he's going to be commisioned soon.. maybe his solution be derived soon as well... maybe it's jsut a stay-in depression for him.. stay-in you1 yu4 zhen4. hope he's happy.
ok.. i have been losing points in office recently!~ how how how.. better bucked up. ~
not blogging
i am not bloggin' as freq as i should/as i want. spending more time with the website designing, trying to perfect all the scripts and layout.. is it worth it?
bump into another blog again, musicjourney.blogspot.. used to think that my blog content will be like his/hers.. but then, i am nto writing.
am i doing all the bloggin in vain? i hope not.
well, i guess, i am bloggin more comments than events... which is Good/bad? there isn't an answer. too bad..
bump into another blog again, musicjourney.blogspot.. used to think that my blog content will be like his/hers.. but then, i am nto writing.
am i doing all the bloggin in vain? i hope not.
well, i guess, i am bloggin more comments than events... which is Good/bad? there isn't an answer. too bad..
Saturday, January 10, 2004
www.bdreamers.com
i wan to have my own domain. presently trying to fit my blogspot page into my geocities page. argh.. always cannot get the perfect combi due to limitation. and i feel so tempted to block out the blogspot advertisment but,.. well.. giving it some credits is what i am supposed to do.......
so, solution will be having my own domain.. but then again, it's hard to have my own domain name.. blurdreamer.com isn't cool enough.. but when the name is cool, it is just not ernest enough.. haha.. how?
http://shomerim.bdreamers.com
http://pacrew.bdreamers.com
how does it sound>?? ok? erm.. there can be a better domainname...
ok.. God ans my prayers. the case of the missing tables has been exposed. though what may come can be bad, at least the case is put on the table for all to see and hope the case will close. maybe i will have to pay.. i guess i will just pay lor.. SAF 1226 argh... con't to pray bout it for me.. tks
so, solution will be having my own domain.. but then again, it's hard to have my own domain name.. blurdreamer.com isn't cool enough.. but when the name is cool, it is just not ernest enough.. haha.. how?
http://shomerim.bdreamers.com
http://pacrew.bdreamers.com
how does it sound>?? ok? erm.. there can be a better domainname...
ok.. God ans my prayers. the case of the missing tables has been exposed. though what may come can be bad, at least the case is put on the table for all to see and hope the case will close. maybe i will have to pay.. i guess i will just pay lor.. SAF 1226 argh... con't to pray bout it for me.. tks
Friday, January 09, 2004
www.hardwarezone.com® Forums - MitsubishiXP or Sni7per: Where you hiding ?
www.hardwarezone.com® Forums - MitsubishiXP or Sni7per: Where you hiding ?
without background, it's hard to understand how interesting is the forum tread. read it up if you have time.. haha.. i mean bo liao time. then you will realise something::
1. there are some hum ji pple in this world. or behave in such that is mistooken to be hum ji by all(and that is bad enough)
2. there are steady pple/ (who has the time/ resources to expose other pple)
however, i stop to ponder. is the majority right? does it mean that since everyone agree that sni7per is a hum ji person, he has be one? and seriously speaking.. DYD exposing sni7per "hum ji" act, it's for the fun in it, isn't it ? is it justifiable?
but one thing to confirm: there are many diff kind of pple. some may have a life online/ some have a life outside/ some manifest their attributes online and live up to their characters...
ok.. i start to blabber liao.. ~end of session~
without background, it's hard to understand how interesting is the forum tread. read it up if you have time.. haha.. i mean bo liao time. then you will realise something::
1. there are some hum ji pple in this world. or behave in such that is mistooken to be hum ji by all(and that is bad enough)
2. there are steady pple/ (who has the time/ resources to expose other pple)
however, i stop to ponder. is the majority right? does it mean that since everyone agree that sni7per is a hum ji person, he has be one? and seriously speaking.. DYD exposing sni7per "hum ji" act, it's for the fun in it, isn't it ? is it justifiable?
but one thing to confirm: there are many diff kind of pple. some may have a life online/ some have a life outside/ some manifest their attributes online and live up to their characters...
ok.. i start to blabber liao.. ~end of session~
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
lying.
thou shalt not lie. i have deliberately lied. for vain glory. argh... i have done something obviously wrong. breaking my own promise.
thinking back, i can see that many occasions whereby telling the truth will cause things to be in better place than lying. lying will just exacerbate the situation and you have to tell a new lie to coverup your previous lies. what good does it do? dost it benefiteth thee?
hope my missing tables can be resolved. peacefully.
thinking back, i can see that many occasions whereby telling the truth will cause things to be in better place than lying. lying will just exacerbate the situation and you have to tell a new lie to coverup your previous lies. what good does it do? dost it benefiteth thee?
hope my missing tables can be resolved. peacefully.
Sunday, January 04, 2004
covenant made
i, hereby made this covenant with myself, for i dread to make it solumn yet.
1. i shall not deliberately do anything that is obviously wrong.
2. i shall not scratch myself excessively, and shall not scratch myself in the name of bathing.
3. i shall not indulge in sloth, lest i take the taxi often.
4. i shall not let pride leadeth me by nose. i must be humble.
5. Be worryful for nothing, for all is ordained by God and He has His plans.
//via blog//
Ernest Wong
1. i shall not deliberately do anything that is obviously wrong.
2. i shall not scratch myself excessively, and shall not scratch myself in the name of bathing.
3. i shall not indulge in sloth, lest i take the taxi often.
4. i shall not let pride leadeth me by nose. i must be humble.
5. Be worryful for nothing, for all is ordained by God and He has His plans.
//via blog//
Ernest Wong
talking with alan
long time no chat. nice talking to him. have also learnt a few things.
alan, a postively thinking, optimistic and confident guy. it is his confidence that i dun have and dun like him to have. (evil me right?) so, when we talked, i always sound flippant and can't-be-bothered. i give him the opposite reaction that a normal person will react to his stories. i just dun want to accede to his expectations, prediction.
however, i realise that there's something that is holding me back from being happier than him/ or to win him in conversation. it is still that self-confidence. he is proud of his job, his school, his behavior and his activities. the pride and the enthu in himself is like an amour for him to withstand and unhappy criticism.
he's actively involved in leaders' stuff, counsellors.. class activities..
me too. correction, i used to. i used to be invovled actively in prefects, class and my own friends gathering. but now? i am holding back.
back in JC, i held back, chose PA Crew to Student counsellor (back then thinking bout my skin condition and the fear people have upon seeing me)
in class? i push away all the responsibilities, to jiwei. thinkin that it is sth that is not reciprocated. thinkint that i am not good enough, thinkin that i am not popular to do the job. thinkin that i dun have the attributes to be one gregarious person, so i gave up.
now? i am holding back my change. i want to be as cheerly and gregarious and active person. but? ya.. something is holding me back as well.. why? ask God.
actually , my skin condition has only myself to blame. I am just not discipline enough to stop scratching!!!! and when the skin heals, i feel weird. it is like it is not normal for me to have normal skin. and i will start to be unattentive to my skin condition til it is beyond salvage again. why am i such a wretched person?
okok.. enough. enough.. ~
alan, a postively thinking, optimistic and confident guy. it is his confidence that i dun have and dun like him to have. (evil me right?) so, when we talked, i always sound flippant and can't-be-bothered. i give him the opposite reaction that a normal person will react to his stories. i just dun want to accede to his expectations, prediction.
however, i realise that there's something that is holding me back from being happier than him/ or to win him in conversation. it is still that self-confidence. he is proud of his job, his school, his behavior and his activities. the pride and the enthu in himself is like an amour for him to withstand and unhappy criticism.
he's actively involved in leaders' stuff, counsellors.. class activities..
me too. correction, i used to. i used to be invovled actively in prefects, class and my own friends gathering. but now? i am holding back.
back in JC, i held back, chose PA Crew to Student counsellor (back then thinking bout my skin condition and the fear people have upon seeing me)
in class? i push away all the responsibilities, to jiwei. thinkin that it is sth that is not reciprocated. thinkint that i am not good enough, thinkin that i am not popular to do the job. thinkin that i dun have the attributes to be one gregarious person, so i gave up.
now? i am holding back my change. i want to be as cheerly and gregarious and active person. but? ya.. something is holding me back as well.. why? ask God.
actually , my skin condition has only myself to blame. I am just not discipline enough to stop scratching!!!! and when the skin heals, i feel weird. it is like it is not normal for me to have normal skin. and i will start to be unattentive to my skin condition til it is beyond salvage again. why am i such a wretched person?
okok.. enough. enough.. ~
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