church camp (14-18 jun)

there's much for me to share. mt ophir trip, shomerim, church camp etc..
before i forget about all my random thoughts in camp.. let me blog them
down....

well, jiannan says there're many first-times in this camp. namely him being
a group leader, for the 1st time. erm.. yes yes yes.. there's many
first-times. and it's my first time joining you guys in jun camp. it's my
first time bring my brother to tabernacle community. it's my first time
hearing my brother saying he believes in Him. and the list will just go on
and on..

all in all, the most difficult and important thing in my mind thruout the
camp is my brother. i am so worried that he's going to feel bored. i am so
scared that he might blaspheme God. towards the end of the day, i will think
of him, wondering if he will accept the Lord. at the same time, i am trying
to prepare my heart, cos if he's going to trust in the Lord, i am going to
have a bigger challenge. I have to be my brother's keeper. i was timid and
weak but now, i have to be strong, i have to be stronger than my brother to
lead him in the light. worst of all, i have to help me to gain acceptance
with my father, if he's going to have the courage to confess. (meanwhile,
i'm reluctant (in a sense) for the day to come, cos i cannot imagine what my
father will react if he finds out that i bring my bro to church etc.. I
know, being afraid is no reason for me to falter and taking up this
challenge. i need a lot a lot of prayers, to grant me wisdom and ability to
teach my brother.

----you should have realise that i am really incoherrent here.., paiseh---

in the camp, i felt the importance of God's Word. never felt so indequate
with my bible knowledge before. i was too contented with whatever i knew
last time. thank God for giving me the crave for His Word, at least at this
moment. as i have shared the last night, it is God's Word that you will feel
the presense of God, that He is always by your side. it is also the wisdom
to minister unto others.. (like teaching my bro)..

Forum With Buddy.
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really learnt a lot. not in terms of knowing what's the stand of God's Word
regards these worldly issues. becuase i think all of us know the
ideal/correct answers even before discussion. but i have learnt from the
young ones. (okay okay.. i am the old one liao) my buddy were Carlos, Boon
how and Josiah. Talking to Boonhow makes me feel so ashamed of myself that
they actually have a stronger convictions than many of my peers. This is the
bad thing bout age, the older you get the cleverer with the ways to justify
your own wrong doings. HongJie, (my contentment grp member) has shown me how
precious is the childlike faith in the Lord.

Concert Item Preparation
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in this, i find myself so much in love/connected to this world. my thoughts,
design, "creativity" is so accustomed to the world. it's not my first time
preparing concert item. i have done it so often in CCAs etc.. naturally ,
this time, i came up with my funny, entertaining (if you tink so) script,
targetting to gain the laughters of all.. shuhui then propose putting
actions into the song and have a moral in our presentation (it's impt to
look at the lyrics when singing hymes). at first, i confess, i felt that
it's so common already. i have heard you guys talking bout your previous
concert items and i think that shuhui's idea is so alike with the norms..
but later, i felt otherwise, i have realised that it's a church camp(love
not the world), hence, the Word of God comes first. it's better to learn of
His precious lessons than to have empty laughter which profit not our souls.
and anyway, my grp Contentment won!!

Preparing of Camp Book
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if you have all realised, it's designed to be like a magazine. after some
time, i felt so guilty about it. it's like having a worldly design for a
"love not the world" camp. but i guess it is the heart the matters. i have
put too much pride in my own work. i confess, i was very proud of my work
and this pride has caused me to feel so bad now. may i truely and sincere,
with the grace of God, be able to say in my heart "Thank God, for i couldn't
have done it without him".

Quarter Master
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hm.. haha.. erm.. well.. i can jus say, i thank the following for helping
so much that i dun think i did ever work at all.
joelson - being an enthusiatic fellow qm
shuping - for shopping for me, with all the food and groceries
lingqin - for helping me to shop, in particular with the fruits and
neccessities
caleb (though he has expensive tastes) - for shopping with us and carry our
shopping to u.john plc
a. keturah - for bring much things from home for our use.
u. isaac - for transporting our big NTUC plastic bagS to u. john's place.
u. john - for allowing us to store our barang barang at his house.
jeshua and javan - for providing entertainment while shopping. and also for
their KEENNESS to help. =)