day 16

i have this problem.. that is to feel comfortable when everyone gets comfortable with everybody.. low esteem.. and having probs making good friends..

things get worse when the guys start to talk about girls and stuffs plus etc.. feel like withdrawing from them but yet that's the topic, for them and almost the one and only topic.. dun know lah.

get to know few pple, mostly frm discom.. erm.. well.. not in depth but impressions made.

timothy. english speaking, capabilitis fully exploited in saf. and he feels not good about it. will like to be an offr (of cos). laments bout saf and he's gettig out soon anyway..

edwin, vs, nyj. one year my junior.. erm. have this cheerful friendly look

terrence, big built, walking around with the nicotine gum in his mouth most of the time.. give me that xiao1 sa3 seh.. hha.a. oh yes.. he's one of the pple i have sent for bmt recourse..

qin yixi, very positive and ren lao ren yuan.. always smiling in midst of his work.. impressive. hehe..

shawn, dhs junior, talked to him only during army..

boh, think his behavior isn't very acceptable in the generally standards of his colleagues.. and when i saw him, i felt that i am almost like him.. i guess i am just too self-cautious.. argh..

i think i should lie down.. and blend into the background.. yet i cannot do that most of the time.. felt that i am doing the rest a disservice if i am resting or having a good job scope.. argh.. what am i thinkin.. i shouldn't be concerned bout anything here.. just spend my days..

saw baisheng today at renshou.. ta xiang yu gu zhi, bu yi le hu.. and not forgetting andy to on kin, whomi met days ago too.. it's a small world after all..