Most of you who knows me must have heard and gotten used to my lamentation. if you are not, and you dun want to listen to my self-pity again, please leave..
i haven't been production, instead, i have been indulging in my non productive activities like sleeping and stoning and what have you... Staying in hall ought to give me chances to learn more things and learn a trade or two. but i guess i haven't found my area of capability. been doing things which i have been doing and things i tot i can do. but in the end, i seemed to be uncapable of things that i thought i can.
the production is over. well.. it's a relief to many, but i feel that i din't get the best out of the whole process. i dun feel as good as yesterday. i felt that i haven't delivered my best, if i can have my best. when i looked around at the people who are very involved, i wish i am as tired as them.. but yet, i am not willing to put in the effort. in short, i discovered a big flaw in my personality - the desire to gain things without putting in effort.
i think that's a disgusting trait to have... but, what can you do now? i mean, i find this big inertia to change myself. been relying on people too much and too often. argh! maybe the ability to rely on others is a great thing i can do? nah...
recalling.. i think my most productive days are those days when i work on my dreamweaver, fireworks, photoshop, those days when i can coop myself in the room for days just to doodle with the computer screen..
i really dun know where do i stand now..
Artist: K-Ci & JoJo Lyrics
Song: Through Heaven's Eyes Lyrics
A single thread in a tapestry
though its color brightly shines
can never see its purpose
in the pattern of the grand design
and the stone that sits up on the very top
of the mountain's mighty face
does it think that it's more important
than the stones that forms the base
So how can you see what your life is worth
or where your value lies
ohhhh, you can never see through the eyes of man
you must look at your life
look at your life through heaven's eyes
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(2X)
A lake of gold in the desert sand
is less than a cool fresh spring
and to one lost sheep, a shepard boy
is greater than the richest king
should a man lose everything he owns
has he truly lost his worth
or is it the beginning
of a new and brighter birth
So how do you measure the worth of a man
in wealth or strength or size
in how much he gained or how much he gave
the answer will come to ya
to look at his life through heaven's eyes
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(2X)
and that's why we share all we have with you
though there's little to be found
when all you've got is nothing
there's lots to go around
No life can escape being blown about
by the winds of change and chance
and though you never know all the steps
you must learn to join the dance
you must learn to join the dance
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(repeat until fade)
i wonder, if i can do what i am called to do if i found out what am i supposed to do? what if one day i realise that it is the best for me to be someone i have tried to avoid for long? what if?
i haven't been production, instead, i have been indulging in my non productive activities like sleeping and stoning and what have you... Staying in hall ought to give me chances to learn more things and learn a trade or two. but i guess i haven't found my area of capability. been doing things which i have been doing and things i tot i can do. but in the end, i seemed to be uncapable of things that i thought i can.
the production is over. well.. it's a relief to many, but i feel that i din't get the best out of the whole process. i dun feel as good as yesterday. i felt that i haven't delivered my best, if i can have my best. when i looked around at the people who are very involved, i wish i am as tired as them.. but yet, i am not willing to put in the effort. in short, i discovered a big flaw in my personality - the desire to gain things without putting in effort.
i think that's a disgusting trait to have... but, what can you do now? i mean, i find this big inertia to change myself. been relying on people too much and too often. argh! maybe the ability to rely on others is a great thing i can do? nah...
recalling.. i think my most productive days are those days when i work on my dreamweaver, fireworks, photoshop, those days when i can coop myself in the room for days just to doodle with the computer screen..
i really dun know where do i stand now..
Artist: K-Ci & JoJo Lyrics
Song: Through Heaven's Eyes Lyrics
A single thread in a tapestry
though its color brightly shines
can never see its purpose
in the pattern of the grand design
and the stone that sits up on the very top
of the mountain's mighty face
does it think that it's more important
than the stones that forms the base
So how can you see what your life is worth
or where your value lies
ohhhh, you can never see through the eyes of man
you must look at your life
look at your life through heaven's eyes
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(2X)
A lake of gold in the desert sand
is less than a cool fresh spring
and to one lost sheep, a shepard boy
is greater than the richest king
should a man lose everything he owns
has he truly lost his worth
or is it the beginning
of a new and brighter birth
So how do you measure the worth of a man
in wealth or strength or size
in how much he gained or how much he gave
the answer will come to ya
to look at his life through heaven's eyes
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(2X)
and that's why we share all we have with you
though there's little to be found
when all you've got is nothing
there's lots to go around
No life can escape being blown about
by the winds of change and chance
and though you never know all the steps
you must learn to join the dance
you must learn to join the dance
lai-la-lai...through heaven's eyes(repeat until fade)
i wonder, if i can do what i am called to do if i found out what am i supposed to do? what if one day i realise that it is the best for me to be someone i have tried to avoid for long? what if?
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