people around me

read a number of blogs today (so happen that more pple wrote something today), so i have decided to blog a bit more today... haven been blogging much cos i am embarking on my www.dreamerize.com

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i went to bouna vista to collect ez-link cards. OTOT, so i slept till 0830hrs. shiok. manage to replenish my energy loss for these few days. //people say i am working too hard... well i guess i just like to take official breaks rather than normal kengs. although i must say that my official break time is definitely less than the time they keng.. i think it's worth it. mrs seet ask me am i tryin to take a break by going for this despatch, i say yes and i got the deal.. worth it or not? you judge. //

reach camp at 1100hrs. oh man.. thought i wil be late, but i still make it to office before noon. bought a packet of noodle for wendy, *note: i buy for her, not treating. i am trying to be nice, trying.. and as usual, i start my busy day, as mrs seet is not around. so... did the 8-day report follow-up, course nomination, posting in, recourse info, RO, letter for maj lim, collect this and that, oh ya,,.. distribute ez link cards. // maybe i used to say i am overworked, but now, i will say that i JUST am underpaid. //

met jev... he din see me. erm.. reason... eh.. +ve: i blend too well into the civilians -ve: i am just too plain to be seen. haha.. //really happy to meet him... it's just a simple pleasure of seeing FRIENDS.. //

dinner with taku & "mr J aka wu tian xuan ??? aka gabriel aka sheng'en aka what have he.. ". plain dinner and chat bout office, coming events, jokes, new comers like francis and wong... and of cos wendy.. which makes me damn guilty. think i have shared this before but allow me to repeat. //everytime after criticising wendy, i feel damn bad. i am afraid that bad things will befall me. i am afraid that i will be like her.. i dun wish to be anything similar to her.. i am scared that my voice will be irritating, my behavior will be a weirdo, i will speak with no compassion, i will garner hatred and i will be big-mouth and be talked about badly.//

back home. and as usual, read thru all the possible blogs.
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fred: keng a lot, but he's nice. sanguine. yes.. a sanguine like See Too.
francis:fun to be with. nice to have my peers... or someone younger than me. but he is also kinda pa2 da4 wo3 tou2 shang4 le.
wong: really dun know how to treat him. quite frustrated teaching him things but yet, i must show enough compassion and tact.
wendy: really dun wish to be like her

my shomerim contact list is having problems, i lost the piece of paper with the information. how??
i ask the nsman to help me shred my stuffs.. and he lost my destruction cert!!! argh..

if only life is a bed of roses.. if only..