network marketing

PJ, or should i call him Nelson now, brought me to a network marketing talk. well, it's an opportunity to know bout this long-talked about network market. yes, it does sound good. and to me, i do believe that it is not a fraud. it is definitely tempting to try. i also wan to drive a BM in my twenties. i also wish to draw a five-digit monthly salary it is a way to make ur way up, provided that you have what it takes and work hard in your initial stage. but i dun think i am suitable for the job. i cannot bring myself to introduce this scheme/product to my friends and family. i cannot bring myself to be positive, extrovert and sale-motivated. i cannot bring myself to break from the flow, the flow which tells me to get a stable-income job, 8 to 5. anyway, this is not the first time being introduced to NM. weixiong talked to me before. i just dun think that i can make it big in this NM.

yes, i know i can change my mindset. and i know they will say they can provide me with the training, the skills relevant and the help that i need. but i am resistant about the idea. i dun like them. they talk as if they are 100% right and that this is the way i am supposed to live my life. all the crap about studying and getting a normal job isn't a way to live, in fact that kind of life is being trapped in the matrix, unknowingly being tapped for energy by the society, govt etc. it seems that to take part of NM, is like taking the red pill which allows me to wake up and know what's going on actually. i don;t like that idea.

i dun like the idea to to be motivated by points. it will be an "idol". it will be against the commandmant that we should have God in top priority. of cos, with the correct adjustment to the mindset, there's nothing wrong participate in NM. however, i am not ready. not ready to be an extrovert. not ready to be active.

my skin condition is getting worse again. i am quite fed up. coincidentally, my med review is in this month. i am so tempted to take oral corticosteriods but that will simply masked my actualy conditions. and seriously i dun trust my MO to be empthatic about my condition. really hope that they can perm my pes status,.. it will take a bother off my mind. see how lor..

originally, i should be watching matrix revolution today. plan failed.

mrs seet will not be around for three days. oh, then i have to see wendy's take the feather and treat it like a authority sword.. haha.. cannot stand her.. gladfully, i am not taking any orders from her.. i will jus do my own thing. but i am more bothered about maj lim.. cos i think i lose, or misplaced his map. he's lookin for it in the morning and i am not in office. sigh.. lose points liao.. sigh. how to survive till 2005!

tmr is sunday. hope all be well..~