changing myself

teddy> and that u dont leave much leeway
teddy> both for urself and others
blurdream> leeway for?
teddy> first
teddy> ur language
teddy> its very scathing
teddy> it tends to be pointed
teddy> as in u tend to offend with ur tone
blurdream> yes.. someone told me exactly the same thing...

alan told me the same thing. but then, i told myself that i was on defensive mode when he's around, that explains my tone... guess i was wrong

thinking back, jiwei told me this: ernest, maybe you should sms with "okie", it will sound more frienly.

and i guess weiming etc seems to have tolerate me for many times and years as well..

my self-justification: i am unhappy with them in some matters. due to the fact that i am bottling up everything, my speech reflects my un-friendly tone..

the fact is: no matter what they have done, to be unfriendly to them is my fault. in fact, to be unhappy with them for some (untraceable, insignificant) matters, it's my fault again. can i change for the better?

pray harder...