if i can hear feelings and thoughts

if i can hear thoughts, will i find similar feelings and thinking as mine?

when you are thinking, "will he/she feel bored with my conversation?", will he be saying "i hope he's not seeing thru me that i'm bad with conversations."

that's idealistic. but, often, i felt not.

if you realise that there's cliques forming, are you excluded or are you self excluding? it's bad to have using the following examples but i tot of yulin in PA last time. she's so enthu but we have often subtly excluded her existence. there's this time when we were walking out of VJ to parkway and she went to collect her bike to park at the busstop. when we reach the busstop, we hope on the bus forgetting her. we asked ourselves, whose fault is it? we cannot give an answer.

what happen when you are not part of the 4-seater car?

acutally things are going well, just that they are not going the way i tot it will be. oh, how can i see God's plan. He's giving me more time to work and more time to study. He's providing for me and yet i am escaping from His provision. it's always like that for men -- fan jian.