learning process

i lost my yellow notebook, the one which i took down messages for all the sundays, shomerim, tuesday prayer mtg and all! argh..

i intend to read thru the book and share them during the camp. too late. maybe God is asking me to start afresh...

feel quite unsure bout this camp. i think i am too ill informed. dun even feel like running the programme. felt that i am quite a puppet and i dun like it but can't be help. felt that i can be something else but welll it's set.

nevermind, i know the ultimate puppeteer behind all sceneS is God. okay.. rest my heart and allow myself to be lead. how can i know how? but i must do it. many of us, including me, have been praying for the camp and i know God will bless it for His name sake or for His purpose. all will be well... in His time and purpose.

while writing, i am still trying very hard... tryin hard to forget the things i am dwelling on and focus on camp.