TBPC Children’s Camp
Teaching lower primary and upper primary
Being a teacher does not only entails the delivery of lessons. Much effort is put into the teaching materials and aids like the ppt for my case. Yes, the ppt can be done quite easily you may think, but the organization of materials aren’t. and I have not mentioned about sourcing for the information. So am I a good teacher recently? I dun know. Apparently I dun feel it from the looks of the student.
Science and Bible
Started off with the Sunday school lesson with the upper primary. When I delivering information that seems to be new or difficult, I feel bad about pitching it at too high a level. But whenever someone give me that “ ya I know, can you please move on look”, I feel down. My abilities are in doubt.
My Lesson 2 with Upper primary
It’s a lesson which I like the most. Because I think I did not run of out things to talk about. In fact, I have too many things to say. Teaching bible stories is sometimes difficult, too much narration is boring but too little elaboration and examples is without application. I find it difficult. But as I said, I like my lesson, as I draw a parallel on how God was preparing Gideon for the battle just as how He prepares a Christian to do something great for him. Conversion -> tear down idols -> worship -> persecution -> doing great things.
However, I problem and sadness comes when I realize that I dun have enough time to elaborate on how Joash save Gideon and how he got his second name. and the children cannot answer shuhui’s qn during bible quiz.
I asked Je, and he says that it’s just nice. Not too hard and not too difficult. I do think he can be candid at times but I still take his comments with a pinch of salt, thinking that he might just trying to be nice to me or being tactful. No matter what, I must say that, I have grown a little bit more from preparing the lesson.
Teaching lower primary
It’s an experience teaching there are many pple issues to settle. I find it a bother that I cannot carry on my lesson well. Often, I have to spend time settle disputes about he beat me… he scold me.. how am I supposed to spend the right about of time.
Thank You Card
My one thank you card is from ja, which is from lower pri. I was glad to receive. Needless to say. Des was saying, “ernest, for this card, it’s worth it.” Ya.. I know. Thank God for this one card.
VBS Science Experiment
I was glad when I heard from Kezia that Gideon said, “ernest kor kor very clever, he can make the mini rocket fly very high…” being able to fascinate him at least, I guess the gladness is there.
During vbs I was glad that I was handling activities which I may be a little better. But back then, I wonder will it be good to have the chance to teach God’s word.
However, when I see ty handling matyrs stories, I wonder will it be better if I can have that sit down and talk lessons with the children. I am just so not contented.
I dun wish to doubt on my abilities, but as I often asked, what if one day you find out that you are really just not there, how to accept it? Or more proactively, how to change it?
The children
Jeshua
He’s often liked. All of us know. His childlike faith, childlike maturity, his cute behavior and amiable cuddling habit. Will he remain as 10yo-jeshua-like… unlikely, but how much will he be different.
Javan
Being so sweet to give me a thank you card. What can I say? he’s always sweet. But I dun know how to treat him nice leh. =)
Botao and Sarah
Ji tong ya jiang. A tones of problems. One of them knows that they have a prob but unable to resolve. The other party’s prob is that they think they have no prob.
Xiangyuan
常常因为感到不被了解，不能了解而感到困惑。似乎映射了我的处境。
Jun’en and Joseph
A struggle between my choice of the best student. Jun’en is the more enthu but joseph seemed to be more amiable… with one more vote for jun’en , he got it.
Laziness, that I din’t play or take care of the children as what I did in the first day. I wish to have more interaction with the kids.. Or maybe it’s a wish that I can sleep normally in aircon room. I dun wish to sleep the children cos I know I have prob sleeping in aircon room. I rather sleep with youths as I can be more of myself.
i am trying too hard to be things that I am not, and neglecting the things I should be doing. Trying too hard to be group leaders when I should concentrate to be a teacher.
Dhs primary school kidz camp
Suddenly I recall those days when I was the instructor for the camps. I was one of the lecturer and also the instructor. Looking back, I really think that I am trying to be things that I am not. I guess I am more of that kind of instructor type of person but somehow, maybe age is catching up on me.. no more life and vigor to follow the young kidz everything..
Honghao bohao
Really glad to see them in this youth camp. I do easily pay attention to them as they were about the youngest when I first join shomerim. Now I know that they are not longer kidz but it’s just nice to see yourself and your past with their current experience. After listening to bo 1st night of sharing, I said to the group, “ I wish I was better”. Of cos I cannot turn back time but I know I must strive for my current situation, a young adult, almost settled to find real settlement.
Youth Camp Day 1
I am sad to say but I began the camp with a personal low note. Not that I am spiritually down but the first encounter with the first programme makes me feel a bit unhappy. It is really partially my fault, for I see that it’s my ego, self-recognition that’s hindering a happy afternoon. However, it’s both ways too, for my part I wish that the other people will be more EQ and hence making me feel better but one the other hand, it’s also me who is not having enough EQ to handle situation well.
There are some pple whom i dun really want to be like. Do you ever met those people before? Yes. I am talking about those who you cannot see eye to eye and the way they handle things you will disagree and think that almost everything they do is not what you think should be happening. Of cos when I say everything, it’s an exaggeration but almost everything.
How? Yes.. this is my personal barrier and it’s my fault. And this is the first day of the camp and I wish to find some reasonable improvement in me. May the Lord help me.
Ra and es joining us for the youth camp. I think it’s quite nice in a way for it really injects some youth into our midst. And at least there are more people within jianjun’s category. Ya.. so that I think less people will be left out.. being left out is what I least wanted to happen to me. And to others too.
Day 2
I was saying that the twins were young when I first came to church.. but now, I think there’s es and ra who are going into sec sch… it’s an old man syndrome to share experience. But I just like to do it…
Soon, all the children will grow and be more mature than me while I con’t to choose to live in my world now.
Things seems to get better for the things that I am unhappy about yesterday. Surely it’s God.
I must say that this youth camp is much more adult like without the children. We dun have to take care of them and can fully concentrate with our sharing and our supper talk. I wish we have more time for group sharing but well.. it’s enough. I guess we just like to sidetrack and chat a little sometimes.
Also, there’s this thing about writing a note to campers. It’s hard to write for some but I know it’s certainly for a good cause.
And also, meijiea ask the children to make cards at the end of children camp. I am so glad to receive one card too. Yeah.. it’s just nice. Once again, thank you Javan.
Shomerim is so adult now. That we have 4 people able to drive a car and 3 of them have something to drive during this period of time. “Next phase of life” is what it’s all about. It’s an exciting phase to some but to many it’s also a scary phase for we dun know what’s on tmr. But as Christian, we all know that He who controls tmr is the one holding our hand.
Being left out. I guess I am facing it gradually. It’s a fact that I need to either embrace or change. Changing can be in the form of changing mentality or changing my personality. Certain facts of life are just cruel.
Just like botao cannot fit in cause people can nv understand his language. Because of communication prob, he cannot learn the language. Catch 22 situation.
Some kid cannot relate to the rest cos the rest are cleverer. One cannot make oneself cleverer. So how? LLST lor. Catch 22 again.
Some cliques chat and talk about others, the things others do provide the platform of communication for the clique. If the other join the clique, the clique have nth to talk and hence nth exciting happens hence. But the excitement when the other leave. Whose fault?
In this world, there are loners, some by default, some by problems. Will there be one by choice..
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