i am nobody

i am really inflated.. i cannot go on this way.. i will be big-headed and plot my own downfall... but some times, the way Wong treat me really inflate my ego.. argh.. cannnot lah.. maybe i should stop checking ro.. checking ro really give a final shot of ego-inflation at the end of the day..

 

BT also.. during the trip to safti mi keep saying that there are people who says that i am really really needed in the office, that mrs seet cannot lose this clerk etc.. wah lah.. how how!

 

fortunately, there are still people like francis who dun think much of me, who thinks that i am no big deal.. he's like an "informed consumer" who knows there are better "goods" out there.. haha.. thank God.

 

anyway, i think i am doing things wrongly recently. i cannot send the wrong frequency that i am overshadowing mrs seet. i mean, there cannot be anything that only i know. this will really have adverse effect on me!! a boss will never like someone who is doing things that he/she dun know.. what is more for someone who likes to know everything.. i must propagandate this: mrs seet CAN DO WITHOUT ERNEST!.. it's a diff thing to balance... bringing her into the picture too often will impede my work flow and my words will sound less convincing and authoritative.. but if i dun work, using her name, i seem to be taking things too much into my own hands.. .. that is why, when i want to raise 1Gds OS today, i ask her to sign a covering letter.. i used to write my own email and send to 1Gds chief clerk. hmm.. hope by doing this, will be doing both side a service.

 

now i know why Adrian's stuff is always signed by fmncc although he is doing it.. erm.. but he's regular leh.. aiyah, dun know lah.. see how lor.. hope i can find my way to do things..