sunday~

let's go backwards narrating my thoughts.

had eca again. this is is at airport, and with the ladies too. basically threee groups of people, the ladies, the youths and the children. jianjun actually leave the children's table and sat in front of me. haha.. he says that the rest of them are on a diff freq with him. actually i think it's true. in fact, it's the same case for baoyan. but the diff is that jianjun is not seeking to be belonged. he's fine to be himself. or maybe it's just plainly, he's grown up. i told him that he can join shomerim starting from next year. =) actually maybe it's not a bad idea afterall. haha.

meanwhile, had a disscussion with a.mee regarding the camp booklet. erm.. out of some reasons i start to talk to her in a very formal tone. . . erm.. dun know why actually. "are you upset regarding anything? " she asked. erm. the ans is of cos NO. okay.. let me try to reason with myself.

1. it's definitely that i am unhappy with the commments witht the campbooklet. there's absolute no reason for that to happen. her job is to proof read.. if i have done the disastrous circling in camp regarding the letters written by them in camp, why will i be upset with her comments. ? actually, a lot of her comments coincide with me. just that i haven't or din't change them as i was trying to complete the soft copy. it's more tedious to edit and proof read the soft copy, cos the monitor is very glaring and publisher isn't exactly very proofreading friendly.

2. so, why? erm.. erm.. it's just a lost of idea regarding in wat aspect and manner should i converse with a.mee lor.. and she's often so sensitive, so, erm.. not sure if my too casual tone and speech will invoke any comments. well, i guess the too formal tone also isnt' right.

3. actually, this is also somethign i am trying to work out. the tone and the manner i should talk to shuping isaac and the rest of the adults. cos i really dun consider myself young anymore (though i wish i were)..

okay.. back in church after service was the christmas item practice. erm.. disastrous. i am just not musical i guess. actually i still dun know where my forte lies.. well. will practice lah.. i am sure it can be done..~ haha..

then it was the guitar com. erm.. we learnt the church theme song. sigh.. diff song to learn. it's not the first time comtemplating the idea of quitting guitar com. i believe service and be in many forms and forms which God has arranged for you. maybe music is just one area i shouldn't dabble with.. ~ welll review that end of year.. meanwhile, anyone who reads this, just read for info~

church service.. it's Pr Kian Sing who speaked today. "be watchful" erm.. beginning part is quite boring and mono. but the later part it gets more personl and evoking. i think that is what a sermon should be like. it is to speak with passion and feelings. if not, it's going to be a lesson and not a sermon. sadly to say, and also ashamed to say, one reason i left berean then was becos i dun find him engaging. it start to get very mono with him. i was the bad guy, cos i din't give him chance to learn. he was learning then i guess and i wasn't giving him the patience and grace i will like the others to give me. (argh.. so ashamed now)

des and liangkiang left for dinner themselves. erm... guess they have a friendship traced way back...

tengyan joined us for eca today.. erm.. surprising~ finally. but he's also quite impressive for being so determined and perservering in his plans and financial control.
walked home with him from bus 27 busstop.. talked along the way... erm.. thank God that he's quite a chatter. =)

joelson finally heeded someone's advice to stop working and to concentrate with his studies. thank God that a.lili and u.john have influence over him. actually i have tried to persuade him on the same matters too.. but i guess he filtered my words and input. most people says that he needs help and guidance. actually wat he's doing is just being very diff from the rest. is that wrong? he is holding to some personal and different 'doctrines' and 'etiquettes". how should approach? in the first place, is majority the correct way to behave in the frist place. he always tell people that, he's capable to handle his situation. he always wish to appear to be self-sufficent and independant. always givng me the smile as if he's thinking "heehe.. really appreciate your words but i am have my thoughts which aren't worse than your advice. anyway, thank you for telling me still. hehe..."

anyway, in the airport, tengyan was sayin that if i wait with lingqin, i can take the tpt home and also have to chance to meet my prospective relatives. |||! duh..~ he better joking, if not, my assessment of his 'wisdom' is going down. hahah~