updates

i wish to write something more in depth than rambling. in fact, i have leave this blogger page on for days before i really start writing. hmm.. guess at the times when i have the most to write, i am too tired. but let's record down what am i feeling now so that hopefully, days later, i will realise that situation has improved.

"very long time never see you" jingyang
"hey! long time no see!" karan,
"eh.. where have you been har?" xuanjie

within 15 min on monday dinner, 3 pple said that to me. guess i have been quite a phantom in hall recently. in fact, i tot i have quite a fanthom in church already. so, it's a situation where both ends not reached. wat am i tryin to do? gaining recognition in hall? what for? but the thing is, i am very willing to join in the fun and rowdiness in the middle of the night but well, all the fun are in level 6. ask me to go up? difficult, where am i supposed to lie on? or hang around?

this is really troubling me: i cannot do my tutorials!! i think i have been perceived as a mugger but the fact is, most of the time i am staring into the questions and unable to do them! i just can't go about the equations. while trying to solve my physics, i neglected my fin accounting (which i better practice until it's at the back of my hand.) sigh..

hall activities? there's no lack of activities to join, what i wish and pray for now are the people in the activities. often, it's not the thing that we do but the thing that we do with. (hmm... guess i must try to find pple to study wiht me, but who?"

in some ways, it may be God having a hand in the activities i am joining. jingwen ask me to be the secretary for tech crew. 1 down. CMB ask me to be their Pub IC. 2 down. Shyuan ask me to be in Sheares Production Sound. 3 down. more than enough,i think. will complete it with something like choir or accapella (if they want me ) haha..

so? if anyone is reading, please pray that i can do my tutorials. the inabilities is killing me. hols in 1 week time, which means mugging must start to pick up from now on and start mugging for that 1 week (i mean 4-day) holidays.