found a place to offer free webspace.. but felix haven't handed over my domain.. argh. sian.. wish to start fast. but then again. i think i cannot come up with my web design. unlimited wants to incoparate. ad or no ad.?? html or pictures? scroll or no scroll..? so many things to consider. argh.. wish there's someone to teachme.. but then again, reason why i am into this becos i have been teachign myself, to this stage.
what do i really want from the web? maybe i am wasting too much time. maybe i am not? only He knows. right now, i wish to have my blog page. my start page, and shomerimpage. that's all..
churchwebsite, erm.. i just wan to come up with design, hosting matters, dun really wish to think bout it first... not for me to decide also. too many things to do and too many thigns that i wan to accomplish. but yet my knowledge is so limited, and i dun hve the prerequisits to many things also..
oh yes., church camp booklet. .what am i supposed to do. have an idea already, but is that really what i want?
anyway, i feel damn sick in the ops room now. very cold. forgot to brign my sweater,.. think i am going to be dried up to night. maybe i will wear watever i can find later.. dun know lah..
tired. sick, feverish,.. and guilty. yet.. i'm still falling into it.
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
monday @ bugis
it has really been a long time i have gone for some loitering.
went to sim lim to buy power supply but erm.. din'tmanage to find the correct one. nvm.. at least bought a a: drive for u.jiaen..
then, i walked thru bugis.. the emr.. forever pasarmalam there/. yap.. walk thru the streets n look at the variety of bags and clothes sold. wow.. i am such a noob.
taking my time, walking slowly.. then to bugis junction..erm. nothing much to do there.. so visited kinokuniya. browse thru a book. "chinese maxims" interesting book. and i actually try to memorise as much as i can. if only i try to memorise the Bible as hard.
but honestly, chinese is something that i do not want to forget, therefore i have to cont to read and keep myself updated. and i must not forget, i want to be a proficient interpreter. =)
yes.. i spent the night alone. but it's kinda interested and erm.. happy. should do this once in a blue moon. ~
went to sim lim to buy power supply but erm.. din'tmanage to find the correct one. nvm.. at least bought a a: drive for u.jiaen..
then, i walked thru bugis.. the emr.. forever pasarmalam there/. yap.. walk thru the streets n look at the variety of bags and clothes sold. wow.. i am such a noob.
taking my time, walking slowly.. then to bugis junction..erm. nothing much to do there.. so visited kinokuniya. browse thru a book. "chinese maxims" interesting book. and i actually try to memorise as much as i can. if only i try to memorise the Bible as hard.
but honestly, chinese is something that i do not want to forget, therefore i have to cont to read and keep myself updated. and i must not forget, i want to be a proficient interpreter. =)
yes.. i spent the night alone. but it's kinda interested and erm.. happy. should do this once in a blue moon. ~
Monday, July 26, 2004
wat happen to wah^2
Huawei's Journal
repetition is a style of literature, just like alliteration or stuff like that..
someday, porn may get too boring, and the real thing would just be the right thing
the first line, erm.. sounds cool. and give justification for me to repeat my whining in blog.... haha..
but the 2nd line.. what happen to wah wah.!
repetition is a style of literature, just like alliteration or stuff like that..
someday, porn may get too boring, and the real thing would just be the right thing
the first line, erm.. sounds cool. and give justification for me to repeat my whining in blog.... haha..
but the 2nd line.. what happen to wah wah.!
Friday, July 23, 2004
ops room duty
yes agian.. i am doing ops room duty again.
each time when i do ops room duty, i will think that GS Branch sux. on the other hand, i will think that i am so fortunate to be in CCO! i think next time if mrs seet wants to give extra or take away lwe, i will suggest attaching them to GS Br for 1 week! haha..
life is really bad here. and i dun understand why people in my office can sitll con't to lead an act blur 'i-dun-know' attitude. argh.! kinda get irriated by BT 'speeches' and attitudes. dun know lah..
each time when i do ops room duty, i will think that GS Branch sux. on the other hand, i will think that i am so fortunate to be in CCO! i think next time if mrs seet wants to give extra or take away lwe, i will suggest attaching them to GS Br for 1 week! haha..
life is really bad here. and i dun understand why people in my office can sitll con't to lead an act blur 'i-dun-know' attitude. argh.! kinda get irriated by BT 'speeches' and attitudes. dun know lah..
how i sleep
Do you sleep on your side, with one knee bent and the other straight? You are a quiet and introverted person. The saying 'Still waters run deep' seems to have been made for you, because though you don't talk much, you observe and listen. You talk less because you don't believe in indulging in unnecessary conversation. You are intelligent, and are of a balanced nature. Rarely will you lose control of yourself. You know what you are doing, and where you are going. However, you don't have too much patience with those who are less intelligent than you. Loosen up! You don't discuss your feelings, and are not a very emotional person. You are rational and think with your head, not with your heart.
reallie! tell me how true it is? you don't have too much patience with those who are less intelligent than you it seems to reflect very badly on me. and i kinda think i am like that.. how? pray that i will have more patience and kindness~! remember that it's not of works, lest one will boast. i shouldn't even think of boasting.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
聪明 vs 傻气
used to think that yin yue ri ji got a lot of emails which i dun have. recently, read a number of emails (from caleb) which contains wordings from yinyue riji.
聪明的人喜欢猜心， 虽然每次都猜对了却失去自己的心。
傻气的人喜欢给心， 虽然每次都被笑了却得到别人的心。
鱼说：你看不见我的眼泪因为我在水中。
水说：我能感觉你的眼泪因为你在我心中。
years ago, when i was in sec1. after watching 射雕英雄传, i aspire to be 郭靖. i think that being a blur/transparent/truthful person is bliss. and yes i was, i con't to be my blurdreamer since then until i realise that life isn;t like the story. but i have gotten used to it. i have tried to change but not much. =)
but, now that i have changed quite a bit, i miss the days when i am still a bit傻气. now, knowledge (of surroundings and feeilngs) brings ... complication.
聪明的人喜欢猜心， 虽然每次都猜对了却失去自己的心。
傻气的人喜欢给心， 虽然每次都被笑了却得到别人的心。
鱼说：你看不见我的眼泪因为我在水中。
水说：我能感觉你的眼泪因为你在我心中。
years ago, when i was in sec1. after watching 射雕英雄传, i aspire to be 郭靖. i think that being a blur/transparent/truthful person is bliss. and yes i was, i con't to be my blurdreamer since then until i realise that life isn;t like the story. but i have gotten used to it. i have tried to change but not much. =)
but, now that i have changed quite a bit, i miss the days when i am still a bit傻气. now, knowledge (of surroundings and feeilngs) brings ... complication.
in office...
sian sian sian.. not that i have no work. but dun knwo hwo to start. everywhere LRI, stocktake. and everyone's thing is mroe important than me. so? argh..
i also got Mob, dockets, ORD to settle leh.. but then, no one is giving me time to finish them off..
RO flop again.. and mrs seet not around.. so? sigh.. dun know lah..it must be my retribution..!!
i also got Mob, dockets, ORD to settle leh.. but then, no one is giving me time to finish them off..
RO flop again.. and mrs seet not around.. so? sigh.. dun know lah..it must be my retribution..!!
Monday, July 19, 2004
francis' blog
LIFE OF A RASCAL: Truth of my life francis has written something which i dun understand but yet seems to indentify with it. that's about blogging. it's the joy of writing, and jotting down whatever comes across you mind. to archive your thoughts and to let people understand you better with you non-understandable paragraphs.
to be honest, nv did get to know him well. (which i wanted to) it has been more than 7 months.. in the same block, same office and yet.. i can't even say that i am his friend. nv go out with him as often as dixon, nv tell him about myself as much as wong, nv played with him as much as wilfred, not even knowing him as long as darrell... but it is not for no purpose God bring him into my life. at least, whenever i tot of telling him bout christianity, i felt my inadequate with my Bible. he make me strives to be a better Christian.. for a period of time. he says that he's a slacker and hence cannot clique with him. he brand himself to be a cats-dogs-dogs... (jokingly maybe..) but i tot he should know better that grades isn't everything.
now, he's going for BMT recourse. really dun knwo when will i get to see him after his bmt. it's filled with uncertainity for him. will pray for God's guidance in his steps.
i tot darrell was God's answer to my prayers when i was getting quite arrogant in office, so much so that i was 'ordering' people around, erm.. i mean ordering wong, bt around.. and even quarrelled with wilfred a bit.. i felt big-headed, i can't help it when every one is asking me for this and that. i feel like a helpdesk. So, i tot darrell is here to slashed my confidence, and teach me humility, to let me know that i am not great afterall. darrell is indeed capable, more capable than me i say. i am sure he can write better than me (that's almost all cos what i am doing in cco is to write, edit, proof-read outgoing mail and emails etc.. ) and he seems to be holding the control better than me. he can get the people moving better than me. so, if he's here to make me learn to be humble, so be it. God, please teach me to be humble and still doing my best even if the limelight isn't on me.
wilfred says something which i dun even know the answer myself. he says that my job scope is little just that i am doing all the unneccessary. i wonder how true. and i wonder how much he knows i am doing.
to be honest, nv did get to know him well. (which i wanted to) it has been more than 7 months.. in the same block, same office and yet.. i can't even say that i am his friend. nv go out with him as often as dixon, nv tell him about myself as much as wong, nv played with him as much as wilfred, not even knowing him as long as darrell... but it is not for no purpose God bring him into my life. at least, whenever i tot of telling him bout christianity, i felt my inadequate with my Bible. he make me strives to be a better Christian.. for a period of time. he says that he's a slacker and hence cannot clique with him. he brand himself to be a cats-dogs-dogs... (jokingly maybe..) but i tot he should know better that grades isn't everything.
now, he's going for BMT recourse. really dun knwo when will i get to see him after his bmt. it's filled with uncertainity for him. will pray for God's guidance in his steps.
i tot darrell was God's answer to my prayers when i was getting quite arrogant in office, so much so that i was 'ordering' people around, erm.. i mean ordering wong, bt around.. and even quarrelled with wilfred a bit.. i felt big-headed, i can't help it when every one is asking me for this and that. i feel like a helpdesk. So, i tot darrell is here to slashed my confidence, and teach me humility, to let me know that i am not great afterall. darrell is indeed capable, more capable than me i say. i am sure he can write better than me (that's almost all cos what i am doing in cco is to write, edit, proof-read outgoing mail and emails etc.. ) and he seems to be holding the control better than me. he can get the people moving better than me. so, if he's here to make me learn to be humble, so be it. God, please teach me to be humble and still doing my best even if the limelight isn't on me.
wilfred says something which i dun even know the answer myself. he says that my job scope is little just that i am doing all the unneccessary. i wonder how true. and i wonder how much he knows i am doing.
Monday, July 12, 2004
ops room duty
again.. in this room. well, quite okay today. cos the whole GS br is out for ex mousedeer. and the DO is quite good lah.. leave me alone in my work. have updated the shomerim website, hope it will last. but still, didn't complete what i have started off to do. wanted to finish up my treasure hunt today. but erm.. guess i have to work harder tomorrow.
these few days, have been letting my flesh overcoming my will. argh.. and now, i am so afraid of chastening from Him. why are we always so stiff-necked! argh.
din't went out with jiwei. it's really a very bad thing to do on my part. he's been such a good friend and this is how i treat him. why? something is not right..
anyway, for info, i am the one who is giving people their pink IC when they ord. and i am also the one who fetch them to the unit when they are posted in. =) i feel that i am not doing what i could have done! i can actually give out a tract everytime i give them their ICs. they are normally so happy upon seeing their pink ic, maybe it's a good time for them to read something more important than their pink ic. ??
these few days, have been letting my flesh overcoming my will. argh.. and now, i am so afraid of chastening from Him. why are we always so stiff-necked! argh.
din't went out with jiwei. it's really a very bad thing to do on my part. he's been such a good friend and this is how i treat him. why? something is not right..
anyway, for info, i am the one who is giving people their pink IC when they ord. and i am also the one who fetch them to the unit when they are posted in. =) i feel that i am not doing what i could have done! i can actually give out a tract everytime i give them their ICs. they are normally so happy upon seeing their pink ic, maybe it's a good time for them to read something more important than their pink ic. ??
Thursday, July 08, 2004
jueke aka irvin
got the most surprising invitation ever.. jueke asked me for for erm.. a meet-up since he's back from australia. haha.. was really worried that we have nothing to talked about. but still.. i met him up.
he hasn't changed much.. and me too. what we talked revolved around dhs and the people within.. nthing in depth but it's still incredible to talk for more than 2 hours..
it's hard to keep friends.. and it's hard to know who to ask out also..
sometimes, meetin friends depends a lot on time table and coincidental. really.. there's so many people i wish to meet up but often unable to. time just dun permit.
he hasn't changed much.. and me too. what we talked revolved around dhs and the people within.. nthing in depth but it's still incredible to talk for more than 2 hours..
it's hard to keep friends.. and it's hard to know who to ask out also..
sometimes, meetin friends depends a lot on time table and coincidental. really.. there's so many people i wish to meet up but often unable to. time just dun permit.
hobby vs rational
to have a hobby is often irrational. e.g. francis spend A LOT of money punting, that's his hobby. mr see spending money collecting some weird stuff/toys online, tengyan buying a bike for 400+ buck, my bro saving up for a bike desperately. me? i am so tempted to buy a webspace to play around. but on the other hand, i find myself in serious shortage of time to do up my page.
shomerim page
shomerim blogpage
blurdreamer page.
and my portfolios...
er.. should spend or shouldn't. anyway, felix has actually bought www.dreamerize.com liao.. so guess i have to pay him for that.. so, with the domain in hand, is that a reason for me to buy webspace. i am thinking about it..
shomerim page
shomerim blogpage
blurdreamer page.
and my portfolios...
er.. should spend or shouldn't. anyway, felix has actually bought www.dreamerize.com liao.. so guess i have to pay him for that.. so, with the domain in hand, is that a reason for me to buy webspace. i am thinking about it..
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
www.dreamerize.com
a big decision to make. i guess i have to spend nights without sleep to do up my very own domain. but utb talked to me,... advising me not to slurge the money with confidence.. he really has a point. so i think i am going to tell felix if i can start our deal 1 month later.. (giving myself one month to do up my page).
i want to format my com. . .
but before that.. much preparation to make. sian.. have to get dreamweaver, firework, etc.. if not, there goes my dreamerize.com
yes... i must come up with something. i left with 1 year before serious studying. ~
i want to format my com. . .
but before that.. much preparation to make. sian.. have to get dreamweaver, firework, etc.. if not, there goes my dreamerize.com
yes... i must come up with something. i left with 1 year before serious studying. ~
Saturday, July 03, 2004
what should i write
this is my blog.. and sometimes i dun really like to read it myself. cos the more i read, the more i think i am quite a disgusting and mediocre.
maybe i whine too much.. about small things. but to me, it's the the small things that can be whined and do away with.. big matters will be settled personally and too complicated to blog, and erm.. to big to blog. maybe this is just a whining page.
my bro just lost his bike. i feel sad for him. guess a bike is quite impt to him. i wish i have enough money to sponsor him his bike or at least partial sponsor.. sigh..
tmr, will not be able to go church together with him. hope i am not neglecting him too much. okay.. i need grace for me to be stronger and help him.
anyway, decide to format my com. but, reluctant to lose much of the programme~
maybe i whine too much.. about small things. but to me, it's the the small things that can be whined and do away with.. big matters will be settled personally and too complicated to blog, and erm.. to big to blog. maybe this is just a whining page.
my bro just lost his bike. i feel sad for him. guess a bike is quite impt to him. i wish i have enough money to sponsor him his bike or at least partial sponsor.. sigh..
tmr, will not be able to go church together with him. hope i am not neglecting him too much. okay.. i need grace for me to be stronger and help him.
anyway, decide to format my com. but, reluctant to lose much of the programme~
Thursday, July 01, 2004
quite a headache
having quite a headache now....
i am really grateful that mrs seet is leaving many things into my own hands.. really, she is leaving things to me so much that little questions and instructions are given. for the disruption of the 2 future MO, she email and say PSE ACT. and afterwhich, no qns asked... and this is just one e.g.
but this comes with responsibilities.. i dun know how much can i act alone. how much is too much and how much is too little.
tan hock heng's med doc is not handed over from stts for months. and i only found out when he's goin recourse. and now, i secretly talkt to stts and "fight" in email.. wonder how am i supposed to send to tekong. (that's why i hope to send fred's or jason's doc to tekong, can send the med doct over as well.. )
and fred is also another prob!! while i am tryin to get him OOC, i seems to be posing a possibility to admin lapse. argh.. i dun want to hai4 mrs seet lor.. cos all this OOC thingie is my own show.. argh.. shoudn't have bother so much, should have sent all of them over.. and dun care.
and i am flopping so much.. i forgot to adjust the leave for the 2 disruptees.. EZlink card application, i think i left one poor guy out, he verbally tell me!! how am i suppoed to remember!!. (of cos mrs seet will not know cos the whole ezlink application process is me myself and ernest).
Lord, i need help, i need Ur favour in my life. Grant me the wisdom to handle and work correctly.
Jerry always say this, doing the right thing or doing the thing right...
we went to safti mi for saf day parade today. afterwhich, we are supposed to take the return trip back to camp (cos they have indicated so previously) but now, cos the parade ends late, all want to fall out from there.. i din't say cannot, but i was caught by the situation. i wanted time to tie up the loose ends e.g. arrange the attendance to be taken or account to bus ic etc.. but they were only thinkin of running away immediately! okay, i guess i look indecisive that they dun bother with me. i hsould have said, "give me some time to settle the admin and i will let you all go later.. " will it work? maybe i am nvr the cut for it.
wish i can ask them stop playing whenit's not a time to play.. but they are just not bothering with me.. whereas when darrell just say to weiwen, "u hve dockets to send, go and find ur doc" weiwen actually toned down.. ! wah lau.. treat me as transparent... what is this...
i am really grateful that mrs seet is leaving many things into my own hands.. really, she is leaving things to me so much that little questions and instructions are given. for the disruption of the 2 future MO, she email and say PSE ACT. and afterwhich, no qns asked... and this is just one e.g.
but this comes with responsibilities.. i dun know how much can i act alone. how much is too much and how much is too little.
tan hock heng's med doc is not handed over from stts for months. and i only found out when he's goin recourse. and now, i secretly talkt to stts and "fight" in email.. wonder how am i supposed to send to tekong. (that's why i hope to send fred's or jason's doc to tekong, can send the med doct over as well.. )
and fred is also another prob!! while i am tryin to get him OOC, i seems to be posing a possibility to admin lapse. argh.. i dun want to hai4 mrs seet lor.. cos all this OOC thingie is my own show.. argh.. shoudn't have bother so much, should have sent all of them over.. and dun care.
and i am flopping so much.. i forgot to adjust the leave for the 2 disruptees.. EZlink card application, i think i left one poor guy out, he verbally tell me!! how am i suppoed to remember!!. (of cos mrs seet will not know cos the whole ezlink application process is me myself and ernest).
Lord, i need help, i need Ur favour in my life. Grant me the wisdom to handle and work correctly.
Jerry always say this, doing the right thing or doing the thing right...
we went to safti mi for saf day parade today. afterwhich, we are supposed to take the return trip back to camp (cos they have indicated so previously) but now, cos the parade ends late, all want to fall out from there.. i din't say cannot, but i was caught by the situation. i wanted time to tie up the loose ends e.g. arrange the attendance to be taken or account to bus ic etc.. but they were only thinkin of running away immediately! okay, i guess i look indecisive that they dun bother with me. i hsould have said, "give me some time to settle the admin and i will let you all go later.. " will it work? maybe i am nvr the cut for it.
wish i can ask them stop playing whenit's not a time to play.. but they are just not bothering with me.. whereas when darrell just say to weiwen, "u hve dockets to send, go and find ur doc" weiwen actually toned down.. ! wah lau.. treat me as transparent... what is this...
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