WIT leader course 1. i am on course again. since i dun know anyone in the course, attempts are made to know people. thank God that my skin condition is giving confidence to approach people.
I know that it is my attitude that enables me to make friends or let people talk to me. However, i jsut cannot force myself to behave positively when my skin condition is bad. Self esteem is rock-bottomed when my face is flaking etc..
the course is about being a good leader. it is definitely not the first time for me to attend such course. however, whether i apply the content learnt is another matter.
in such courses, i always appear to be confident and take the initiative to break the ice. can i do the same in my social life?

presently, i am leading a loner life. i dun go out with people.

on the other hand, weiming is taking the initiative to ask me/ the rest out. he just cannot be alone. now that he is single, he needs more company from friends. the same senerio happenned in JC. but then, i am not sure if he's with vivian or not. this time, i know that being a friend, i should be with him when he needs company. but i just dun like to be called out frequent becos he's single. in other words, i am jsut trying to act bochap even i do like to have companionship.

i was on very good terms with eugene in sec 2 cos i am always making myself available for him to chat thru the night.
i was on good terms weiming when he needed company in JC. i never asked him anything bout viv and him. neither did he tell me anything.

but i just dun know who, how, when to ask them out when i am feeling down/ dejected. i start to think that friends are redundant to me. cos i dun know how to approach them. i have taken a step back from all. i can sympathise the feelings of a hermit.

am i right to behave in this way?