back to Singapore

i am back to Singapore for 2 days.. erm.. start to face the reality of spending money in taiwan.. and yes.. i have to get my things back in place which includes the web pages that i have promised pple.

jiwei started this shop at plaza sing opposite dbs bank. it's g-mask.. nope it's not a comsmetic mask but a phone laminating thingie.. finally he's doing something that is not about arcade and machines. haah.. but it seems that it's hard on him.. to deal with the cost and salaries to his employees.. yes.. his employees..

been reading tuesday with morrie (in chinese, cos i bought it in taiwan) haha.. it's a nice book but i kinda dread to con't it.. erm.. the content strikes me and cause me to think about the way i ought to live my life.

i tot i have found my focus.. but i was wrong.. i have this wide screen lens in my eyes which cause to me to set my thoughts on every little thigns that pple have..

edwin ong (discom) told me about his friend who is the ACC for erm.. 4 SIR.. and describe him as someone who is indispensable in his unit. his life and workload is like hell.. i almost tot that i will wnat to be like him.. cos i think it's nice to be capable of such..

but then again, when i see pple have easy life in unit slacking, i will think that i wouldn't mind that kind of life..

wat am i driving at? i hav little idea of what i can and want to be.

spending my time in church. yah.. in fact, after one month in taiwan, i told myself that i will miss all my sabbaths and shomerims.. but on the other hand, felt like spreading my time to all my associates and friends.. ya.. what do i wnat/ i dun know..

acutally, i know.. but i am not following them.. and i switch my directions often.

i am now eager to download the photos into the com and upload them into the net and maybe dedicate a website to my trip hee.. okie. that will come after alan's and (hong+bo)haos' web.

day 26

wow!! next week today i will be in singapore for 2 days liao!! wonder what will i do once i reach singapore. who will i first meet up with.. who will first notice my arrival. or who will realise my departure in the first place.. haha..

27th - flying off at 2050hrs
28th - 0050hrs, reached singapore. (of cos no work on that day) (must remember to go for medical appt and take a whole lot of medicince before i ORD)
29th - off
30th - saturday
1st - sunday (finally)
2nd - mon, off
3rd - tue, off
4th - wed, off
5th - go back office.. (and spend money.. )

where the offs come from.. well.. 30 days in taiwan, 3 days isn't too much right?

day 25

today is a super bad day for me.. dun know why.. think that i am being such a xiao ren and failure..

fred says that i am talking in an agitated manner.. guess i am, when i am talking to some pple. okie.. maybe i am in the wrong.. but well, i dun quite like the idea that he says i am talkin differently cos i am 3sg.. argh.. okie.. i need a mirror.. for reflection. most prob i will be disgusted by myself and plunge into a deeper trough..

now i dun dare to return back to office, cos darrell emailed to tell me that the printer he bought based on my recommendation is not parallel port enabled!! .. shucks lor.. i DID check and that OCS lady double checked and confirmed some more! what went wrong?? i really dun know.. but i really no face to go back and face him.. argh.

things are getting quite incredible..

by right, i am supposed to write about my 'excursion' today.. to manzhou, to haikou, to kuanshan, chuhuo and so one.. and talk bout their lek dao shuan blah.. talk bout my long trip which make my face turned black (so much so that ms to says that i am tanned).. but i am not in the mood to do so.. i feel that.. good things are coming to an end.

what am i doing? haha. argh.. what am i thinking.. my heart is in a whirlpool now.. too much to think about.. and yet i dun seemed to be capable of thoughts, deep thoughts.

day 24

today.. erm.. okie lah..

there's something about me that i cannot stand it myself.. i like to have what pple have.. reallie.. it's super bad and disgusting.. i wish to have everything.. with to get to know all the pple around and wish to be friends with many pple.. it's like grabbing many things in one hand..

of cos, some judgemental thoughts set in.. felt that vina isn't very erm.. forthcoming and it seems that he's workin in a 'i think i am busy' manner. yes.. i know store is not easy to handle but i dun see him being very busy.. as in, he has time to slack also... he has time to nap at times when things are not very busy.. dun know lah.. it's me being judgemental.. fred seems very gum with him.. boozing with him most of the time when he drinks.. on the other hand, ravi seems nicer, erm.. less complaints and just trying to finish his job .. yea..

my previous driver's car broke down.. hence, we changed the driver (the driver is tagged to the vehicle) .. this new driver is quite okie.. but since it's the last week liao.. guess will not get to know him well.. hope to touch on the Gospel before i leave this place... this is my 3rd driver liao.. sigh.. nv get to knwo them well enough before changing..

yesterday a roc soldier walked out of the cookhouse and he saluted me~ hah.. i was like, turn left turn right, who is behind me.. haha.. heard of such cases but nv thought it will really happen, and to me.

it is better to have a good friend than to have someone who listens to you.. erm.. it's better to have good companion.. what am i trying to say.. well well.. just hoping for better and more depths in relatioships with pple around..

and i am going back to singapore sooN!.. in fact, it's next week.. exercise is going to cut on the 24th..

when you ahve gotten used to the norms in taiwan, it's the feelings and thoughts rather than experience that you will liek to jot down.. there's so many things that i wish i can remember and bring them back to singapore..~

day 16

i have this problem.. that is to feel comfortable when everyone gets comfortable with everybody.. low esteem.. and having probs making good friends..

things get worse when the guys start to talk about girls and stuffs plus etc.. feel like withdrawing from them but yet that's the topic, for them and almost the one and only topic.. dun know lah.

get to know few pple, mostly frm discom.. erm.. well.. not in depth but impressions made.

timothy. english speaking, capabilitis fully exploited in saf. and he feels not good about it. will like to be an offr (of cos). laments bout saf and he's gettig out soon anyway..

edwin, vs, nyj. one year my junior.. erm. have this cheerful friendly look

terrence, big built, walking around with the nicotine gum in his mouth most of the time.. give me that xiao1 sa3 seh.. hha.a. oh yes.. he's one of the pple i have sent for bmt recourse..

qin yixi, very positive and ren lao ren yuan.. always smiling in midst of his work.. impressive. hehe..

shawn, dhs junior, talked to him only during army..

boh, think his behavior isn't very acceptable in the generally standards of his colleagues.. and when i saw him, i felt that i am almost like him.. i guess i am just too self-cautious.. argh..

i think i should lie down.. and blend into the background.. yet i cannot do that most of the time.. felt that i am doing the rest a disservice if i am resting or having a good job scope.. argh.. what am i thinkin.. i shouldn't be concerned bout anything here.. just spend my days..

saw baisheng today at renshou.. ta xiang yu gu zhi, bu yi le hu.. and not forgetting andy to on kin, whomi met days ago too.. it's a small world after all..

day 12

sigh.. i think i spoilt jos' mp3.. argh.. hope it's manufacture fault.. dun know lah.. hope it;s the battery.. no matter what.. it's damn paiseh, even the process of making up to him is quite paiseh..

learning to do things not-the-office way here.. erm.. it;s quite diff.. i really think i am not doing well in stuffs like coordinating men going here there. but stil, i need to learn..

see how lah

day 10

it's a few days before CGO came and the main troops will be coming on the 11th.. so.. it';s our supossedly 2nd last nights out...

it has been more than one week and i think i start to feel and judge pple around.. of cos it is bad but well. after some time, we tend to have some opinions about pple around..

bkz, erm.. dun know him well.. but that time heard from wo jeery askin the rest of them who is the one who cannot stand him the most blah.. hm... wonder what does that mean..

of cos, will still like to remember wilfred for being a companion. nice to ahve him around. n jiaye and vincent. ! have been walkin with them for the past 3 nights out.. haha.. not bad.. quite nice to have them around to walk talk and eat...

but yesterday night out is a bit down.. erm.. why/?? cos i have made a calculation about the money that i am going to need in kaoshiung and kept withholding myself from buying anything that catches my eye, cos i am reminding myself that kaoshiung is the place to buy, not in this small town!! but later, when i see that the signal, supply etc pple bought so many things, i felt erm.. so sad.. thinking that i might have missed out some deals or nice stuffs..

sigh.. i know my problem. it's coveteousness!! it's really deadly.. i want to have what they have bought! that's so evil of me..

missed QT yesterday again.. yes it is becos of night out.. lights out liao .. well. have to catch up tonight..

V, erm.. he seemed to have known the ropes in qm dept and acting like a ag.CQ . haha. erm. i think we all like to be entrusted with responsibilities.. but the prob in NS is that i have to constantly remind myself that there are more capable pple around but not working (cos they are withholding... ) those who are working are those with the willingness to work, or the vulnerability of being used. ??

Lord's Day1

glad to spend more time with Him although it is a working day here.. indeed, the sabbath is made for man and we need it... it's really quite bad to have 7-working-day week.

since it's a sunday, they let us have nights off again. this time we went to heng chun zhen. erm.. if ken ting is a pasar malam night hangout, then heng chun zhen is like tampines 201 (bigger version of it)

spend more money again.. ermm.. this time on postcards stamps and a book. well.. really hve to restrain myself from spending too much!.. hve to spend during r and r.

day 6

blogged in shomerim.


today is Lord's Day.. but will talk bout it later.. let me recap about day 6...

yesterday was a day of sleep. yeah.. can i can really sleep, of cos i am not so pig.. i spend time reading the book nick lend to me - a bird's eye of of the Bible. hehe.. making good progress reading...

haven't been making a log of things and facts regardin taiwan.. let me try to do it fast..

1. they dun have sewage pipes, and all their waste goes to a sewage pond (hua fen chi).. and after some time they will engage a truck to suck out the stuffs.. haha.. you can see the brown stuff going thru the pipe.. hehe..

2. the onions here are big! haha.. anyway, the ah bing ge here have to help with the harvest cos the lao bai xin will kang yi if they dun do so.. cos their trainings are very noisy, helping to harvest is to compensate them. and yes.. why the onions so big? cos the wind here is very strong! the stem of the onions are blown off, leaving most of the nutrients in the underground stem (bulb) etc.. blah..
and why the wind so stong, cos it;s hot now!! it's near summer and the place is so hilly, the difference in pressure is great and so on.. haha.. (jos, go and mindmap hor!!~)

3. the soldiers here are somehow modelled after the americans.. they salute their sergeants.. so, they always salute us when we go into some of the camps (other than heng chun) .. haha. but most of us dun return the salute (think it's weird) but i think they think we are rude.. hmm.. not sure..

4. when we went to ken ting, they warned us that we must buy if we bargain! if not they will gang up and ostracise us.. haha.~

5. 4 ban = 1 pai, 4 pai= 1 lian, 4 lian = 1 ying, 4 ying = 1 lv, 4 lv = 1 shuai...

finished up my QT lag.. have and will try to spend more time wiht the Lord today.. i hope..

day 5

blogged to shomerim....

yeah.. thx nicole! haha.. and to xy, erm.. i also long time nv play pool liao!! sigh..

ya.. i have to moisturize my skin a lot. in fact it's already quite dry and flaky. pls pray for me. the air is dry here..

also, i have stomachache everyday, got wind in my stomach everyday day.. argh.. dun know why..

anyway, yesterday i have first night out! went to ken ting at 0830 and yeah.. bought some things already.hehe.. guess whose present have i gotten ? haha.. spend bout 100NT on food (trying to restrain myself to save money for the last few days). ate zha4 xian1 nai3, shan1 zhu1 rou4, stinky tofu (the not very stink type, not very good), ostrich satay (ex!) and ya.. something like that..

haha.. i cannot recap wat happen in the day time for day 5 cos the night overwhelmed the rest. haha.. reach camp quite late.. so QT missed, for the first time here, hopefully there's isn't much more to come.

Sunday here is a working day.. we are operating 24/7. so... guess i have to keep the Lord's Day in another way.. sigh..

have fun pple.. see you all in 3 weeks' time!