rag, a dream

what have i done during the 3mth holiday? other than my part-time part-timing at bally. i must thank God for the many times with church pple. the chance to go out as and when and of cos rest at home. but my july is still used up for hall orientation and some days for chess camp.

chess camp has been fulfilling. it makes me realise that i can still try to be friendly. it's another event that i manage to be unable to convince people that i am an introvert. tho the OG outing stops.. i know it has left a small mark on me.

swoc camp is another orientation. and again, i struggle with the inability to make the group a winning group. yes.. games is about the process but whenever i heard them being discouraged bout not winning.. i wonder whose fault is it... it is me? yes.. i wish i am more game for games. but still.. i manage to make friends i hope.

rag... the end of orientation. i guess i am a person who feels for rag. that kind of person who will be willing to join if conditions allows. at this point of time, i want to reassure myself that i dint join rag for the purpose of more time with friends and family and church is being fulfilled. but still.. after losing rag this year, i feel that i wish to do something better next year. if God willing, i think i will plunge into it. maybe.

people in rag impressed me. the designers, and the meticulous work by every one. honestly, i do think that we have the best float in terms of quality work. every single scale that is on the train. when our float dint win, i look at the rag people. at that moment, i thought how blessed is it to have a team of people working towards a common goal, even if it fails, they stand together. pple cried... kathy, jung kiat, jung seong.. looking at them, i am kinda motivated.

i have one comn in hand. sndcc.. something that i should be fighting for right now. i shant make another regretful move. move on.



tmr start school. my resolution in progress.