it's not an easy road. it's not an easy choice from the start.
i set off trying to tell myself that if God can bring me to it, He can bring me thru it. Indeed, by His grace, i have endured the semester.
it all started with hall or no hall, when i realised that i am the only one in sheares. at the same time, realised that royston, weixiong, yuwei are in KR. but i stayed, in sheares. i remember clearly that i have prayed regarding this matter and say that i will accept watever comes. since, it's by His choice that i got Sheares, so be it. i waited to see if there's a place for me in sheares.
due to my personality, i guess it's difficult for me to step forward and be outgoing. somehow, it has to do with the innate ability and erm.. confidence level. but nevertheless, God brought to me liwei, ivan along the way, to give me someone to turn to in times of need. not forgetting neighbours like wei wei who is there to spur me on. when i joined vcf as and when, i found zhihan to be having same doctrinal stands with me=) that's so cool.! it may not be what i have thought or wanted it to be, but still, i have pulled thru.
somehow, thanks to Jingwen, i got my committments easily - SP, tech crew and CMB. guess i am a bit reliant on him but well.. no choice ba. ~
modules gotten, quite smoothly except for managerial econs. cost me a lot of pts.. but it has brought me friends and opportunities to work with bernard, jeff, syeh li, binh, ravel, boon how, ngoc..
thru CTW, i know wee kwok and christopher...
thru my core subjects.. got to know lip chong, andy, ben, junta, here and there a bit of pple. supposed to be class rep, but i guess me quite slack .haha. !~ so paiseh
thru fna, got to know bernard better..
not forgetting weilun, micheal, mk in GEK 1535...
in short, thank God that i have friends somehow.
finished my last paper today. have i done well? nope, definitely. not becos i ahve taken 6 mod. it's jsut that, i cannot study. dun have the heart to study. why!!~ i dun know why, but i have to face the music somehow when the results are out. sigh. i can only pray, harder.
talking bout praying, i must admit that i have been weak in my walk with God. often times, i forsake Him and go my own ways, blindly, stubornly. i know i am wrong many times, but i just can't turn back, over and over again. keep telling myself that He has given me many wakeup calls but just refuse to heed. have to change if not my next sem is not getting any better.
holidays starting, so, i guess i have to enjoy before the results are out. =)
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