Buck up

Its such a waste to stone n age. Do something.

山外山

copied from tianhao.. good read. in fact.. a bit emo and touching.. ahha

李老师所寄给我们:

山外山
因为T来香港公干，所以我们有机会在家里聚会。大家谈起故人往事，那真是一个愉快的晚上。虽然T和E二十年不见，但一见面就像是昨天还在一起玩闹，搞课外活动的朋友那样，无所不谈。

其实我们不过是十七八岁念同一所初级学院，一块儿度过年少时期两载岁月的朋友，和后来许许多多共同念大学或工作的朋友比较起来，我们朝夕相对的时间实际上很短。但是就像T说的："那个时候真是好玩，太好玩了！"就因为那个时候"太好玩"才有幸让收藏了二十年的友情，在二十年后，还像用了最好的葡萄，最纯净的泉水，在最合适的季节酿造的葡萄酒那样，依旧香醇迷人。

太好玩！我们当时玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息。我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月。结果，到了A水准会考，我们当中一些该拿4个A的仅拿了两三个，该有机会出国深造的只得留在新加坡。当然，这些T和E都追回来了，不仅追了回来，还能大言不惭地说：幸亏当年没拿奖学金。在金融界做得有声有色的E不到四十，已经在考虑退休……

不管追不追得回来，人生没有几个两年可以让你这样子度过。年纪大了离开学校以后更是不可能。当年我们在一起的时候，是用了最善良最纯真的心灵相处。那是我们最美好的一面，还没有被社会被成人的世界污染的最美好的一面。我们在学校、老师们家长们的保护下，做既不是大人又不是孩子，既是大人又是孩子，才能够享受的集体生活。我们拥抱在一起激动，一起大笑，一起流泪，一起高歌……这样的日子任凭后来生活将我们带到何处，都不可能忘记。它永远在心里保留着最动人的一部分。

之后我们各奔东西。在社会里该争的争了，该爬的爬了，该拍马屁的拍了，该虚假的虚假了，该面目狰狞的面目狰狞了。但是你们后来的这些面孔，我都看不到。我们有幸不曾成为同事或竞争对手的，都看不到。这样子最好。这样子，当我们聚会时，我们又都恢复了十七八岁的样子。"你们都没有变哩！"T和E这样说。其实怎么可能没有变呢？只是在我们之间，我们又可以打开那最美好的一面罢了。尽管没有过去纯洁善良，但却已经是我们最美丽的了。

那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。还好我们玩得不知天高地厚，玩得将功课抛在一旁，玩得老师们摇头叹息……还好我们玩得理直气壮，考了烂成绩还不当回事地继续风花雪月……还好有你们，才让生命灿烂起来……
（传自香港）

笔心
那最美的一面，因为你们而存在。因为当年玩疯了，所以没有忘记。

So long

On the train now n I gv 15 min to type.

It's been so long since I last blogged. All the while, I'm still
following some of the blogs like bh from church, yl from hall who is
now a pharmacist, mar my fellow Chem engr working in bank. I can't
bring myself to blog cos I cannot find a convincing underlying
conviction in life values to comment about anything in life. And I'm
not willing to show pple or even myself the evolution of my values
since work has started.

Met different pple since grad m met the same pple since they hav grad.
Among them, I can find no soulmate to confirmed n share my old values
in life. I think I find it har to convince myself too, when all the
pple on that highway, have left n I seem so alone.

New pple n new thoughts in life? There are pple or some seniors that
hav kinda caused me to think about planning my life. But then again,
really dun know how to plan the insecurities of life. For the secured
matters, they are somewhat laid out already.

I only hav 4 months to get myself sorted out. 4 months.

Fwd: リンクするには

作詞：水野幸代 作曲：日向敏文

逢えなくなって どれくらいたつのでしょう

出した手紙も 今朝ポストに舞い戻った

窓辺に揺れる 目を覚ました若葉のよに

長い冬を越え 今ごろ気づくなんて

どんなに言葉にしても足りないくらい

あなた愛してくれた すべて包んでくれた

まるで ひだまりでした

菜の花燃える 二人最後のフォトグラフ

「送るからね」と約束はたせないけれど

もしも今なら 優しさもひたむきさも

両手にたばねて 届けられたのに

それぞれ別々の人 好きになっても

あなた残してくれた すべて忘れないで

誰かを愛せるよに

広い空の下　二度と逢えなくても生きてゆくの

こんな私のこと心から

あなた愛してくれた 全て包んでくれた

まるで ひだまりでした

あなた愛してくれた 全て包んでくれた

それは ひだまりでした

Fwd: Saw you on TV yesterday

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From: brad pitt <ernestwong.sg@gmail.com>
Date: November 29, 2009 PM 11:30:11 GMT+08:00
To: ernest84@gmail.com
Subject: Saw you on TV yesterday

Hi Ernest

I couldn't believe it when I spotted you on the news last night. Well done - it was a great story.

In case you didn't catch it you'll be pleased to know I recorded it. You can view it here:
http://www.themessagegroup.com.au/last-nights-news.php?title=20091128-Ernest-Wong_create.html

Congratulations again.

brad pitt



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i dun understand the latests music

i officially declare myself an old forgy.. i reallie dun understand why is he famous.. and why are his songs so popular. the lyrics makes sense but without rhyme.

as i was looking at the mtv.. the facial expressions and the way he sing just absolute make no sense to me.

i guess i wun appreciate new stuffs like this..

i guess i will stick to my oldies

Roman 14

Romans 14. 

How to read the following in an open mind n understanding ?? 

Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth. 23 And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin.

无题

年轻的时候常看着大人的电影，憧憬着在商场上轰轰烈烈拼搏；听着电台的歌，试
着感受歌词的意境。成人世界里，生活就象几米小品一样的简单。日出日落，潮起
潮落，时间就慢慢地在我们不注意的时候快快的流失。

时而会非常的放纵自己，有酒今朝醉。但压抑的悲观念头浮现时，我们又怎么面
对？ --＂我们能挥霍到几时呢？人有旦夕祸福啊！＂

这时候，多希望生命的作者能妙笔一挥，在我的生活多增色彩，在我的人生故事里
添多几个人物。





不然，至少风平浪静，无忧无虑。

mac vs pc

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8JmZEKbf9Y4

我们的未来不是梦

Ship

I will die with my people on board ship for a worthy cause. But if I'm
thrown off the board, then I will continue swimming.

hello world

this world is not my home.. i'm just a passing thru.. 

but everyone has different styles of travelling.. some like to travel light. and some prefer to indulge themselves during vacations. 

it seems that a lot of the working pple are getting tired of their work. everyone like to pause and think about that they reallie want. it's a common hobby to secretly fantasizing about the other life that they can be leading. 

me? i can foresee myself being a workaholic at the very instance i am given the chance. but i nv expect myself to land at such a technical job. i like it! but i cannot help me but to remind myself that the society doesnt reward employees anymore. you need to be your own boss.. 

everyone wishes that they are earning more.. actually, for a person who is not attached... i wonder why am i not earning enough. i mean why am i not saving enough. 

there's a hell of things that are not exactly wasteful but yet i am unwilling to spend... am i getting too stingy on myself? i wanted a bed for years and till now not bought. my specs has spoilt and it's ugly and yet i'm not making a new pair. i wish for more pretty socks that is recognisable so that i dun have search thru the pile in the morning for my socks. most of the time i dun even know if that pair is mine. i enjoy fridays cos i can wear socks that are obviously mine! those with yellow lining loll. =) 

and did i say i need a water bottle at work? i am tempted to bring my usual vodka bottle to work but dun reallie want to be that AA in the office. lol... hence i have been making do with a cup. 

and... i will want to father a child. reallie. it will be good if he is as cute as ethan. lol. but then again, i hav been thinking of the possibilities of not having a family. seriously, i dun consider myself a product of sucessful parenting and i dun think i will ever learn how to be a good parent as well.. i guess it's in the genes. to prevent having more unhappy babies in the world.. i shall abstain. 

and... been to different churches is giving me different thoughts and feelings. a church was a social unit.. integral in the society. but today... ? and i also think that, i may have to let go of treasured ties and friendships if i should leave.. 

iPhone n responsibility of speech

My current best investment is an iPhone. Not only did it give me
connectivity at work n during travel, its application really makes
things so much more convenient. If I am take bus n hav an option of
changing different bus services at different bus stop, my application
allows me to check of the waiting time for either scenerio. Hence I
can make an informed decision.

Sometimes I felt that I talk too much. Sometimes too little. I must
learn to be confident n responsible for my speech. N I must learn n
improve myself so that I can stop being an empty vessel. :( God help me.

Ps: this is blog thru iPhone too.

something to look forward to

like what lipchong says.. everyone need to have something to look forward to...

i have decided.. i want to travel... prob US or UK.. in Jan 2010. 

so for now.. i need to plan and save and imagine and dream bout it. heheh.. 

Be of one mind

The teachings of Christ is great. The most important thing is that He
has commanded n influenced conformity n alignment of ideals. The ideal
man n the ideal woman is outlined. So is the ideal father mother wife
n husband, ideal pastor deacon, boss n subordinate. The entire roles n
responsibilities of man is laid down before us to follow.

How ideal if every one will follow the laws n teachings. However, man
jus cannot follow one set of ideals.

But those who lived by the same ideals n values will be drawn to each
other. They will come together n eventually become a community. So,
what man has to do is to live the values they believe n to stick to
it. N things will be just fine for him.

In hall, most pple came by to see what the place has to offer. But it
doesn't has a set values to offer. N hence no common values that will
bind the people together. What it offers is the trend n styles of the
choleric population. Within the span of the years that they stay
together, should the trend n styles affected n accepted by the
majority, the group will stay. If it can infect n affect the
generations hence, that is when the alumni is influencial. N that is
when u can consider a tradition is formed.

Traditions is a means n method to force certain conformity. I'm sure
the church has tried but we all know the traditions sometimes became
senseless rules. For the church they can hav a reformation where
people can retrace their roots with the Word of God.

For a place like a hall where pple come and go, once the traditions
are perverted n mixed up, there is no documentation to rely on fit a
"reformation".

................

Anyway, it is just saddening to see kids juniors even children to move
on without you.

If I'm a teacher, I will prob emo every year end. :(

I guess it's time. The Almighty God above has shown me that there's no
other way. What I hav to do now is just to start my personal life with
him again. It's time to get back to my routine.

But at the same time, I need to b more studious n start studying.
Enough revelations thru thoughts n dreams, it's time to get some thru
hard core studying. :)

:)

starting line

每个人的人生的起跑点都不一样。有些人在枪声响后都还没起跑。我虽然不能说跑前头，其实也不算与别人在同个起跑点上，但我很庆幸我现在有健全的身体，能够在跑道上。

我祈祷，希望上帝能给我时间让我能毫无意外的跑到起跑点上。 

Job

As I read liming n Marilyn blog about their job, I think I should jot
down something before I got so numb n cannot write anything.

For those who dun know, I m leading a very no-life lifestyle. I am
always trying to OT at work because that will compensation my
considerable low pay. Also, there's really so much to do n to learn at
work that ot is necessary.

What I m doing is to coordinate a certain project that I hav little
technical knowledge. For shearites to understand, it's like being an
SP producer with no idea what is stage, script n sponsors etc. Or,
it's like vice-chairing rag with absolutely no idea what's the work
flow between the engrs n designers.

Am I complaining? Nope. I am thankful for The job. It's prob the
closest thing I can do that is related to chemical engineering. N this
job also also urge me to study harder n grab the chance to learn as
much as possible.

N th colleagues are quite nice!! I jus need to be less self conscious
n mingle more. N my boss is forgiving for all the mistakes made. :)
thank God.

So what do I do after OT? Tuition. Yes. I am still having students for
reasons like the parent doesn't want to change tutor n I need Te
money. Yes. I see the stack of debts that I am incurring n the lack of
cash in the family. I m not complaining also. I am thankful for the
assignments that I hav. N further more, I am not dating n my friends
are too busy dating. The best alternative is to moonlight. This is
also influenced by my bro lipchong. He says, "when I watch tv at home,
I will think it's a waste of time. He could be teaching tuition to
earn money. "

----------------

I am generally very thankful for a job now especially during a time
like this. As I talk to more pple I also start to wonder about my
career progression. Was talking to tong on his car n talk about
earning 7-8k n the pple generally agree that is not enough. Ok. It
means I hav a long way to go.

At this moment, I'm not looking at months or years later. I'm jus keen
to wait for the next pay day to arrive.

If you are thinking that I want to be a salary worker all my life, I
dun think do. But I jus hav to settle the problems at sight first.
Secretly I m still dreaming. I jus need more time to breed n nurture
this dream.

When the music fades All is stripped away .....

what's left?

---

and i am thinking.. what is interesting recently.. that i can engage myself in.. 

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