back in year one, i think i am happier in sem 2, when my com started. i must say that i am dependent on others. and the people in my coms are good in making people feel at ease and home. francis said, "whenever i see you, you are doing CMB stuffs". i guess i dun wish to hide in my room all day.. but what can i do when people around me are just as such.. fuhua hang out with his smoke gang; zhihan busy with medicine; sumeet not understandable; sukiang and kai xiang busy with themselves; weiwei in his final year tho he entertained me the most. no big clique to allow me to hide in the confidence of crowd, and hence no reason for me to crawl out of my hole. even during runs.. erm.. i tot i am pretty much as good as running alone.. when they were passing their handball around. i am just not warmed up enough or open up enough.
this year is a second chance ba. i am a changed man or so i thought. i realise as much as i like to be funnie. i am tryin too hard
rule number one: dun ever repeat things that you meant it to be funnie unless it's very necessary.
back to what i want to say.. i want to thank God for people around me this year who somehow allows me a little chance to talk more. and to play more. however, i need to change one more thing about me. that's the look as if i am joking when i am joking. i guess people are afraid to joke with me or reciprocate jokes becos i am over tense and taking their joking comments too seriously.
learning pt: i guess i must learn to listen and accept and change but not giving a very sad serious reaction when i hear comments.
thank God for tech crew com treat today.. had a nice meal.. but talking bout chairing tech crew. i guess junxiong is the wanted choice.. for he's indeed a better people person. his percieved composure is added trust from people. if i going to take up chairperson role this year, i must make sure i learn along the way.
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