francis' blog

LIFE OF A RASCAL: Truth of my life francis has written something which i dun understand but yet seems to indentify with it. that's about blogging. it's the joy of writing, and jotting down whatever comes across you mind. to archive your thoughts and to let people understand you better with you non-understandable paragraphs.

to be honest, nv did get to know him well. (which i wanted to) it has been more than 7 months.. in the same block, same office and yet.. i can't even say that i am his friend. nv go out with him as often as dixon, nv tell him about myself as much as wong, nv played with him as much as wilfred, not even knowing him as long as darrell... but it is not for no purpose God bring him into my life. at least, whenever i tot of telling him bout christianity, i felt my inadequate with my Bible. he make me strives to be a better Christian.. for a period of time. he says that he's a slacker and hence cannot clique with him. he brand himself to be a cats-dogs-dogs... (jokingly maybe..) but i tot he should know better that grades isn't everything.
now, he's going for BMT recourse. really dun knwo when will i get to see him after his bmt. it's filled with uncertainity for him. will pray for God's guidance in his steps.

i tot darrell was God's answer to my prayers when i was getting quite arrogant in office, so much so that i was 'ordering' people around, erm.. i mean ordering wong, bt around.. and even quarrelled with wilfred a bit.. i felt big-headed, i can't help it when every one is asking me for this and that. i feel like a helpdesk. So, i tot darrell is here to slashed my confidence, and teach me humility, to let me know that i am not great afterall. darrell is indeed capable, more capable than me i say. i am sure he can write better than me (that's almost all cos what i am doing in cco is to write, edit, proof-read outgoing mail and emails etc.. ) and he seems to be holding the control better than me. he can get the people moving better than me. so, if he's here to make me learn to be humble, so be it. God, please teach me to be humble and still doing my best even if the limelight isn't on me.

wilfred says something which i dun even know the answer myself. he says that my job scope is little just that i am doing all the unneccessary. i wonder how true. and i wonder how much he knows i am doing.