"I know it is hard to believe when people say they understand. But I really do understand. I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you, and it doesn't matter how many new gadgets you get, or gyms you join, or how many drinks you drink with your friends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that someone see the light and show up at your door. This expectation and wait sometimes makes it a lot worse for you,  while you still hold onto this last bleak ideal, in the hope... something magically will just happen in the last min and all will be well. Its the expectation, and hope that kills and hurts us the most, not the reality. "

黄国伦乐评:《后青春期的诗》五月天

《后青春期的诗》五月天 第389期）
《后青春期的诗》对已至不惑中年的我，是太过喧闹与多愁善感的。不过，这不就是青春吗？「诗」的意象用得巧妙，青春是写诗的年代，也是为赋新辞强说愁的时节；五月天唱出年轻的炙热，也唱出后青春期的挣扎与蜕变。我可以理解那么多年轻人在五月天的演唱会又叫又跳的，那不只是对音乐的激情，或偶像的崇拜，也是找到青春的感同身受与认同。这一点，五月天是成功的。有人曾说五月天向流行靠拢，失去摇滚精神？我想说，成功的乐团能够越发老练成熟，却又能保持初衷；流行没有罪，只是不要媚俗。

〈突然好想你〉平静的主歌，激昂的副歌交织青春悲喜情愫。阿信的旋律感更加成熟，但仍用少年的吶喊唱腔，阿信低音鼻音稍重，中高音表现亮眼。会想起周杰伦的〈彩虹〉，只是五月天激动得多。〈生存以上 生活以下〉喧闹摇滚之间，发人深省。只是感觉副歌节奏反而变淡，有些虎头蛇尾。〈你不是真正的快乐〉前奏直接破题，煽情动听，旋律很有记点又不失特色，应会再造流行。但副歌最猛的一句「难道就真的抱着遗憾…」太像王菲〈矜持〉主歌及副歌的最末句，是巧合？〈爆肝〉〈噢买尬〉连续2首high歌，五月天本色！〈出头天〉励志温暖台语歌，副歌写得精彩。〈春天的吶喊〉带点蓝调趣味的庞克摇滚，副歌没High起来有些可惜。〈夜访吸血鬼〉词意走秀异奇幻风，主歌有周杰伦〈夜曲〉的味道，但整体很有戏剧张力，后段阿信唱得入心。〈后青春期的诗〉如诗一般，只是感觉阿信一直都在吶喊？「盛夏正要一天一天…」好像又用了之前「难道就真的抱着遗憾…」的旋律？

一句话短评：《后青春期的诗》吶喊完要转大人？相信五月天潜力无穷！

超人

two of the biggest taiwan music group/artiste should be mayday and jaychou...

i guess they can be what they are today cos they do believe they are heroes and superman in their world...





and i guess, i am one too... somewhere, somehow. hahaha.. 總有那麼一天

dream

i have following Mayday songs/news recently. their DNA concert has somehow 'inspired' me. nothing has been done but as least i have not stopped trying.

QUOTE from 怪兽's blog. (http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_64cf9bdc0100k0t8.html?retcode=0)

有一天，在ＤＮＡ演唱會結束的時候，我問他的夢想是什麼？
他 (怪兽的技師）說，在兩個團都解散的今天
他現在的夢想就是做出自己的吉他演奏曲專輯

UNQUOTE

every one lives for a dream and his dream. what's urs and what's mine?

Taiwan Group Photo

Been trying to find a nice taiwan-hk trip photo to develop and stick it to my wall...
and finally.. here it is!
the one and only nice group photo for TW..
still searching for one in HK. hahah

do your best

do you best.. 

cos it will haunt you even 10 years down the road.

seriously, i am frequently haunted by the disappointments from years back~

An Imaginary Threat

                                

 Read: Genesis 33:1-4                                                      
 Esau ran to meet him, and embraced him. —Genesis 33:4                    
                                                                           
 Last spring the window to one of the rooms in our house was repeatedly    
 attacked by a robin. The bird would perch at the base of the window,      
 ruffle its feathers, chirp loudly, and then fly headfirst into the glass.
                                                                           
 I did some research and learned that robins are territorial. While        
 nesting, they drive out any competing robins. This bird apparently saw    
 its reflection in our window and thought it was another robin. The threat
 was not real; it was only an illusion.                                    
                                                                           
 In the Old Testament, we see an instance when Jacob imagined a threat    
 that wasn't really there. Years earlier, Jacob had stolen his brother    
 Esau's blessing by their father. Now, after many years of separation,    
 they were going to meet again. Jacob thought Esau would harm him, so he  
 sent gifts ahead as a peace offering of sorts. Then, when he saw Esau    
 approaching with 400 men, Jacob panicked. Yet what Jacob thought was an  
 attack force turned out to be a welcoming committee. "Esau ran to meet    
 him, and embraced him, and fell on his neck and kissed him, and they      
 wept" (Gen. 33:4).                                                        
                                                                           
 In interpersonal relationships, we sometimes misinterpret a situation. We
 must ask the Lord for discernment so we don't miss a friendship because  
 of an imaginary threat.                                                  
                                                                           
                      I went outside to find a friend                      
                       But could not find one there;                      
                      I went outside to be a friend,                      
                    And friends were everywhere! —Payne                    

 Don't be afraid of a presumed enemy, but trust in the Lord to make a new  
                                  friend.                                  
                                                                           
 Bible in a year:                                                          
 Esther 3-5; Acts 5:22-42              

junior

hey..

sometimes, it's good to assume back my old school values. 

i should be courteous, humble and polite.

and!!! start to look at people in their eyes and say HI!

damn it! it's time to say h!I

同類

夜訪吸血鬼-五月天

只有像每个人类

贪嗔痴傻和愚昧

找寻着体温和血

找寻着同类

同類-孫燕姿

風　停了又吹　我忽然想起誰

天　亮了又黑　我過了好幾歲

心　暖了又灰　世界

有時候孤單的很需要另一個同類

我們同渴望認同。物以類聚。所以，不管我們是英雄會英雄還是臭味相同，都高興不宜。

Deadline

What has major influence over me recently includes:

Mayday concert. Mornings spent to mayday songs ever since spurred me
to work a little harder. Sometimes I tend to slack a bit hours after
work has started but I will be once again reminder once I plug into my
iTunes again. It's my desire that I stop procrasinating n be a
hardworking soul.

Hk tw extravagenza. I felt like a new grad all over again.
Furthermore, my convocation is coming, on 6th July. I'm in the society
and yet still searching.
"the company or ur boss is not interested in helping u to find
yourself. Do it at your own time!" n I think that's true. Dun fall
into the stability trap I tell myself.

If only, there's one passion to keep me going.

And my deadline is almost up. This sun. I guess I hav made up my mind.
I wish for someone to talk about this. I wish to continue the talk
with wilk n Caroline. What an unexpected conversation during a trip.

Today is tue n I have only 3 days to work before what I hope to be a
wild n great weekend.
Wondering if I should take monday half day leave.

五月•30天

early night

having an early night rest makes me feel jittery and insecure. 

there could be a millions things for me to do and yet i am always watching the time trickling away. 

 

wordle

I know if u are doing ur part, u will piss some pple who are in your
way.

Knowing that, I'm still a bit affected about not pleasing everyone.

It's a new day again. I shall put in a bit more humility n act blur
technique n see what does it take to make her ticks.

Many years later, u will regret not doin many things instead of what u
have done.

夢想總是逆光 祇有剪影的模樣
會有甚麼體驗 甚麼細節 不用去猜想

如煙

我坐在床前　望著窗外　回憶滿天

生命是華麗錯覺　時間是賊　偷走一切

七歲的那一年　抓住那隻蟬　以為能抓住夏天

十七歲的那年　吻過他的臉　就以為和他能永遠

 

有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變 

擁抱過的美麗都　再也不破碎

讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野

讓生離和死別都遙遠　有誰能聽見

下個世界才有永遠不變。那這個世界。。。 還真是煩

 

我坐在床前　轉過頭看　誰在沉睡

那一張蒼老的臉　好像是我　緊閉雙眼

曾經是愛我的　和我深愛的　都圍繞在我身邊

帶不走的那些　遺憾和眷戀　都化成最後一滴淚

 

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚　能洗掉後悔

化成大雨降落在　回不去的街

再給我一次機會　將故事改寫

還欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

後悔莫及。我心想，有沒有那麼一個後悔可以，何以改變一切。

其實，有的。有一種後悔能改變以後。但是以前跟現在呢？

 

有沒有那麼一個世界　永遠不天黑

星星太陽萬物都　聽我的指揮

月亮不忙著圓缺　春天不走遠

樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉　有誰能聽見

那個世界來臨前，是否能放肆的去闖？

 

耳際　眼前　此生重演　是我來自漆黑　而又回歸漆黑

人間　瞬間　天地之間　下次我　又是誰

 

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰　永遠不凋謝

永遠驕傲和完美　永遠不妥協

為何人生最後會像一張紙屑　

還不如一片花瓣　曾經鮮豔

 

有沒有那麼一張書籤　停止那一天

最單純的笑臉和　最美那一年

書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水

雙眼只有無猜和無邪　讓我們無法無天

 

有沒有那麼一首詩篇　找不到句點

青春永遠定居在　我們的歲月

男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋　

笑忘人間的苦痛　只有甜美

 

有沒有那麼一個明天　重頭活一遍

讓我再次感受曾　揮霍的昨天

無論生存或生活　我都不浪費

不讓故事這麼的後悔

有誰能聽見　我不要告別 

我坐在床前　看著指尖　已經如煙

root prob

the root problem is... 

now that we know the truth.. we cant run and we cant hide.

suddenly reminds me of a lousy movie 大隻佬. in the show, andy lau had enlightenment and saw 因果。after that he quit being a monk and gave up his buddhist pursuit.

at times, i felt unhappy. at times, i felt happier than being unhappier. but that isnt much.  

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msn display pics

in zzy's own words, "ernest snatch zyy mac to take his msn display pic. ernest exclaimed, 'popart is damn cool!"

yes.. and i realise it's only cool on the mac. the pictures looks damn good and cool on his mac but now that i am looking at them on my pc.. erm.. it's actually not erm.. not worth exclaiming. hahaha .. 

keep your eyes on the prize

"i wun give up.... i swear i will be true. 

for it's said by the wise, keep your eyes on the prize.. and i kept my eyes on you... "

there's time i am capable for more. keep trying and keep trying. there's something more for you. cos He will give me more. 

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church-less easter

Exodus 3:14
14And God said to Moses, "I am who I am."…

a space that only God can fill. 

and He is everything that we need. what do i need? i need a passion, i need a love of my life. 

it's been many years since i have a churchless easter. 

by right.. 

it is a great thing in the year. a great reminder about WHY am i here. that i have a debt. that i have a debt that has to be paid forward. but this GOOD news has to be accompanied by GREAT JOY. 

only a gospel preached with conviction and joy is able to heal and make one whole. 

you dun get to be loved until you start loving.. 

i start to think bout my days in shanghai hengshan church. miss the afternoons that i have travelled alone all the way to hengshan jus for a church service. knowing that my God is waiting for me to hear from Him. knowing that there are children waiting to hear from Him thru me. as i was teaching and watching the children running around, felt that the church is such a sheltered place from the outside world. and the little children are so fortunate. in fact, i felt like a little child in the church... sheltered.

i still remember the feeling of stepping out of the church and right outside the church is a busy chinese bustling street. if you have watch wongfeihong movie, it's that kind of feeling. stepping out of the ANGMO embassy and into the streets of china. suddenly, you see and feel that difference. the tranquil disrupted by the car engines and horning. 

back to what God said to Moses.... i must remember that He is Whoever i need. and i know He is a lover of me and my soul. He cares about me and I am not alone. tmr is a new week and He wants to go move on so that He will show me the way that He is prepared for me. 

Fret not. Fear not.

看天空

有谁陪我一起看天空？

Attention animal

Someone said I'm an attention animal. Am I?

I'm having a difficult time trying to be in dragonboat n learning
bike. It seems that I'm realli bad at it. But I need to overcome this
barrier. I shan't be a desserter like my table tennis days. Failing my
bike lessons is demoralizing. N I need to buck up with my fitness n
rowing strokes.

When I was running my marathon, I said to myself, if I can do this, I
can do more in life.

It's time to bring on that competitive mentality. Dun be a wuss. Try
not to be.

Rest n tell yourself that I can do all things thru Christ who
strengtheneth me.

Be healthy. Be strong. Be good.

you are a christian, and are you not sorry

http://contendersbiblestudy.blogspot.com/2010/03/im-christian-and-im-not-sorry.html

Fwd: Calvin and Hobbes 03/28/2010

Wonder hav I over emphasized it. But I simply adore Calvin and his tiger Hobbes. Haha. 

Going to work without my earphone is boring. I hav been reliant on the music to entertain me on my long journey. But I shoul reallie organise my playlist. Sometimes listening to love ballads really isn't a way to start a working day. Yet the loud, funky, vindicated genius playlist is too much to start a professional day at work. I need something motivational upbeat songs.  

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This is wrong

I dun reallie enjoy my weekends. I dun hav enough reasons to rest.
N I dun hav enough motivation to work.
N I dun hav enough official work to do.

Errands? I prefer to settle them on weekdays.

Life is hard as a stranger here.

But some things cannot be changed.

N yes. Dun forget to show everyone u like them. Jus smile n giggle
when u feel like it. Show them that u like them. It will make a better
day for all. :)

One thing

Trying not to hold on to too many idea. This one will suffice. 

"Cast thy burden upon the Lord(Psalm55:22)

suffice. This alone will take away the thoughts n worries of tomorrow. About the financial plans. About the insurance coverage. About the need to seek out my career in pain n distress. He is taking my burden. N I hav to learn to cast my burden to Him. 

Easy to remember. 5522. Cast thy burden upon the Lord. 

Hmm. Wondering why is it the word burden singular. 

At this moment, the biggest burden is always tomorrow. Will annouce if I manage to make tmr a glad news n joy. That will be real victorious living, when tmr is worth living for. :) 

Remember what's the first miracle? Water turned into wine.

If water is not sufficient cos of the bacteria etc, He will provide
wine. To make sure that it good for ur body.

If water is sufficient, He want to give His people even more.

N today, or tomorrow, one day, I will hav my water turned to wine.

Smile:) and be joyous person today. N tell our Father in heaven our
needs n trust His provision.
SMILE n Be Joyous today!!!

"I've come to give life more abundant"

things to do

1. 60pushups at least..

2. eyedrop.. dun skip 

3. a blog post... , so that i can sit and think

4.  ⁸This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. 

now.. let me try to memorize (again). but thou shalt medidate therein day and night, that thou mayest sobserve to do according to all that is written therein, for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success

the verse on my wall paper is not appearing after restarting my computer.. hm.. probably shall find other ways.. and probably shall change the verse. hahah. =) 

Wait for what?

What are u waiting for? For things to happen? Or the company to
realize ur talents? For ur manager to become adventurous?

What are u waiting for?

what have you remember today that will accompany you to sleep and tmr?

remember,

 that the good news is to set you free! 

SET ME FREE..... 

on my wallpaper... 

"do things without murmuring and complaints.. phil 2:14??? 

and i am reminding myself that... 

"in labour, there is profit... " 

How long will one take to learn that once u hav answered to God, u are
a clean slate to start afresh. It takes 1 min to learn n numerous
reminders to affirm the fact

focus

as i was telling hanchuen... ”我从不怕爱错就怕没爱过“

and maybe he is right.. i am not focus. i am trying to bridge a huge gap by doing too many things at once.

it's not possible for me to get my papers done, bike license done, training and at the same time work hard and OT at work, and teach tuitions.. 

focus...

In all labour there is profit: but the talk of the lips tendeth only to penury.

-Proverbs 14:23

in all labour there is profit... 

in all labour there is profit...

in all labour there is profit... 

time to get words into my mind. 

things to note

1. eye ointment

2. keep clean

3. focus on: a. improve b. healthy c. smile

quiet time

every one needs quiet time. i used to have it.. i made a promise that i shall not touch my bed unless i have done mine. there are nights when i slept on the floor cos i was too lazy to do my qt.. 

those were the days and i miss them. something to end the day. and something to start tomorrow. 

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11

if i can, let me use my limited diskspace and start to remember these words again. =）

Buck up

Its such a waste to stone n age. Do something.

山外山

copied from tianhao.. good read. in fact.. a bit emo and touching.. ahha

李老师所寄给我们:

山外山
因为T来香港公干，所以我们有机会在家里聚会。大家谈起故人往事，那真是一个愉快的晚上。虽然T和E二十年不见，但一见面就像是昨天还在一起玩闹，搞课外活动的朋友那样，无所不谈。

其实我们不过是十七八岁念同一所初级学院，一块儿度过年少时期两载岁月的朋友，和后来许许多多共同念大学或工作的朋友比较起来，我们朝夕相对的时间实际上很短。但是就像T说的："那个时候真是好玩，太好玩了！"就因为那个时候"太好玩"才有幸让收藏了二十年的友情，在二十年后，还像用了最好的葡萄，最纯净的泉水，在最合适的季节酿造的葡萄酒那样，依旧香醇迷人。

太好玩！我们当时玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息。我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月。结果，到了A水准会考，我们当中一些该拿4个A的仅拿了两三个，该有机会出国深造的只得留在新加坡。当然，这些T和E都追回来了，不仅追了回来，还能大言不惭地说：幸亏当年没拿奖学金。在金融界做得有声有色的E不到四十，已经在考虑退休……

不管追不追得回来，人生没有几个两年可以让你这样子度过。年纪大了离开学校以后更是不可能。当年我们在一起的时候，是用了最善良最纯真的心灵相处。那是我们最美好的一面，还没有被社会被成人的世界污染的最美好的一面。我们在学校、老师们家长们的保护下，做既不是大人又不是孩子，既是大人又是孩子，才能够享受的集体生活。我们拥抱在一起激动，一起大笑，一起流泪，一起高歌……这样的日子任凭后来生活将我们带到何处，都不可能忘记。它永远在心里保留着最动人的一部分。

之后我们各奔东西。在社会里该争的争了，该爬的爬了，该拍马屁的拍了，该虚假的虚假了，该面目狰狞的面目狰狞了。但是你们后来的这些面孔，我都看不到。我们有幸不曾成为同事或竞争对手的，都看不到。这样子最好。这样子，当我们聚会时，我们又都恢复了十七八岁的样子。"你们都没有变哩！"T和E这样说。其实怎么可能没有变呢？只是在我们之间，我们又可以打开那最美好的一面罢了。尽管没有过去纯洁善良，但却已经是我们最美丽的了。

那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。还好我们玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息……还好我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月……还好有你们，才让生命灿烂起来……
（传自香港）

笔心
那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。

So long

On the train now n I gv 15 min to type.

It's been so long since I last blogged. All the while, I'm still
following some of the blogs like bh from church, yl from hall who is
now a pharmacist, mar my fellow Chem engr working in bank. I can't
bring myself to blog cos I cannot find a convincing underlying
conviction in life values to comment about anything in life. And I'm
not willing to show pple or even myself the evolution of my values
since work has started.

Met different pple since grad m met the same pple since they hav grad.
Among them, I can find no soulmate to confirmed n share my old values
in life. I think I find it har to convince myself too, when all the
pple on that highway, have left n I seem so alone.

New pple n new thoughts in life? There are pple or some seniors that
hav kinda caused me to think about planning my life. But then again,
really dun know how to plan the insecurities of life. For the secured
matters, they are somewhat laid out already.

I only hav 4 months to get myself sorted out. 4 months.