haven't been blogging.. well. as usual, let's back track..

yesterday had a supper with daniel, till quite late into the morning. not sure if it's right but, well, it's an opportunity to know another person better. as previously thought, i really think i can understand what he is thinking. reallie. i had that kind of feeling that these are the ways things should be and how come no one is doing it. and i am the only one thinking this way, okay, nvm, let's dun join the mainstream. actually, i think i know that the mainstream also knows wat's going on but there's no need/difficult/thye dun bother to change back to the so called correct way. it's absolutely abstract and all the ideas are very subjective.

also, he trigger my thoughts, some thoughts that i tried to keep and maintain previously but have failed. yes, i really agree that i have talking too much. too eager to say things and share knowledge. too prideful to say i dun know. hm.. ought to review~

leonard leo.darrell wee. one of them will be my understudy. i dun know why but i am also very worried to have understudy. it means the long and difficult process to tidy up my stuffs and write all the SOPs and the meticulous stocktaking to ensure proper handing over. well, i guess i will set a date to officially hand over and henceforce slack/be a project clerk~ haha. pray for God's help in having a good handover. it's not my wish to be a bad upperstudy. i want to be a nice upperstudy.

jia'en talked something about the striving / battling with sin. yes.. it's indeed a diff life walking with Jesus yet sinning along the way. if i dun sin, i feel uncomforatble. if i sin, i feel ultimatly regretful and guilty. it's really a battle with sin every day and my personal walk with God. dun know how to illustrate the idea to francis..

francis,
Jesus Christ has died for ALL our sins. if He hasn't why should He come in the first place. To say that man can actually pay for part of their sins thru purgatory, it's saying that we are playing a part in getting our sins forgiven. NO, we have no part in our salvation but thru God's grace.

if you say, wat bout the sins that we commited after receiving Christ? we too, have a Judgement day. the great white throne judgement. heard of it? christians will be judged according to our life on earth as a pilgrim and His servants. but salvation is there.

dominic says that if Christian faith is so easy, why should you all follow the strict catholic faith? exactly! why you rather believe in something that is more difficlut to do? and why do you choose to believe somethign that is logical to men. God is an infinite Being and He has this salvation plan for us. why must we twist it to make it more convincing to ourselves? it's is def more logical and easier for pple to believe that we can pay for our sins, by doing some penance, or going thru some good works in atonement. but, if such, how diff is God's way of salvation from the rest of the world.

and be very sure that Christian walk is never easy. truely converted Christians will not want to have the plans the sin, and plan to repent at a later stage. if that's the case, only God knows if the person is saved. it's nv an easy road. we are all trying to be more Christlike and to live for Him everyday.

just one day, read the Bible. and try to re-understand the wordings.

(believe it or not, but my heart aches.. )