i wish

i wish for a lot of things. and i dun think i can tell them here coherently.... if i talk properly here,m i am not myself. what the heck.
but if i dun talk properly.. what' the point.? people alwyas, even phycho test keep telling me that i am a person of disorgansied thoughts and people cannot follow my thoughts!!

is that why my office sux now? my office really sux.. everyone is so uncoperative. where is the previously happy, productive office and workteam. i made a MISTAKe. i am doing to much.. everyone in the office think that erenst can do it. RO, nvm got ernest, PS, also got ernest, ACTIVE, all by ernest, minutes also can give ernest, FOE, AOR, OA sys, LOG CASE, draft letters, store items, authenticate stores, registry, despatch... NS clerks not around, ernest can cover ALSO, UAS dun know how to use.. can ask him. ARMAS, also can ask ernest. someone at the phone taking crap.?" ernest.. you call.."

it is my mistake. i have failed. in even leading a small group of people let the office function!!!! somehow, i understand why a rank is necessary in army. With rank, if you know everything, you are the I/C and you can diseminate the jobs... like usual. without rank, they think you are the clerk for the job. what the hell....

i send RO, they thought i am the RO clerk. why can't they be more discerning to understand that i am sending on behalf of maj lim... i am standing in for mrs seet/maj lim.. not RO clerk.!

being nosey into too many things in office make me hot-tempered!!! and to them, maybe bossy is the correct word. i dun want to be bossy... i jsut wan things to get done. but when i dun see things get done... i just feel crap.. i mean, why are we ^*#)#$&,.... dun knwo lah.. the world just f up....

maybe God should send His fire down today.... okok.. i know it's not time yet.. okook..

(pls forget bout the a/m sentence)

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