ok.. there's just to many things...
to many things to blog
to many things to do
to many things to plan
to many things to learn
to many things to correct
to many things to keep
to many things to try
to complete
to let go
to perfect
to tell
to forgive
to forget ...................
ok.. i am not going crazy. but there's just too many things to say.
1. con't with my website.
ok.. i wan to learn more skills. i wan to use flash etc. i wan to create something better than this. but? erm.. can i?
2. driving!! i wan to pass my driving asap! CAN I?
3. i wan to be more organise
too many holidays. too many deadlines. too high expectation of myself, too much ego to satisfy. wan to be capable. yet. sigh.. what to do?
4. skin! eczyma
this is really my fault. too impatient with my skin. i bathe too fast. apply my cream too much./too little. expect it to heal too fast. peeling off un-healed areas too soon..... sigh...
5. too many things to read
thanks to wilfred~ there's so many comics to read. i love them.. it is always so exciting no matter how tired i am.. but, i am most of the time too tired. i keep newspapers clips, telling myself that i wan to read them, but in the end? they just keep piling up! to much things and knowledge to gain. to many things that i am interested in... how?? i am not a superman.. am i?!
ok.. this is really true.
i wan to forgive and forget. if i cannot forgive my friends, my Father in heaven will also not forgive me and i do agree as well. i am not happy bearing grudges.. i wan to let go.. there's this evil thing call pride. teach me to let go and let off.. i wan to befriend with people again..
threre's still to many... incompleted treasure hunt concept. unfinished photo albums, undone website... sigh!!!!!!!!]
Monday, December 29, 2003
Sunday, December 28, 2003
haven blog for some time.
jerry says that i am letting my work affecting me.. i guess it is true. but i just can't help but to put in my best in work. i wan to assure myself that i am capable of work. however, the freq med appt and holidays are disrupting my workflow and causing me to miss my deadlines.. how? the year is ending and i yet i still have so much undone.
today, there's a farewell dinner for pastor. see if i can draw out a card for him today. ..
.
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and anyway, i have the following wishes:
1. reconcile with my friends, weiming etc.
2. forgive and let go, stop being so petty
3. be discipline in my skin care. stop being lazy with the medication!
4. baptize next year.
5. and more to go......
jerry says that i am letting my work affecting me.. i guess it is true. but i just can't help but to put in my best in work. i wan to assure myself that i am capable of work. however, the freq med appt and holidays are disrupting my workflow and causing me to miss my deadlines.. how? the year is ending and i yet i still have so much undone.
today, there's a farewell dinner for pastor. see if i can draw out a card for him today. ..
.
.
and anyway, i have the following wishes:
1. reconcile with my friends, weiming etc.
2. forgive and let go, stop being so petty
3. be discipline in my skin care. stop being lazy with the medication!
4. baptize next year.
5. and more to go......
Saturday, December 20, 2003
travelling light
5 days of church camp in malaysia. many thoughts ran thru my head but unable to write it all down. there is really too many to think about and too many prompting in my head. again, i am trying to do so many things at one go.
let's start with my impressions/opinions/lessons learnt from the people:
Shiang Shinn: a person who is worldly streetwise. he is knowledgeable with infomation of the world. he has great exposure to things and have tried many. Seen many people due to his line (service line in electronic engr), been to places and know bout the norms and ways of people. Has a wife and a son. (Ai Ping and Daniel)
Rev Quek: a man of faith and sensitive to God's calling. love the Lord and protect His word. seemingly undaunted by attacks in the Word and hold dearly in his faith in God.
Meijie: just get to know that she has a bf, erm.. named nick? not sure.
Jiannan: he is good. although he has the lack of the ability to express himself fluently, i can feel his strength in the Lord. (i have thought, if i am weak in my job e.g. studying etc, will i still find comfort in the Lord that he is actually giving me the best.) but now, i know, God really works in our hearts. and i am sure jiannan has found comfort in God. compared to him, i am weak. my excuses are no excuses compared to him.
Joel: a clean-shaven, funky looking guy. ya.. he looks cool, like the yappies. din get the chance to know him better. but i know he's a sporty, out-going person. i guess, athletic persons are normally more positive. (nowonder i am so pessimistic.. haha..)
Isaac/keturah: a couple. they have 2 sons, jeshua and javan. yet, it seems to me that their courtship times isn't very long ago. suddenly, i feel that i may be reaching his life stages very soon. haha.. dun know why. when i get to know that they were pri sch mates, and jc mates.. it sounds so familiar to me. it sound as if it is just a few years away only. not sure why is that so, just a feeling..
jeshua: a very pleasant kid. comparing him with javan, javan, being younger definitely looks cuter. but, when you talk to them, you see his "mature" behavior, you will see him to be so adorable. a fine gentleman to be.
javan: a menace to people, haven to me. hyperactive may be an understatement. but i can really understand him. i am justify for him that being talkative, over-inquisitive etc is nothing wrong. remembering that i was like him. (thinking back, i guess i was more happy to be that confident me who was willing to ask anything.)
amos: i guess he is definitely eligible to be my elder brother, yet he also behaves like teens.. dun really understand what is he like.
teck beng: (judging from the merger discussion) he's a person who also dun express himself well with words. but because he's so amiable, he is a big brother to the care-and-share members. a big brother to be identified with to learn from for some people. can see that he is stressful in his work. he shows to me that no matter how old do i start to commit my life to God, it's the same. same trials and testings....
-married to shufen, and behaves like a courting couple. haha.. and they definitely look young.
josiah: haha.. lookin at his attempts to assume leadership positions, his 2-cents worth of comments during discussions, tries to bring a group discussion to a conclusion, REMINDS me of my experience in sec sch days. those were the days that i also would be very willing to undertake leadership roles.. enjoying being nominated or just joked bout my appointments.. (well, again, it's years back since then)
tengyan: a typical sporty guy, who goes for sports and adventure and experiences. having confidence in his own psychomoto skills. likes to lead a group to attain goals. seems to be all geered to be in NS. haha.. erm.. maybe a typical poly guy. a typical poly guy supposed to be more streetwise and eq.
shuhui: emotional, subjective. . .
john: a person trying to live his life for the Lord in the difficulties of balancing with his normal (secular) activites. have a family to look after, daughters to teach and many items to take care of..
jhoon: erm.. aloof. (haha.. that's my subjective opinion). or maybe, it i who aren't humble enough to draw experience from adults.
alan: erm. dun know.
joelson: well.. it's a like a mirror for me NOT to be emulate. i may be bad to say this but i am trying to be ALL not like him. i am especially worried cos i do have his traits.. pessimistic, in his world, his own theology, most imptly, trying hard to get accepted yet worrisome bout people advances to know him better.
eddie: my buddy (supposedly) din get to know him well really. too bad
karen: eddie's wife, desmond's mother. ya.. same as above.
li mei: erm.. er.. ok lha.. haha.. surely, she talks like she is unhappy/ angry.
lingqin: erm.. she is on good terms with limei, kinda emulating her bahavior at times lor.. haha..
daniel: my room mate. impressed by his conviction in Christ. talk a bit during the nite. understand that he does have his own set of thinkings about the church e.g. the merging thing, pastor's leave. but he's so poor thing to suffer stomach upset for dayS.
nick: ---
honghao.bohao: a pair of interesting twins. i really think they, though differs in characters, converging in their preferences and common sense. it must be an eventful life for them to have a twin brother. haha.. they are sec 2 next year, in tchs. having attributes that i wish i have but i guess i shouldn't be thiking bout that. (reason: i have passed my time to be like them.) how is it nice to be in sec 1. to be like them,.. okok.. i am thinknin back my dhs days.
pastor: though i haven't know him long. his departure really touched me. his thanksgiving item, the song he sang, actually can caused me to tear. i see in him the tiredness labouring for Christ all the years. God bless him
miss leow.rachel.ezra: haven been talking to them. by right, miss leow should be my confidant and mentor when i struggle, but whenever i approaches her in the light of possible spiritual talk, the atmosphere, her speech seems to have caused me to turn away. i know that she is holding to God's word dearly, so much so that, she isn't erm.. much bothered by the human crowd. or the need to be in human crowd. One thing bout her: she thinks about things, and always hesitate to share to people, and yet there's a need for her to share in her heart. yu4 yan3 you4 zhi3. i should take note as well, i am behaving like that many times.. must correct myself.
let's start with my impressions/opinions/lessons learnt from the people:
Shiang Shinn: a person who is worldly streetwise. he is knowledgeable with infomation of the world. he has great exposure to things and have tried many. Seen many people due to his line (service line in electronic engr), been to places and know bout the norms and ways of people. Has a wife and a son. (Ai Ping and Daniel)
Rev Quek: a man of faith and sensitive to God's calling. love the Lord and protect His word. seemingly undaunted by attacks in the Word and hold dearly in his faith in God.
Meijie: just get to know that she has a bf, erm.. named nick? not sure.
Jiannan: he is good. although he has the lack of the ability to express himself fluently, i can feel his strength in the Lord. (i have thought, if i am weak in my job e.g. studying etc, will i still find comfort in the Lord that he is actually giving me the best.) but now, i know, God really works in our hearts. and i am sure jiannan has found comfort in God. compared to him, i am weak. my excuses are no excuses compared to him.
Joel: a clean-shaven, funky looking guy. ya.. he looks cool, like the yappies. din get the chance to know him better. but i know he's a sporty, out-going person. i guess, athletic persons are normally more positive. (nowonder i am so pessimistic.. haha..)
Isaac/keturah: a couple. they have 2 sons, jeshua and javan. yet, it seems to me that their courtship times isn't very long ago. suddenly, i feel that i may be reaching his life stages very soon. haha.. dun know why. when i get to know that they were pri sch mates, and jc mates.. it sounds so familiar to me. it sound as if it is just a few years away only. not sure why is that so, just a feeling..
jeshua: a very pleasant kid. comparing him with javan, javan, being younger definitely looks cuter. but, when you talk to them, you see his "mature" behavior, you will see him to be so adorable. a fine gentleman to be.
javan: a menace to people, haven to me. hyperactive may be an understatement. but i can really understand him. i am justify for him that being talkative, over-inquisitive etc is nothing wrong. remembering that i was like him. (thinking back, i guess i was more happy to be that confident me who was willing to ask anything.)
amos: i guess he is definitely eligible to be my elder brother, yet he also behaves like teens.. dun really understand what is he like.
teck beng: (judging from the merger discussion) he's a person who also dun express himself well with words. but because he's so amiable, he is a big brother to the care-and-share members. a big brother to be identified with to learn from for some people. can see that he is stressful in his work. he shows to me that no matter how old do i start to commit my life to God, it's the same. same trials and testings....
-married to shufen, and behaves like a courting couple. haha.. and they definitely look young.
josiah: haha.. lookin at his attempts to assume leadership positions, his 2-cents worth of comments during discussions, tries to bring a group discussion to a conclusion, REMINDS me of my experience in sec sch days. those were the days that i also would be very willing to undertake leadership roles.. enjoying being nominated or just joked bout my appointments.. (well, again, it's years back since then)
tengyan: a typical sporty guy, who goes for sports and adventure and experiences. having confidence in his own psychomoto skills. likes to lead a group to attain goals. seems to be all geered to be in NS. haha.. erm.. maybe a typical poly guy. a typical poly guy supposed to be more streetwise and eq.
shuhui: emotional, subjective. . .
john: a person trying to live his life for the Lord in the difficulties of balancing with his normal (secular) activites. have a family to look after, daughters to teach and many items to take care of..
jhoon: erm.. aloof. (haha.. that's my subjective opinion). or maybe, it i who aren't humble enough to draw experience from adults.
alan: erm. dun know.
joelson: well.. it's a like a mirror for me NOT to be emulate. i may be bad to say this but i am trying to be ALL not like him. i am especially worried cos i do have his traits.. pessimistic, in his world, his own theology, most imptly, trying hard to get accepted yet worrisome bout people advances to know him better.
eddie: my buddy (supposedly) din get to know him well really. too bad
karen: eddie's wife, desmond's mother. ya.. same as above.
li mei: erm.. er.. ok lha.. haha.. surely, she talks like she is unhappy/ angry.
lingqin: erm.. she is on good terms with limei, kinda emulating her bahavior at times lor.. haha..
daniel: my room mate. impressed by his conviction in Christ. talk a bit during the nite. understand that he does have his own set of thinkings about the church e.g. the merging thing, pastor's leave. but he's so poor thing to suffer stomach upset for dayS.
nick: ---
honghao.bohao: a pair of interesting twins. i really think they, though differs in characters, converging in their preferences and common sense. it must be an eventful life for them to have a twin brother. haha.. they are sec 2 next year, in tchs. having attributes that i wish i have but i guess i shouldn't be thiking bout that. (reason: i have passed my time to be like them.) how is it nice to be in sec 1. to be like them,.. okok.. i am thinknin back my dhs days.
pastor: though i haven't know him long. his departure really touched me. his thanksgiving item, the song he sang, actually can caused me to tear. i see in him the tiredness labouring for Christ all the years. God bless him
miss leow.rachel.ezra: haven been talking to them. by right, miss leow should be my confidant and mentor when i struggle, but whenever i approaches her in the light of possible spiritual talk, the atmosphere, her speech seems to have caused me to turn away. i know that she is holding to God's word dearly, so much so that, she isn't erm.. much bothered by the human crowd. or the need to be in human crowd. One thing bout her: she thinks about things, and always hesitate to share to people, and yet there's a need for her to share in her heart. yu4 yan3 you4 zhi3. i should take note as well, i am behaving like that many times.. must correct myself.
Monday, December 15, 2003
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
on a bus trip home, i saw gurmit tearing. and many artistes tearing with him. too bad i dun have my earpiece with me and tvmobile wasn't loud enough. all i now is that he must have sad something significant. many people cries for this event, but i am sure it is not plain over-excitment for gurmit.
http://www.ahleck.swissnikira.com/archives/000354.html
read the above, and i roughly realised what's really happeningl. and what is so invoking bout his speech is that 100% truth in what he said.
"If i don'e smile as much as i used to, would you weep along with me? Not really needed lar...but it's better than not understanding what i am going through at all. If i don't join you for outings...don't use emotional blackmail on me because it's not going to work."
some people just wan to be alone in times of despair... like gurmit.
but i think for me, i will appear as if i wan to be alone, but yet hoping for friends to approach. what is worse? when they approach, i will elude from concerns. i also dun understand myself.
http://www.ahleck.swissnikira.com/archives/000354.html
read the above, and i roughly realised what's really happeningl. and what is so invoking bout his speech is that 100% truth in what he said.
"If i don'e smile as much as i used to, would you weep along with me? Not really needed lar...but it's better than not understanding what i am going through at all. If i don't join you for outings...don't use emotional blackmail on me because it's not going to work."
some people just wan to be alone in times of despair... like gurmit.
but i think for me, i will appear as if i wan to be alone, but yet hoping for friends to approach. what is worse? when they approach, i will elude from concerns. i also dun understand myself.
Monday, December 08, 2003
Galvin
Galvin
http://www.swissnikira.com/
http://cannon.threeone.net/
"Perhaps that is why I've started keeping an online journal since my junior college days when technology enabled me to do so... such was the joy of writing: to look up new words... to mimic styles of writing that didn't spring forth from within... to conjure up seemingly incomprehensible sentences that sounded perfectly... incomprehensible. There was a time when I even tried venturing into script writing and serious expositories... in all these I found myself trying to match up to certain levels of writing... to people whom I deem are good writers." --quoted from somewhere(galvin)
wondering why am i keeping a blog. i guess i also enjoy the fun of writing, scribling thoughts which are running across my head hapzardly using my mediocre language and expressions, struggling and earnestly trying to make myself known and understood.
matthew's webpage led me to many homepages. got this feeling that i have missed out a lot of fun. regret not learning as much as i should in school, bout webpages. i wasn't actively involved in sports which most of my friends are. i thought i was out of place. maybe i should have found myself a place in the Net long ago. but now.. just trying to make up for my time lost.
yes. really made up my mind to learn more bout webpages. why am i not learning something which i am really interested in.
anyway, this version 2.0 of my webpage is too restrictive. hard to expand, hard to insert add-ons. better start my ver 3.0 sooon!. ya..
blogger.com seems to be down. cannot get to the page. so, here am i, blogger into my email temporary..
i guess i am addicted, addicted to the the joy of writing. DATED 071203(blog wan down yesterday)
http://www.swissnikira.com/
http://cannon.threeone.net/
"Perhaps that is why I've started keeping an online journal since my junior college days when technology enabled me to do so... such was the joy of writing: to look up new words... to mimic styles of writing that didn't spring forth from within... to conjure up seemingly incomprehensible sentences that sounded perfectly... incomprehensible. There was a time when I even tried venturing into script writing and serious expositories... in all these I found myself trying to match up to certain levels of writing... to people whom I deem are good writers." --quoted from somewhere(galvin)
wondering why am i keeping a blog. i guess i also enjoy the fun of writing, scribling thoughts which are running across my head hapzardly using my mediocre language and expressions, struggling and earnestly trying to make myself known and understood.
matthew's webpage led me to many homepages. got this feeling that i have missed out a lot of fun. regret not learning as much as i should in school, bout webpages. i wasn't actively involved in sports which most of my friends are. i thought i was out of place. maybe i should have found myself a place in the Net long ago. but now.. just trying to make up for my time lost.
yes. really made up my mind to learn more bout webpages. why am i not learning something which i am really interested in.
anyway, this version 2.0 of my webpage is too restrictive. hard to expand, hard to insert add-ons. better start my ver 3.0 sooon!. ya..
blogger.com seems to be down. cannot get to the page. so, here am i, blogger into my email temporary..
i guess i am addicted, addicted to the the joy of writing. DATED 071203(blog wan down yesterday)
Saturday, December 06, 2003
blurdream's 2nd den
blurdream's 2nd denif anyone is seeing this blog, please visit the link instead. thanks. cos that's my real page. not blurdream.blogspot.com ~
finally, i have embarked on my 2nd webpage. using the idiot-proof method of referring to instruction and step by step procedures. i din't even tried the shading and 3D creation. just trying to get a plain html this time.
results? = blurdream's 2nd den well, it's not fantastic, but i have started, and i will give myself a pat. will con't my learning, i hope. but somehow i dun think it will last. it's too hard for me to be proficient in it. i can, at most, reach erm.. intermediate. ya.
ok.. i am tired. time to work, working on my sec 4 a maths papers.. sigh..
i have an aim, that is to be a good boy from today onwards.. ya. ! :)
finally, i have embarked on my 2nd webpage. using the idiot-proof method of referring to instruction and step by step procedures. i din't even tried the shading and 3D creation. just trying to get a plain html this time.
results? = blurdream's 2nd den well, it's not fantastic, but i have started, and i will give myself a pat. will con't my learning, i hope. but somehow i dun think it will last. it's too hard for me to be proficient in it. i can, at most, reach erm.. intermediate. ya.
ok.. i am tired. time to work, working on my sec 4 a maths papers.. sigh..
i have an aim, that is to be a good boy from today onwards.. ya. ! :)
Friday, December 05, 2003
...
office is short of 3 GS tables.. thinking of ways to solve.. but in vain.
conduct sheet sent to NMTB kanna rejected again! sian
DyCGO email me again about RO suggestions, as if i am the RO clerk. sigh..
my OA account down again.. has been frequent recently! why>?
going to teach mrs seet's daughter soon, how to go bout it?
questions and problems.. i hope to solve them all before i go on leave! dun wish to have a burdened holiday. ya.. that's my prayer item now. ~
gtg.. going for that hari raya function now.. seeya
conduct sheet sent to NMTB kanna rejected again! sian
DyCGO email me again about RO suggestions, as if i am the RO clerk. sigh..
my OA account down again.. has been frequent recently! why>?
going to teach mrs seet's daughter soon, how to go bout it?
questions and problems.. i hope to solve them all before i go on leave! dun wish to have a burdened holiday. ya.. that's my prayer item now. ~
gtg.. going for that hari raya function now.. seeya
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
cmpb despatch...
long time ago, ermm.. i mean earlier this year. i tot cmpb trip will be fun cos can meet up with leonard, matt, situ, victor or whoever. but but but.. in the end, they are normally too busy or too "camoflaged" to meet me. end up with a hi-bye only, and to matt only(normally) :( well.. things aren't as expected, as usual.
will be really nice to know them better. ~
will be really nice to know them better. ~
busy/tired
today i have a lunch out with fong and tian. well, i must say it is a privilege. just hope that i will not lose favour lor.. (seeing the amt of cock up i may have.. haha..)
RO is done and sent out by me again, specially designed to suit DyCGO's taste today. Hopefully i will not received an email tmr being suaned or anything. presently, i feel that there's many errors in RO. i just cannot forget bout my work after knocking off lor.. ok, it's unhealthy and affects my performance. must improve.
indeed, it's end of the year.. a fresh year coming ahead. let's take time and effort to resolute bout next year and end this year with a sweet seal~
hope all may be well tmr, tks.
RO is done and sent out by me again, specially designed to suit DyCGO's taste today. Hopefully i will not received an email tmr being suaned or anything. presently, i feel that there's many errors in RO. i just cannot forget bout my work after knocking off lor.. ok, it's unhealthy and affects my performance. must improve.
indeed, it's end of the year.. a fresh year coming ahead. let's take time and effort to resolute bout next year and end this year with a sweet seal~
hope all may be well tmr, tks.
Sunday, November 30, 2003
2.3-liners ~
really wish to get to know people better, but still holding on to my introvert self.
ask people to guess my age.. and their guess? one score, min. and they feel that there's a G-gap between us, when i am in my teens still.
comtemplating to take my steriods again. but yet unwilling to fall back on drugs.
~let's see how it goes.. hope tmr will be fine. All be well, please~. tks.
ask people to guess my age.. and their guess? one score, min. and they feel that there's a G-gap between us, when i am in my teens still.
comtemplating to take my steriods again. but yet unwilling to fall back on drugs.
~let's see how it goes.. hope tmr will be fine. All be well, please~. tks.
Saturday, November 29, 2003
imagine2.5 :: shot through the monitor
imagine2.5 :: shot through the monitor read matthew's blog.. most specifically, his achives. read a few entries and i got a picture of matt. his writing reveals him. that is what a blog should be, to let pple know him. wish that i get to know him earlier.
he is another person, behaving like a passing traveller in this strange world.
he is another person, behaving like a passing traveller in this strange world.
Friday, November 28, 2003
bike hike ii
...0030hrs... arrived at ang mo kio. had a supper blangah by amos. (tks amos~) and talk talk till erm.. near 0200hrs....
during the talk, heard from amos bout his job, his first and past few job experience. it's an eye-opener for me who has not worked at all. and they con't to talk about motorbikes. oh man, they are all 2/3 years younger than me lor. and yet they are talkin bout something that i am still blur about. we do have different childhood.
they just finished their Os. and they are find jobs. that's another thing that i have never done so far. nv have the chance to find jobs. all of them are the type of people i see in camp. the type of people i haven't associate with before in vj/dhs.
0200hrs... on our way back to tampines.. along the way, an event i tot only exists in enid blyton stories happened. a cute little puppy is trapped in the drain. Joel, tried to rescue it out. after much tries, it came out. and it start to sniff its way around. it is really tempting to adopt cos it is really cute and we dun wish to leave it alone. it might just dash across the road and get killed. ~ well.. in the end, we have to leave it alone..
along old tampines road... my tyre punctured! oh man.. it is so saddening.. it is in the middle of old tampines. how? left the bike locked at a bus stop lor. and daniel rode me back~ believe me.. i am really feeling very guilty. furthermore, cos my bike is locked and i cannot find the key, the bike i used was tengyan's father's bike.! double guilt
reached tampines at ~0330hrs.. AMos said,"aiyah. that's how a bike hike can possibly turn out lor.. that is the fun. if you have taken a cab to fetch the bike back, there will be one man down. then it is not a bike hike liao.. if it happens to any other people, someone else will also rode him back home.. " ya.. i guess i dun know behave in big group of guys. i guess this is boyhood and how we behave when we play together as big boys.
(my childhood friends are all gals.. playing gal games.. haha.. grew up in pri sch to be "si wen" so dun play soccer etc.. results? the ernest today)
bike hike... FUN>
during the talk, heard from amos bout his job, his first and past few job experience. it's an eye-opener for me who has not worked at all. and they con't to talk about motorbikes. oh man, they are all 2/3 years younger than me lor. and yet they are talkin bout something that i am still blur about. we do have different childhood.
they just finished their Os. and they are find jobs. that's another thing that i have never done so far. nv have the chance to find jobs. all of them are the type of people i see in camp. the type of people i haven't associate with before in vj/dhs.
0200hrs... on our way back to tampines.. along the way, an event i tot only exists in enid blyton stories happened. a cute little puppy is trapped in the drain. Joel, tried to rescue it out. after much tries, it came out. and it start to sniff its way around. it is really tempting to adopt cos it is really cute and we dun wish to leave it alone. it might just dash across the road and get killed. ~ well.. in the end, we have to leave it alone..
along old tampines road... my tyre punctured! oh man.. it is so saddening.. it is in the middle of old tampines. how? left the bike locked at a bus stop lor. and daniel rode me back~ believe me.. i am really feeling very guilty. furthermore, cos my bike is locked and i cannot find the key, the bike i used was tengyan's father's bike.! double guilt
reached tampines at ~0330hrs.. AMos said,"aiyah. that's how a bike hike can possibly turn out lor.. that is the fun. if you have taken a cab to fetch the bike back, there will be one man down. then it is not a bike hike liao.. if it happens to any other people, someone else will also rode him back home.. " ya.. i guess i dun know behave in big group of guys. i guess this is boyhood and how we behave when we play together as big boys.
(my childhood friends are all gals.. playing gal games.. haha.. grew up in pri sch to be "si wen" so dun play soccer etc.. results? the ernest today)
bike hike... FUN>
bike hike
after the bike hike, i wonder ... wonder what was the fun that i had. am i missing out some possible fun in life.
2045hrs. jiannan called and say, "ernest, sorry leh, i will be late cos my dad took my bike and i dun know where is he. pls tell them later when they gather at your block." gather at my blk? ok... so, quickly packed and turn up for the bike hike. my bag has: 1. spanner 2. catlight 3. masking tape 4.water bottle.
2110hrs. at my life lobby. tengyan shew up. followed by liang kiang, billy, joel and daniel. moved off to meet amos at the esso station (he's pumping his tyre). joelson turned up. after some "gear polishing" at uncle teck beng. we embarked on our journey. our journey to AnG Mo KiO.
2230hrs... a line of 8 cyclists moved off.. to tampines ave 7 to old tampines road, to hougang, and then to ang mo kio.. up and down the slopes.. what i can say is.. it is FUN.. the kind of fun you derived from a game of bball, run, etc..
0030hrs... arrived at ang mo kio. had a supper blangah by amos. (tks amos~) and talk talk till erm.. near 0200hrs.
---- knocked out.. still need to work one hour later---
2045hrs. jiannan called and say, "ernest, sorry leh, i will be late cos my dad took my bike and i dun know where is he. pls tell them later when they gather at your block." gather at my blk? ok... so, quickly packed and turn up for the bike hike. my bag has: 1. spanner 2. catlight 3. masking tape 4.water bottle.
2110hrs. at my life lobby. tengyan shew up. followed by liang kiang, billy, joel and daniel. moved off to meet amos at the esso station (he's pumping his tyre). joelson turned up. after some "gear polishing" at uncle teck beng. we embarked on our journey. our journey to AnG Mo KiO.
2230hrs... a line of 8 cyclists moved off.. to tampines ave 7 to old tampines road, to hougang, and then to ang mo kio.. up and down the slopes.. what i can say is.. it is FUN.. the kind of fun you derived from a game of bball, run, etc..
0030hrs... arrived at ang mo kio. had a supper blangah by amos. (tks amos~) and talk talk till erm.. near 0200hrs.
---- knocked out.. still need to work one hour later---
Monday, November 24, 2003
Care Bear
 | Grumpy Bear |
i guess i am grumbling too much. i agree. ehy~ it's time to get off your grumpy mood. "please ernest, get back to your friends. stop being a loner. you know you need your friends" but then again, there's something that i cannot leave behind. i guess it is that worthless pride or erm.. more accurately, just simply my stubornness. when will i learn. time to move on. but how?
Friday, November 21, 2003
hobbes
"Calvin sees Hobbes one way, and everyone else sees Hobbes another way. I show two versions of reality, and each makes complete sense to the participant who sees it. I think that's how life works. None of us sees the world in exactly the same way , and I just draw that literally in the strip. Hobbes is more about the subjective nature of reality that about dolls coming to life." --bill watterson
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
neo and mr anderson
The Matrix Revolutions i have finally watch this big-time movie. This must-catch movie. Watch it cos it's an event movie, also to end the trilogy. but after the movie, i dun seem to get much conclusions about the matrix. say that i am stupid but i just link up the info. i still cannot make sense out of it, though i have link up some info, using my imagination.
unfortunately for matrix, after reading reviews online, i have somehow concurred with their criticism. but still.. let's give revolution a thumb up for nice actions and graphics. i do enjoy its matrixian action. hehe..
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enough bout revolution.. talk bout work.. hmm.. all my cock-ups being tolerated so far.. dun know how many cock-ups can mrs seet from me. hope i can improve. dun wish to be black-listed. hehe.. also, i must really make use of mark while he's around to establish my working system, filing system etc.. ya.. that will really make my job easier. hehe..
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i know exams are going to be over... soon enough. all the best to them.. who are taking exams. and ya, i have decided to go for m'sia trip with my church. taking my off and leaves from dec 15-19. hehe.. finally a break.
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aLL the BeST tmR~ ernest, less cock-ups pls.. tks.
unfortunately for matrix, after reading reviews online, i have somehow concurred with their criticism. but still.. let's give revolution a thumb up for nice actions and graphics. i do enjoy its matrixian action. hehe..
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enough bout revolution.. talk bout work.. hmm.. all my cock-ups being tolerated so far.. dun know how many cock-ups can mrs seet from me. hope i can improve. dun wish to be black-listed. hehe.. also, i must really make use of mark while he's around to establish my working system, filing system etc.. ya.. that will really make my job easier. hehe..
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i know exams are going to be over... soon enough. all the best to them.. who are taking exams. and ya, i have decided to go for m'sia trip with my church. taking my off and leaves from dec 15-19. hehe.. finally a break.
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aLL the BeST tmR~ ernest, less cock-ups pls.. tks.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
change of font
as mentioned, changed the font to something more pleasing. cos i got a headache reading my own blog. haha.. news update
Monday, November 17, 2003
...
guy albert
19/m/175, good looking, smart, eligible. in a relationships for around 4 years. he's sad. he thinks that his life is revolving around his gf and feels bad neglecting his friends. no one ask bout his relationships. hence he feels that his friends are not interested in his life. so, he spends more time with his gf, since that's the way other people would expect him to do.
guy bertrum
19/m/165. a normal guy who dun make the initial approach. reserved and shy. he feels that no one will likes him. so, he tries hard to know more friends, to go out with them. all these to drive his boredom away, all these to hid his desires to be atttached. he treats albert to be his good/best friend, and expect him to tell him bout his relationships automatically. however, albert din. hence he felt that albert wasn't treating him as his good friend. he wish that fred will know that he had hurt his feelings but without telling, fred knows nothing.
he dun say hi to dennis until dennis says hi. cos he always feels that other pple are more busy than him. his any attempt to say hi will cause them to be irritated.
gal cherly
18/f/160. single and available. found her senior to be quite cute. dreams of a romantic relationship to happen to her. she wishes that the senior she likes will approach her and ask her out. she wishes.
she would like to know bertrum better. but he appears to be more interested in his friends than her. so, she gave up the idea.
guy dennis
19/f/176. single. good looking, eligible. he seems to have all it takes to be good catch for all gals. he talks to gals and makes them happy. however, he longs for a girl who will love him truely. but he dun know who is that girl. he wish that a girl will tell him that she likes him. however, most of the gals think that he's already attached so he's too good a catch.
one day, he feels that he's always the saying hi to pple first. he feels that he is not "highly demanded by his friends"
gal eunice
19/f/165. single. reserved. she wishes for someone to love her dearly. but pple thinks that she is too cold to approach.
guy fred
19/m/170. single. typical guy who is capable of playing games and games alone to spend the weekend. has friends. he feels that guy friendship is something like a brotherhood, once a friend, always a friend. one day, he said something which hurts his friend, bertrum, a lot. being a straightforth person, he thought that over time, those indeliberate comments will not hurt their friendship. however, bertrum is grudging against him.
19/m/175, good looking, smart, eligible. in a relationships for around 4 years. he's sad. he thinks that his life is revolving around his gf and feels bad neglecting his friends. no one ask bout his relationships. hence he feels that his friends are not interested in his life. so, he spends more time with his gf, since that's the way other people would expect him to do.
guy bertrum
19/m/165. a normal guy who dun make the initial approach. reserved and shy. he feels that no one will likes him. so, he tries hard to know more friends, to go out with them. all these to drive his boredom away, all these to hid his desires to be atttached. he treats albert to be his good/best friend, and expect him to tell him bout his relationships automatically. however, albert din. hence he felt that albert wasn't treating him as his good friend. he wish that fred will know that he had hurt his feelings but without telling, fred knows nothing.
he dun say hi to dennis until dennis says hi. cos he always feels that other pple are more busy than him. his any attempt to say hi will cause them to be irritated.
gal cherly
18/f/160. single and available. found her senior to be quite cute. dreams of a romantic relationship to happen to her. she wishes that the senior she likes will approach her and ask her out. she wishes.
she would like to know bertrum better. but he appears to be more interested in his friends than her. so, she gave up the idea.
guy dennis
19/f/176. single. good looking, eligible. he seems to have all it takes to be good catch for all gals. he talks to gals and makes them happy. however, he longs for a girl who will love him truely. but he dun know who is that girl. he wish that a girl will tell him that she likes him. however, most of the gals think that he's already attached so he's too good a catch.
one day, he feels that he's always the saying hi to pple first. he feels that he is not "highly demanded by his friends"
gal eunice
19/f/165. single. reserved. she wishes for someone to love her dearly. but pple thinks that she is too cold to approach.
guy fred
19/m/170. single. typical guy who is capable of playing games and games alone to spend the weekend. has friends. he feels that guy friendship is something like a brotherhood, once a friend, always a friend. one day, he said something which hurts his friend, bertrum, a lot. being a straightforth person, he thought that over time, those indeliberate comments will not hurt their friendship. however, bertrum is grudging against him.
Thursday, November 13, 2003
not a good day.
bad day.. mistakes everywhere... wrong leave calculation, wrong budget planning, WRONG RO... (tat's the bad, cos the day ended with a mistake.)
when driving, engine stalls, frequently!
when playing gunbound, kanna whacked heavily and yet i have no means to fight back.. quite shi bai. sigh..
feel so useless. ~
PJ/now called Nelson, called me to watch movie. reallly quite surprised lor.. i mean i dun expect him to contact me after he ORD. maybe cos both of us got similar skin prob. mutual sympathy. tmr is friday, finally. not that i am lookin forward an exciting weekend(cos i dun think i will have one). but i am just happy that the week has ended.
the year is ending, it's kinda scary to me. cos i have yet to sit down and forecast what's coming. i dun like to cross the year unknowingly, without expectation/resolutions.
end of year also means more work. i haven't done much of my work lor, most of the time i am doing Maj Lim's stuffs... good or bad? i dun know. i need more time/ erm.. i think i need a better brain. haha.. okok..
enough of my pessimistic, self-pity, disappointing, bo liao mentality. let me, as usual, pray that tmr will be fine. ~ tks.
when driving, engine stalls, frequently!
when playing gunbound, kanna whacked heavily and yet i have no means to fight back.. quite shi bai. sigh..
feel so useless. ~
PJ/now called Nelson, called me to watch movie. reallly quite surprised lor.. i mean i dun expect him to contact me after he ORD. maybe cos both of us got similar skin prob. mutual sympathy. tmr is friday, finally. not that i am lookin forward an exciting weekend(cos i dun think i will have one). but i am just happy that the week has ended.
the year is ending, it's kinda scary to me. cos i have yet to sit down and forecast what's coming. i dun like to cross the year unknowingly, without expectation/resolutions.
end of year also means more work. i haven't done much of my work lor, most of the time i am doing Maj Lim's stuffs... good or bad? i dun know. i need more time/ erm.. i think i need a better brain. haha.. okok..
enough of my pessimistic, self-pity, disappointing, bo liao mentality. let me, as usual, pray that tmr will be fine. ~ tks.
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